We don't watch television. Yeah, I don't need any of those things. I need people and something to do to make me feel valuable. If I had to pick one thing it would be recreational companionship I guess. But the numbers are above 200/100,000. Positivity is over 20 percent. The hospitals are overloaded and no one is wearing a mask around here.

We already walk 5 miles together 5 times a week. We just got through going to a cabin for a week. Once a week we try to go to a state park or other place for a picnic. He tells me he loves me so many times a day. We work on projects together. We do not fight. Never have.

I just miss feeling like I am making a valuable contribution to society. I miss people.

I just don't feel much of anything but empty.