gottobeme0320

I think in a much simpler thought patern then I think people think I do.

I dont think I have ever thought about judging or judgement up until the last 2 year's. (other then judicial judgement, sociatle law). You do something wrong, you pay the price. What ever that may be. I am a very simple person that way.

But my personal judgment of myself has gotten skewed. Somehow right and wrong got reversed on me, what started out to be right, some how went wrong.
So I am reversing those, bringing back what was right, and eliminating that which was wrong, going back to who I was, not that which I became.

There is a comment that stick's out that a couple of people have made that I did some work for, they asked me how did I know how to do all this stuff I do? I dont know how to answer that, other then I have been doing thing's for so long that I just do.

I grew up in a family that did thing's, I did thing's, kept doing thing's, and now I dont think I remember half the thing I have done, but I have knowledge, so when I do look at something, it seem's simple.

What I like to use for an example on how I think is my car analogy, when I drive a car, I can, in my mind, visualize every component of that vehical in operation at that moment.

So I think were a problem come's is, (like my W has told me), I make thing's look simple, and I think other people think "I think" they should be able to do the same, I dont, but for me thing's are simple, I have a whole life of learning how to do thing's. And I want to do more and more "Thing's".

So people probably feel like I am running them over, but I am not, I like to do thing's, I enjoy learning and expanding my knowledge.
I have never in my life asked for a raise, I have set guidline's on how much money I need to make, I do have a family.

People try and turn sex into an issue, is it? I am not "A" sexual, and I am not gay, so yes it is an issue, but not one I will end my life over.
And I am holding my ground on looking outside my marriage on that issue. The day I got married my W sent me a clear signal about our sex life. so I have learned to live with thing's that way, and if my W need's something, I had better start hearing it.

I still want to do the thing's I alway's wanted to do, the thing's I learned to do, and quite frankly got good at doing, but age and physical limit's are within reach, I am not liking it.

If I haven't confused you enough yet, in short, you are correct, I think.