A few weeks after D day my WH left this Three Days Grace CD on the table for me. He always got me cd's. coincidence? i dont know, but the words always made me cry, they haunted me. I was obsessed with it. I pulled it out today and it still makes me cry

let it die

We had fire in our eyes
In the beginning I
Never felt so alive
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't wanna hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore

We had time on our side
In the beginning we
We had nothing to hide
In the beginning you
You blame me but
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't wanna hear it anymore

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore

You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try
You say that I didn't try

I swear I never meant to let it die
I just don't care about you anymore
It's not fair when you say that I didn't try
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore
I just don't care about you anymore

one x

Do you think about
Everything you've been through
You never thought you'd be so depressed
Are you wondering
Is it life or death
Do you think that there's no one like you

We are
We are
We are
We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one
We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one

The life I think about
Is so much better than this
I never thought I'd be stuck in this mess
I'm sick of wondering
Is it life or death
I need to figure out who's behind you

We are
We are
We are
We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one
We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one

The life I think about
Is so much better than this
I never thought I'd be stuck in this mess
I'm sick of wondering
Is it life or death?

We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one
We are the ones
We get knocked down
We get back up and stand above the crowd
We are one

stand above the crowd
stand above the crowd
stand above the crowd (Crowd)
(We stand) We stand above the crowd

on my own

I walk alone
Think of home
Memories of long ago
No one knows I lost my soul long ago

Lie too much
She said that she's had enough
and I Am too much
She said that she's had enough

Standing on my own
Remembering the one I left at home
Forget about the life I used to know
Forget about the one I left at home

I need to run far away
Can't go back to that place
Like she told me
I'm just a big disgrace

Lie too much
She said that she's had enough
Am I too much
She said that she's had enough

Standing on my own
Remembering the one I left at home
Forget about the life I used to know
Forget about the one I left at home
So now I'm standing here alone
I'm learning how to live my life on my own

Lie too much
I think that I've had enough
Am I too much
She said that she's had enough

I'm standing on my own
Remembering the one I left at home
Forget about the life I used to know
Forget about the one I left at home
So now I'm standing here alone
I'm learning how to live life on my own
Forget about the past I'll never know
Forget about the one I left at home

animal

I can't escape this hell,
So many times I've tried,
But I'm still caged inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.

So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal.
(This animal.)

I can't escape myself,( I cant escape myself)
So many times I've lied, ( so many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside,
Somebody get me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.

So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.

Somebody help me through this nightmare,
I can't control myself.
Somebody wake me from this nightmare,
I can't escape this hell.

(This animal. [x7])

So what if you can see,
The darkest side of me,
No one will ever change this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me.
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become.
Help me believe it's not the real me,
Somebody help me tame this animal.

This animal I have become.

time of dying

On the ground I lay
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Did I fall asleep
Is this all a dream
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

On this bed I lay
Losing everything
I can see my life passing me by
Was it all too much
Or just not enough
Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
I will not die, when you're beside me
I will not die, I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

its all over

Your bottles' almost empty
You know this can't go on
Because of you my mind is always racing
The needles' breaking your skin
The scar is sinking in
And now your trip begins but
It's all over for
It's all over for

You
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over for you
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over

I know what runs through your blood
You do this all in vain
Because of you my mind is always racing
And it gets under my skin
To see you giving in
And now your trip begins but
It's all over for
It's all over for

You
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over for you
For you
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over

And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
It's all over
And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
It's all over

And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over for (You, for you)
And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
When you're on the edge and falling off
It's all over for (You, for you)
And now you're dead inside
Still you wonder why
It's all over

never too late

This world will never be, what I expected.
And if I don't belong who would have guessed it?
I will not leave alone everything that I own
to make you feel like it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
still I hear you say you want to end your life...
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around,
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.

No one will ever see this side reflected. And if there's something wrong, who would have guessed it...?
And I have left alone everything that I own.
To make you feel like it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around,
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late...

The world we knew won't come back.
The time we've lost can't get back.
The life we had won't be ours again.

This world will never be what I expected.
And if I don't belong.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
Still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Maybe we'll turn it all around
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.(It's never too late!)
It's not too late.
It's never too late.

gone forever

Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While all these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and f**k and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

I'm not sure if you have a question. Coincidence about what? Your WH is a cruel person and you are continuing to torture yourself as well. Stop it. Don't ruin yourself over this man.

Sorry, just wallowing in my misery today, feeling sorry for myself. You are right, no ? I shouldnt have posted it.

You can post whatever you like. Everyone understands your feelings. BTDT but I'd rather kick your butt out of the funk ya know.

Thanks Br. I guess when i found it today i just couldnt face that this is just another cruel thing to add to list of cruel things my WH did. How could someone be so rotten. I guess in the back of my mind i was hoping he was just stupid and didnt really understand the lyrics he had given to me. we both loved the band. But in reality i know the truth.

CD in the shredder!

Now that i am really looking back on things that have happened. Just an Opinion. Is my WS extraordinarily cruel or just you run of the mill WS cruelness. If you have the time my story is under "my story Still Here8126".

I dont know but the more i look back i just dont know if i should be even bothering to have hope? This guy has run me thru the mill and back. but they all do right?

Thanks guys

I hope you feel better soon. I agree song lyrics can be very upsetting. Most of the time I avoid the problem by listening to lyrics in foreign languages that I don't understand. I am really into Italian tenors right now. LOL

Best wishes.

AM

I think that all WS's are cruel, in some different and very similar ways. The affair and the selfishness is the cruelest of all. Don't dwell on how cruel he is...it will drive you crazy. BTDT, got a t-shirt.

Have you tried listening to some classical (Mozart always makes me smile) or music in different languages, as armymama suggested? Japanese is very cool (jpop), because a lot of the songs sound so happy and sweet, no matter what they are talking about!!

Good luck