LS caused probelms with marriage - 10/28/13 01:45 AM
Okay, I've been reading about this forum and I am ready to get some feedback. I will start first by stating that we are somewhat nontraditional. While we have been married for 7 years, we have also practiced an alternative lifestyle (LS) that is a big cause of our issues, however it isn't the sole source.
WW and I have known each other for 17 years, dated for 3, married for 7. Almost from the beginning we started going to swing clubs and experimenting. This was something I did in a previous relationship and she knew about it. For the most part we had a set of hard rules that include CC with each other, nothing outside of the parties, and if one wants out then we both get out of the LS. WW gave me free reign to do what I wanted, but I knew she was doing it to please me. We met some cool people, and did some interesting things, but in the end, it wasn't worth the head and heartaches.
About 2 years ago, one couple we knew from the LS were having problems. WW liked the OM, but never did anything. Earlier this year, OM files for divorce, but it never materialized. WW starts to hang with him at the clubs. One thing leads to another and they have sex, but everything is contained in the clubs. OM starts texting WW with my knowledge. I take a trip in March and WW & OM have PA. DDay1 happens soon after and we agree that OM is a POS, but they remain in contact. Over the summer, they continue EA & PA. WW attitude changes and starts to hide things. Finally one night at a regular club with OM was at, I confronted her. Things go sideways. WW admits to ongoing EA/PA, that she loves him but loves me too. She says that she doesn't feel the same about me as she used to (ILYBNILWY).
Right after DDay2, I delete all of our LS related sites. It was not worth the problems we are having. We are going to counseling, but she has severe issues. FIL passed away a year ago and WW becomes emotionally distant. Her ENs were not being met by me, with is why the OM was able to exploit her and get into our lives. I have gone to my therapist, but WW hasn't done so as of yet. I am pretty certain the POSOM and WW are still in contact, but she denies it. I don't believe in divorce, but WW has gone to a high price family lawyer this past week. We are living together, but she has moved into a back bedroom. We can talk and banter and best buds, but when we try to communicate it gets bad. I have done a lot to change myself for the better, but I know it will be a long road to recovery. I don't want to lose her, but I am not sure we can survive this without help.
WW and I have known each other for 17 years, dated for 3, married for 7. Almost from the beginning we started going to swing clubs and experimenting. This was something I did in a previous relationship and she knew about it. For the most part we had a set of hard rules that include CC with each other, nothing outside of the parties, and if one wants out then we both get out of the LS. WW gave me free reign to do what I wanted, but I knew she was doing it to please me. We met some cool people, and did some interesting things, but in the end, it wasn't worth the head and heartaches.
About 2 years ago, one couple we knew from the LS were having problems. WW liked the OM, but never did anything. Earlier this year, OM files for divorce, but it never materialized. WW starts to hang with him at the clubs. One thing leads to another and they have sex, but everything is contained in the clubs. OM starts texting WW with my knowledge. I take a trip in March and WW & OM have PA. DDay1 happens soon after and we agree that OM is a POS, but they remain in contact. Over the summer, they continue EA & PA. WW attitude changes and starts to hide things. Finally one night at a regular club with OM was at, I confronted her. Things go sideways. WW admits to ongoing EA/PA, that she loves him but loves me too. She says that she doesn't feel the same about me as she used to (ILYBNILWY).
Right after DDay2, I delete all of our LS related sites. It was not worth the problems we are having. We are going to counseling, but she has severe issues. FIL passed away a year ago and WW becomes emotionally distant. Her ENs were not being met by me, with is why the OM was able to exploit her and get into our lives. I have gone to my therapist, but WW hasn't done so as of yet. I am pretty certain the POSOM and WW are still in contact, but she denies it. I don't believe in divorce, but WW has gone to a high price family lawyer this past week. We are living together, but she has moved into a back bedroom. We can talk and banter and best buds, but when we try to communicate it gets bad. I have done a lot to change myself for the better, but I know it will be a long road to recovery. I don't want to lose her, but I am not sure we can survive this without help.