Happy Easter to everyone!
I wrote this Friday. Friday was kind of a mess (LONG day at work) and when I got home I just felt moved to write this since it was Good Friday and God has done so much for me in the last couple years. Maybe it will help someone who's struggling between their faith and difficult circumstances. God was so very generous to me in the hard times that came after D-day and during my divorce. I can't recommend enough getting plugged into a good church if you are in a similar situation. Love you guys and thank you for all the help you've given me and so many others!
It's Friday evening and I'm home, end of the week for me.
Today I bear in memory my Savior nailed to a tree.
I've kept busy and distracted with so many tasks at hand.
But none of it means much to me next to the greatness of this Man.
I could share the Gospel story, perhaps it's one that you have heard.
I could cite the history of the Bible, why I believe that it's God's word.
When I was younger I focused more on finding all the reasons to believe,
But the longer life goes on the less on "reasons" do I lean.
For my devotion, His promise of life alone once was enough.
But He's given me so much more when life's waters have become rough.
On Calvary, God stood in for me and opened Heaven's door,
but in life's complications, Jesus has given me so much more.
A steady hand on stormy seas, a guiding light through cloudy skies.
When the tide of sorrows rose, Jesus held me close and kept me dry.
When my world had seemed to crumble and my life slipped through my hands,
Jesus said "I am always with you" and carried me to safer land.
When I'd been betrayed and trust laid shattered on the ground,
Jesus said "I will never leave you" and over me His peace rained down.
When memories and worries struck in me the deepest pain,
I found in the Holy Spirit joy I still cannot explain.
When decisions overwhelmed me and I didn't know who to trust,
Jesus said "Come, confide in me, I will lead you when I must".
When tears were closer company than a chuckle or a smile,
Randomly, Jesus stirred in me, and loved me as His child.
Some days I wasn't even trying, mind drifting far away,
And even then He'd find me, speaking when I didn't pray.
Sometimes I'd felt so dead inside, hard to feel His Spirit anymore.
But when I stop and I look to Him, He shakes me to my core.
I will tell you I've got problems, I'm sure that you can tell.
I will tell you I've made big mistakes, and I deserve to go to Hell.
But all of that's behind me because one day a price was paid.
They beat and killed my Savior, upon Him my many faults were laid.
I understand if you can only look and disbelieve.
But in my heart the cords of trust Jesus does ever-weave.
I remember all the reasons, and sometimes still I have my doubts.
But the things I've seen Jesus do for me will always drive them out.
Happily remarried to wonderful woman who I found using the guidelines in "Buyers, Renters, Freeloaders"
2 baby boys, working on #3 and couldn't ask for anything more.
When my ex's affair happened: BH 28, Ex-WW:29
Married: 7 years
Together: 8 years
D filed: 1/22/2015
D Final: 6/4/2015 My story