Found out Friday - 05/13/09 10:21 AM
My husband of 3.5 years just admitted that he has slept with 4 other women since we've been married. We had a rough time when we first got married, and things were bad- I am not disillusioned about that time in our marriage. He says they were all one night stands while he was away on business, and that he didn't get any of their contact info and hasn't spoken to any of them since. He said that he thought at that point in our marriage that it was over anyway. I found out about some lies he had told me around that same time, and I suspected he had cheated, but he swore up and down he would "never do that to me", so we went to counseling, and the last year and a half have been great. but i've never been able to shake that feeling that something had happened, so I asked him again this weekend, and he finally admitted it to me.
My heart literally hurts. I can't eat, I can't sleep. I feel like someone has punched me in the stomach. I am so scared, and I can't believe that at the age of 27, this is my life. I am devestated. He says he's sorry and that he felt awful about it, and he didn't tell me bc he didn't want to hurt me any more than he already had. He's saying all the right things, but how can I trust him? And how can he say he loves me if he could hurt me like that? i don't care how bad things have been between us, I have never even once considered going outside our marriage. I am so confused. i just don't know what to do.
My heart literally hurts. I can't eat, I can't sleep. I feel like someone has punched me in the stomach. I am so scared, and I can't believe that at the age of 27, this is my life. I am devestated. He says he's sorry and that he felt awful about it, and he didn't tell me bc he didn't want to hurt me any more than he already had. He's saying all the right things, but how can I trust him? And how can he say he loves me if he could hurt me like that? i don't care how bad things have been between us, I have never even once considered going outside our marriage. I am so confused. i just don't know what to do.