Didn't get here fast enough, before bc!<P>BC - at least we know you're still out there. Listen to NoTrust (although she should be using her other name...). She got me through a lot. To the point where my H and I are now renewing our vows at the end of September.<P>I think you've just become numb to the whole thing which isn't good either. I think one day soon, you're just going to wake up one morning and that'll be it. You'll be out on your own, carefree, and loving life, on your own because you know you can!
<P>I do hope you're still going to Al-Anon. You always seem so hopeful after your meetings. I just hope by now that hopefulness is carrying over than just a few hours. Doesn't really sound it yet, but it does sound like you have detached a bit. Which is good!<P>Vent when you need to. We're always here for ya. I know sometimes you feel like a broken record, because he hasn't learned yet, but he will. I just hope your sanity stays in check! Just remember, you are the most important thing to worry about right now. Keep it safe for you.<P>Hang in, chin up, there's a rainbow out there with your name on it, and at the rate it's moving, looks like it'll be over your head before you know it.<P>--purplemag