Gerka, be aware that BS's are at risk for PTSD, you can google it and there is even a thread here on it.

As far as the meds, just don't close the door to that type of support.

And ..... you are not defined by your WW's A, or whether or not your M recovers.

Remember, Plan A is about becoming a better you, not only in the WS's eyes, but your own too.

M'd 22 years
BW-me
D-Day 08/08 LTA