Coasting along...What to do now? - 11/01/09 04:37 AM
I'm not sure if this post belongs here, or in the "divorcing/divorced" group. My apologies if I'm in the wrong one.
Long story short (ok maybe not so short). July 7, 2009 - wife told me she's not in love with me anymore, hasn't been happy during the 13 years of marriage we've had, etc etc etc. Wants out. Shortly thereafter I found out about her EA. Various confrontations resulted and about 2-3 weeks ago, the EA ended; both my WW and the OP decided to call it quits. I believe the EA is indeed ended.
During this time, my wife told me she would be filing for divorce as soon as she had enough $ saved for a retainer for an attorney. I had no reason to doubt her. But I began working on my life, making positive changes for myself (which, truth be told, started happening before D-Day).
I'm living at home and have no plans to move out. Trying to fill the emotional needs of my wife that I have not been fulfilling for quite some time. That is, the needs that she will allow me to fulfill. Helping around the house; taking care of our 3 young children, doing family things, encouraging her in her new job, telling her when she looks beautiful, being a friend to her.
A couple weeks ago, she did file for divorce. I retained my own attorney. Obviously we are in the very initial stages however I expect this process to cost $15-$20k (which we don't have) due to complicated business entities we own, and my attorney says to expect about a year before the divorce is final.
I know that my wife has noticed the changes in me these past 5 months. She has said so to me and I can see her positive reactions when I do something that I may not have done before. She occasionally asks me "who are you?" because of these changes. We both seem happier together although we are not romantic in any way shape or form. Strangely she does things that tell me she is thinking of me, such as calling to get my opinion before buying something for our kids. Or, calling me to tell me she is running late. Or, calling me during the day to tell me how her new job is going.
Getting to my question...I feel like I'm just plodding along and am not in control of this situation. I feel like I'm in the backseat and my wife is in the front seat, driving. What should I expect to happen next, if anything is to happen?
In all likelihood will she continue with the divorce until it's final? My obvious goal is for reconciliation - I love her dearly - so what do I do in the meantime? Just continue doing what I'm doing? Do I try to "make a move" so to speak to try to show her how devastating a divorce will be to us and our children? Do I "make a move" to try to be affectionate with her? I know people here have said to avoid saying "I love you" - does that mean NEVER say it? Or say it without going overboard? Does saying it show a weakness or vulnerability in me from her point of view that may turn her off?
I'm totally confused here. This situation is different than described on a lot of posts from other BS's. Because many times the WW or WH who is having an affair, does not want to end their marriage, they eventually end their affair and rebuild their marriage. In my case, my wife had an EA, wanted a divorce, and now when the EA is over, STILL wants to divorce me.
To add insult to injury, our 13th wedding anniversary is coming up. What do I do about that?!
Thanks for any insight!
Long story short (ok maybe not so short). July 7, 2009 - wife told me she's not in love with me anymore, hasn't been happy during the 13 years of marriage we've had, etc etc etc. Wants out. Shortly thereafter I found out about her EA. Various confrontations resulted and about 2-3 weeks ago, the EA ended; both my WW and the OP decided to call it quits. I believe the EA is indeed ended.
During this time, my wife told me she would be filing for divorce as soon as she had enough $ saved for a retainer for an attorney. I had no reason to doubt her. But I began working on my life, making positive changes for myself (which, truth be told, started happening before D-Day).
I'm living at home and have no plans to move out. Trying to fill the emotional needs of my wife that I have not been fulfilling for quite some time. That is, the needs that she will allow me to fulfill. Helping around the house; taking care of our 3 young children, doing family things, encouraging her in her new job, telling her when she looks beautiful, being a friend to her.
A couple weeks ago, she did file for divorce. I retained my own attorney. Obviously we are in the very initial stages however I expect this process to cost $15-$20k (which we don't have) due to complicated business entities we own, and my attorney says to expect about a year before the divorce is final.
I know that my wife has noticed the changes in me these past 5 months. She has said so to me and I can see her positive reactions when I do something that I may not have done before. She occasionally asks me "who are you?" because of these changes. We both seem happier together although we are not romantic in any way shape or form. Strangely she does things that tell me she is thinking of me, such as calling to get my opinion before buying something for our kids. Or, calling me to tell me she is running late. Or, calling me during the day to tell me how her new job is going.
Getting to my question...I feel like I'm just plodding along and am not in control of this situation. I feel like I'm in the backseat and my wife is in the front seat, driving. What should I expect to happen next, if anything is to happen?
In all likelihood will she continue with the divorce until it's final? My obvious goal is for reconciliation - I love her dearly - so what do I do in the meantime? Just continue doing what I'm doing? Do I try to "make a move" so to speak to try to show her how devastating a divorce will be to us and our children? Do I "make a move" to try to be affectionate with her? I know people here have said to avoid saying "I love you" - does that mean NEVER say it? Or say it without going overboard? Does saying it show a weakness or vulnerability in me from her point of view that may turn her off?
I'm totally confused here. This situation is different than described on a lot of posts from other BS's. Because many times the WW or WH who is having an affair, does not want to end their marriage, they eventually end their affair and rebuild their marriage. In my case, my wife had an EA, wanted a divorce, and now when the EA is over, STILL wants to divorce me.
To add insult to injury, our 13th wedding anniversary is coming up. What do I do about that?!
Thanks for any insight!