Thoughts... - 08/04/10 07:22 PM
Imagine a wall, it is holding back "bad things". This wall has leaks, and is damaged. It protected the me that ppl see, kept me from feeling the pain. It allowed me to function, to get by. However Because of the damage some of the bad gets out ocasionally, hence my anger issues.
#2 Heavily damaged the wall, the current situation was the final blow.
The way it feels now after all I have gone though recently is as if the wall is gone, completely destroyed.
I'm not letting the "bad" free, I still keep it in check. I am comming to terms with it (slowly)
The issue is that I "feel" all the hurt, all the pain.
I'm sitting here at work in front of the computer and I'm having a panic attack!! I've not had them before. I know I need to face these things, but now I remember why I kept it "stuffed".
Still thinking positive
Just some thoughts, working things out in my head
Thanks,
Jason
#2 Heavily damaged the wall, the current situation was the final blow.
The way it feels now after all I have gone though recently is as if the wall is gone, completely destroyed.
I'm not letting the "bad" free, I still keep it in check. I am comming to terms with it (slowly)
The issue is that I "feel" all the hurt, all the pain.
I'm sitting here at work in front of the computer and I'm having a panic attack!! I've not had them before. I know I need to face these things, but now I remember why I kept it "stuffed".
Still thinking positive
Just some thoughts, working things out in my head
Thanks,
Jason