Thread for Fate - 07/02/15 12:17 AM
I am absolutely willing and wanting to rebuild our marriage, but I cannot do it alone. It seems that she is still in the fog, and still unwilling to take the steps necessary to affair-proof the marriage. I am supposed to simply accept the excuses which are numerous and convenient. And if I don't then she throws a tantrum. But I've heard them all over the years. I used to be the OM. All the deceptive techniques that she used to tell me about using on her first husband, are now being used on me. But she's refined them, I must say. Very careful. Takes pride in it, you might say.
She wanted to stay married to him, too. Wanted both of us.
I honestly believe she's serious for a few days, and then I see behaviors that remind me things haven't changed. She enjoys this too much. I can see the quick flash of contempt. The sly little smile while watching whether I've digested another lie. The games. You're good babe, but not at what I need.
Most people aren't prepared for her and don't see it coming, if they ever do. I saw it from the other side, and I have to say I actually found it attractive. My first relationship. I guess I couldn't see the obvious.
I am here, waiting for you to be on my side for once. Not putting on the show, but actually living it.
Me.
She wanted to stay married to him, too. Wanted both of us.
I honestly believe she's serious for a few days, and then I see behaviors that remind me things haven't changed. She enjoys this too much. I can see the quick flash of contempt. The sly little smile while watching whether I've digested another lie. The games. You're good babe, but not at what I need.
Most people aren't prepared for her and don't see it coming, if they ever do. I saw it from the other side, and I have to say I actually found it attractive. My first relationship. I guess I couldn't see the obvious.
I am here, waiting for you to be on my side for once. Not putting on the show, but actually living it.
Me.