This is my story and I might stick to it.......... - 05/13/09 12:43 PM
I have been coming to MB for about 1 month now just lurking and reading. I am very impressed with the MB concepts and have actually bought HNHN and have been journaling about them. I have not had the courage to ask my husband to read it, discuss it, or even come to the site.
I have read several peoples story and really appreciate the advice of several people who seem to come here often. I hope they can can be as O&H with me as they have been with others.
I came here initially because as my user names implies I was right on the verge (actually that a lie). I was having an EA with a guy I dated from high school. Since then he decided to stop the communication because after all I am a married woman. While my feeling were hurt I know that was the right thing and really has made me want to focus on what is going wrong in my marriage.
My husband and I have been married for 10 years, 2 kids DD-8 and DD-4 and recently renewed our vows. To be completely honest that is what I wanted but i was very conflicted during that time because of the EA. He is a good guy with GREAT potential. He is dedicated to his family, he's a hard worker, and very sensitive.
My H and I are currently going to C. It initially started out as marriage issues but has turned into me trying to resolve issues of mine related to childhood sexual abuse, a very conflictual relationship with my mother and brother, and how these issues cause me to project and defend that interefers with my marriage.
I will say that before the EA begun. I had just ended what could be classified as an EA with "my 1st love" for over 10 years which is basically our entire marriage. Initially my husband knew that he and I talked but he had asked me to stop and I did not. This guy is married also and our involvement was phone calls, text messages, and occassionally phone sex. My husband looked at my phone in March and saw that I was still tlaking to him and asked that I end it. I did and have not had any contact with his since then. But approx 8 days after that the other EA enters the picture. I made the contact with him which I really called to just check on him because he has been ill. However when we talked he told me how much he still cared about me and really felt like I was the woman that he let get away. As from there things deteriotated. My husband does not know about the 2nd EA.
I have told my husband that I have some needs that are not being met. Im sure he does to. As I tend to exhibit some bi-polar tendencies at times. I am currently taking Cymbalta which seems to be working. When I told him that he said "really I am the happiest I have been." That was the end of the conversation for several days until we went to C and I brought it up and told him I basically felt ignored and that he did not seem to care. Since then we have had a short talk about our roles and some of our expectations of each other.
I am looking forward to talking more and receiving feedback, even if its 2X4's.
I have read several peoples story and really appreciate the advice of several people who seem to come here often. I hope they can can be as O&H with me as they have been with others.
I came here initially because as my user names implies I was right on the verge (actually that a lie). I was having an EA with a guy I dated from high school. Since then he decided to stop the communication because after all I am a married woman. While my feeling were hurt I know that was the right thing and really has made me want to focus on what is going wrong in my marriage.
My husband and I have been married for 10 years, 2 kids DD-8 and DD-4 and recently renewed our vows. To be completely honest that is what I wanted but i was very conflicted during that time because of the EA. He is a good guy with GREAT potential. He is dedicated to his family, he's a hard worker, and very sensitive.
My H and I are currently going to C. It initially started out as marriage issues but has turned into me trying to resolve issues of mine related to childhood sexual abuse, a very conflictual relationship with my mother and brother, and how these issues cause me to project and defend that interefers with my marriage.
I will say that before the EA begun. I had just ended what could be classified as an EA with "my 1st love" for over 10 years which is basically our entire marriage. Initially my husband knew that he and I talked but he had asked me to stop and I did not. This guy is married also and our involvement was phone calls, text messages, and occassionally phone sex. My husband looked at my phone in March and saw that I was still tlaking to him and asked that I end it. I did and have not had any contact with his since then. But approx 8 days after that the other EA enters the picture. I made the contact with him which I really called to just check on him because he has been ill. However when we talked he told me how much he still cared about me and really felt like I was the woman that he let get away. As from there things deteriotated. My husband does not know about the 2nd EA.
I have told my husband that I have some needs that are not being met. Im sure he does to. As I tend to exhibit some bi-polar tendencies at times. I am currently taking Cymbalta which seems to be working. When I told him that he said "really I am the happiest I have been." That was the end of the conversation for several days until we went to C and I brought it up and told him I basically felt ignored and that he did not seem to care. Since then we have had a short talk about our roles and some of our expectations of each other.
I am looking forward to talking more and receiving feedback, even if its 2X4's.