for those of you who read my lame haiku.... - 05/19/00 02:15 PM
Well, it is all out in the open. He won't give her up, she calls here all the time, he insists that i leave as soon as possible..i've just been pushed to the side. He makes these lame little comments that maybe we can find some common ground and work things out, but in the same breath mutters something about her being the love of his life.<BR>I guess im moving from "conflict" to "withdrawal" (we have not had "intimacy" in years, really). We both forgot our meds yesterday, and we had some bickering (usually i do very little around HIS house, i hate this place, and just don't have the energy, what with the 2 little ones, but yesterday i went out to help in the garden, and of course we ended up LBing and it hardly seemed worth the effort).<BR>He can't afford the lawyer to get me out of this court thing, so i finally had to break down and call my family (ugh), but dad finally has a decent job, and said he'd do what he could, so i hope everything works out real fast and i can go to texas for a month or so with the babies and get my head straight.<BR>sigh.<BR>I suppose i am worth more than this,huh? am i so bad that my husband can just have another woman as his "best friend" and im not supposed to feel bad about it? Deb, i can really empathize with you and all bozo's online friends and such. yuck. i feel like i must be such a pathetic loser...<BR>oh well, his loss