Will WS pas A be taboo forever - 04/16/14 03:27 PM
We are 5.5 years into rebuilding and our M is better than ever. It took me a LONG time to heal but I am finally in a great place thanks the MB, counseling, lots of working together and prayer. Every now and then I feel the urge to talk about my FWH's A. We talked a lot for months after the A and he told me EVERYTHING - every little detail that I asked. After a while we stopped talking about it because in MC we were advised that at some point we need to stop talking about it. I have a particularly hard time letting things go and I replay things over and over in my brain but I am proud of the fact that I have forgiven my DH and I love him more than ever.
I discuss everything with my DH and since his A, he confides in me like never before. We have been together for 21 years and pre-A my DH struggled with communication. Now he spends hours talking to me about his "feelings" about his past, our past, present and future which is wonderful.
The slight problem I am having now is every now and then I want to talk about the A. I don't have any further questions because he answered them all but I feel like eight months of our M are a big black hole that both of us don't go near. I don't want my DH to feel bad (any longer) because he has been WONDERFUL to me, our family and our M. He feels awful about his A and he still feels ashamed and hurt about what he did and I don't want him to feel bad.
Can we ever talk about it again? Is the subject a taboo for us?
I discuss everything with my DH and since his A, he confides in me like never before. We have been together for 21 years and pre-A my DH struggled with communication. Now he spends hours talking to me about his "feelings" about his past, our past, present and future which is wonderful.
The slight problem I am having now is every now and then I want to talk about the A. I don't have any further questions because he answered them all but I feel like eight months of our M are a big black hole that both of us don't go near. I don't want my DH to feel bad (any longer) because he has been WONDERFUL to me, our family and our M. He feels awful about his A and he still feels ashamed and hurt about what he did and I don't want him to feel bad.
Can we ever talk about it again? Is the subject a taboo for us?