Coping or Apathy? Dangers of not caring anymore!!! - 03/14/00 04:55 PM
We are closing in on 2 years now. My H's OW is out of the picture. He is home. We are working on each other's needs, I'm trying hard not to lovebust and to not be overly lovebust sensitive. <P>I think I have grown numb again. When I think about our marriage I feel nothing. If I think about divorce I feel nothing. When I think about his affair I feel the same painful stab in my heart that I have felt for 2 years. I think it is a little less acute, but still there.<P>Is this learning to cope, or is it the absence of any feelings or love toward my H.<P>I know I am not happy, but don't know what must change to get me that way.<P>I have been working on myself and feel good about myself, but also feel that I wouldn't miss a beat if my marriage ended today. This scares me.<BR>