Pep,<P>Let me apologize if I came across as saying that I did not feel it was fair or appropriate for you to express your pain to FS. I'm not sure what I said made you take it that way. I have never said that here once to anyone. <P>Of course you have every right to tell him and show him how deeply and permanently (sp?)wounded you are. What I was saying is - don't forget the love part too. <P>It was my way of trying to elicit some positive feelings to come to the surface, and my way of letting you know how defeating it feels to the WS when the majority of emotion you see expressed by the BS is resentment. It's exasperating because as a remorseful WS, you are in tune with your spouse's anger and agree with it, but on the other hand you are trying your best every day to overcome that and see some happiness and light in your lives together. Sometimes it may seem to the WS that despite our best efforts, nothing we say or do is working. I cannot begin to explain to you how desparate tyhis feels, all magnified by the fact that we KNOW we deserve it.<P>Part of solving this equation is for FS to accept that there will be times when you cannot move past your grief. We have seen here that he already does that. The pain his actions have casued you is overwhelming. (Not that I profess to comprehend just how you feel, but that is one of my perceptions of it.) The other part of that equation is for the BS to try to find time when s/he can demonstrate and feel love for he WS. That's why I was saying in my other post about love FS... pull him close, etc. Both ends are frusrtating and painful, and neither side can really relate to the other. But your doing this together is part of what has made you so successful as a couple moving on and moving up. <P>You said it yourself, Pepper - you feel lucky to have a remorseful WS, rather than one who doesn't care at all or is reveling in the pain he's caused you. I was trying to help.<P>So, again, I am truly sorry that my post read that way. I would hate for anyone, WS or BS to get the idea that I think your resentment needs to be smothered. Just the opposite. I was trying to give you a "Pep" talk. (get it?)<P>Hope things are going a little better for the two of you today.<P>Khyra <p>[This message has been edited by Khyra (edited November 29, 2000).]