Last night H and I had a long conversation about his EA..(i think PA though H insist my accusations are groundless)... see my post about that
hereso anyway we were talking about how occasionally he still missed her and thought of her... yet at the same time he hates her for the "disruption" she caused in our M. and after they "broke up"<p>I did as well as I could in talking about this and LBed only once when I said that he whined about missing her in his fog days.<p>I then said i wanted to drop the topic because it was upsetting me and that i really wanted to go to sleep so i would not let my mind work overtime.<p>H says, "I wish you would trust me"..(I assume this is is said because he know I do not believe that they did not have sex). my reply was... my trust is earned not given freely any more, because every time i start trusting you you do something to screw it up...... His response was, I think I am trustworthy now. [img]images/icons/shocked.gif" border="0[/img]
and I closed the conversation with this... H I think that now at this point and time in our lives that you have more freedom to go to the bar, go to harley shows, go off galavanting and leaving me home than you have ever had. I do not ask you where you have been unless you volenteer that information nor do I question who you are with, nor do I ask you what you did...
unless you volenteer to tell me i do not ask.
and considering the circumstances I think I am doing extremely well with forgiving and trusting you. and the point where I am on that now is as much as you will EVER get from me again.
H seemed upsdet by this but i told him this all i could offer him and that i was sorry to not be able to offer more.<p>
any thoughts