You know I have never sat down and told H exactly what I think about him. The things that he has shown me in life. The things that he taught me. Where I didnt have the parents to teach me. <P>I was just very depressed today. I was thinking about how I had to have the determination to keep on keeping on. I thought to myself. Where did I learn that? Of course, it was from him. He was the most determined sole that I know of. Should I tell him that his picture is beside my bed not because of him being a wonderful H. Just because I have a note taped to it that says
<BR>Determination- : the act of deciding definitely and firmly; also : the result of such an act of decision b : the power or habit of deciding definitely and firmly : c fixing or finding of the position, magnitude, value, or character of something.
<BR>If there ever was somebody that made "me" beleive in "me". IT WAS YOU!!!!!<P>He really has no idea how he has impacted my life. Those of you who know my whole story. Know about the abuse as a child. H was the only really positive thing that I had.<P>I went up to get the dog Thursday night. He was very distant. He was nice though. He helped me get my stuff together. I had gotten my hair cut. He did tell me that my hair looked good. <BR>I then called him at work on Friday to let him know about us having to sign the separation papers at the the lawyers office. He was fine with that. He of course is wanting them. He told me he wanted them for him. I dont know what that means. I really dont think that he has anyone. I think he is just wanting closure. I DONT WANT TOSIGN..........HOW CAN I TELL HIM? I DONT WANT TO SIGN THE PAPERS. <P>Should I tell him for once how I feel? Can I just leave a note in the box? Just to let him know the reason I am signing if for him?<P>How could he and I destroy something so powerful as our love?<BR><P>------------------<BR>We can do all things through Christ which strengthens us. Repeat that 5 times a day. I promise you success!