This poem was written by Edgar Guest. I hope it brings comfort and courage and hope to be honest and move forward into recovery for all. Maybe it will prevent someone who is dangerously on the edge of unfaithfulness to change their path:

I have to live with myself, an so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don't want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for thing I have done.
I don't want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking nobody else will really know
The kind of man I really am;
I don't want to dress up myself in sham.
I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men's respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don't want to look at myself and know
That I'm bluster and bluff and empty show.
I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never know,
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free."

What a wonderful poem. What a wonderful relief it is to live in truth and light with no more secrets to hide and realize one can now choose the path of integrity and true love.

Thank God for second chances!

Thank God for second chances. God has given me a chance to build back my integrity and character. God is using me again since I have put aside the things that were dishonoring him and my family.
Great poem. I am glad you shared it.

Love in Christ
cajunky

<small>[ September 29, 2002, 07:52 PM: Message edited by: cajunky ]</small>

Cajunky, thank you for sharing your story.

Isn't God's grace amazing? I recall my devestation--I was a minister at the time and it is still hard to reconcile the damage I caused the Kingdom.

Yet after my confession, H and I received a letter from a woman who said our ministry brought her back to Christ. I felt like Peter when Jesus told him to "Feed my lambs" following the denial and resurrection.

It seems so hard to believe we can overcome. Your story is truly amazing and I pray you will be used to save many a marriage.

I'm sorry for the pain you've endured and glad for your new life!