My circumstance seems fairly unique here, but I'm hoping to get some help. I've certainly benefitted from reading this, and a few other, forums. For the third time in 4 years my husband has had an online affair. During the counseling the last time (2 years ago), the therapist felt that the experience of online infidelity is not significantly different than real life. I can't imagine how anything could feel worse than what I've gone through - but anyway....<p>We've been together 7 years, married for 4. He loves me, in fact, I absolutely believe he adores me. I know that I love him. He agrees that he has a problem, and can't come up with good reasons for why he does this (I guess I should mention that we met online 7 years ago - hello! Should I have a clue!!) This time, he was involved with a woman we are both friends with, online and in real life. Actually, we're friends with her and her husband, and just spent a weekend sharing a vacation rental with them. He never confesses, I catch him. At least this time, he did not try to deny it. I confronted her as well, she denied it repeatedly until I showed her the copies of the conversations I had.<p>He is devastated, again. Remorseful, apologetic, and begging for a chance to try, again. Vowing it will never happen, again. I have always thought I was a strong person, with strong ethics and self-respect, but I cannot understand why I keep letting this happen to me, and why I put up with it. Then I come and read some of these heartbreaking stories here, and I think I should just shut the heck up and be thankful for what I've got.<p>I have to recognize that I share responsibility here. The closest he can come to an explanation is that he felt he was losing me, that he was doing everything he could and it just didn't seem enough. As I have read through the MB materials, I recognize that I could have been much better in the relationship. He has never missed an opportunity to tell me he loves me, sends me cards, flowers, is more than a 50% partner around the house - and I just kind of suck it up and don't do as much to make sure he knows I love him. Then, I start thinking that maybe I am just rationalizing this entire experience to make me feel better about not ending the relationship.<p>So, here's the crux of my post:
Am I just a freaking idiot to try and fix this again?
Should I insist that he send a break-off letter to this woman? At this point, he just wants to not contact her again - but I would really like to have him send a final letter.<p>KS