she wants a divorce - 10/18/18 05:02 PM
Hi 1st post. In July 2018 wife told me she wants a divorce and it blew me away. I moved out a month later in Aug. Wife has/had depression and i was not there for her thought if gave her space that was what she needed. I WAS WRONG and told her. We both had with drawn from each other and have kids so that was hard to make time for each other. Also i think a reason is our oldest for some reason does not want me there and when moves out would not come back to visit so i feel like this is the/a reason. I have talked to my wife mostly on face book and sent letters telling her i am sorry and the things i did i was wrong. Also i watched porn off/on during the marriage but just watched no play. Also we are both Christians. I have seen stuff on line,reading books etc to help me cope and change. I do want to get back with my family and my love for my wife is stronger than ever. Only thing good about this is i have gotten closure to God and reading the bible. I know i can and will change for my family if given a chance. She has said many times hope we can be friends and maybe with benefits. We have had sex 2 times and plan to again soon .We dont want a new relationships etc bc of all the hurt and getting to know them etc. I have seen 2 counselors and 1 was a former pastor and she does not want too. I asked about a few weeks ago if we could to heal said no. I dont understand this bc weeks before she told me we was texting i love you no i love you more etc. I asked her if any chance on getting back together in a few yrs and she said no. ***EDIT*** and today just got His Needs Her Needs from the library. Also on top of all this I lost my job on Monday of this month. Dont know what i will do. Thanks