I pray for all of here in my daily devotionals and also from a list I pull from the "Restore Ministries" website-I have included myself in these prayer lists as well as at my church and I know that certain loved ones in my life pray for me as well.
My ex-husband called me last night. He told me that he wishes that he never started the affair which ended our marriage and subsequently "messed" up so much of our lives, and he wished that we were still living in our house. I had to agree. However, it is done and can never be undone, and we both can't live a lives filled with regret. I have stated before that he is in a new relationship currently, and I am completely single (my heart still belonging to my XH) Something that I am struggling with is the fact that when he came back to me (after the divorce), I may have taken him for granted and didn't "nuture" our new relationship like I should have.
Not only did he tell me how dreadfully sorry he was (all the time), but he also told me that he would always be there and that he was going "no where", meaning, he wasn't going to start up any new relationships.
Not only did I not start up a relationship with anyone other than XH, I welcomed him back into my life. Yes, it was difficult and painful for me sometimes, but I never lashed out at him. If anything, I just was cautious and couldn't re-marry him right away (like he asked).
I continue to pray for restoration of our marriage and ask that those here would do the same for me.
It hurts so much to think that I may have jeopardized our possible future by not "nuturing" our relationship. He said that we were barely spending anytime together and said that I didn't nuture, etc. We both work alot, but live right around the corner from each other and spent every weekend together. Could I have messed up something I so desparately wanted and prayed for? I have always asked for the Lord to guide me, what did I do? Please pray for me.