It's really bad - 09/21/00 04:56 PM
Everytime I post lately my computer freezes up, so I'm hoping this time will work<P>He wants to seperate out bank accounts.<P>He wants to be free to date.<P>He uninvited me to a concert with the kids.<P>He does not want a divorce "yet" because he isn't 100% sure.<P>I lost it...cried, puked. He said that was it...he knew I couldn't handle this. Said he'd come home if I told him to. I said yeah, I do...he said he'll come in Nov. when his lease runs out, but to not expect him to be faithful or to love me.<P>He's done. I know I can't accept his return this way. <P>Couldn't go to work today...didn't sleep last night.<P>Is there any use going to a Plan B at this point?<P>I am not well. I am going to have a breakdown I think.<P>How do I take care of us all?<P>Sometimes when the fog lifts, underneath is not good. He said a few months ago that he really was wanting to come home, but he changed again...could not give me a reason for changing.<P>He wants to date a woman from his high school reunion committee...she's been asking him out and so far he's said no "supposedly". I told him that being married hasn't stopped him from dating before, why should it now.<P>He just doesn't love me...he cares, says something is still there...but is stepping his way out of this marriage like he's had it planned like this. Every few months...wham...another revelation. <P>Sorry for the depressing post.<P>Just a question...I've been leaving (or not) on the weekends he sees the kids, cuz they hate his apartment. I was planning on going to my moms this weekend so he could stay here. But, why should I? I feel bad for the kids, but he needs to see what his new life will be like. He comes over here whenever he wants, flops down in front of the TV, gets himself food and beers, falls asleep here. I think enough is enough. Time for no contact?<P>Oh God....allison