When my thoughts start into that obsessive circle "how could he? What do I do now? it hurts so much!", and it feels like a whirlpool leading down to despair, I sing one of the hymns from my childhood. Just that couple of minutes is enough usually to break the cycle and let me take a deep breath and move forward. The song? Jesus Loves Me. It reminds me that I am worthy of love.

Jesus loves me! this I know,
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong;
they are weak but He is strong.

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

When the nights are dark and long,
In my heart He puts a song.
Telling me in words so clear,
"Have no fear, for I am near."

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

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And WHY I stick with the marriage:

Because dang it, I'm not going to let the last 33 years of my life have been wasted! Somewhere beneath all this horse s--t, there's got to be a pony!


Last edited by EllenG; 09/17/10 05:18 PM.
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FBS- me, 53
FWH-53
Married 34 yrs
DD 27 and 30, DS 19 (disabled)
after 2nd DDay, filed for D Dec 09 (me)
6-6-10 WH moved in with OW
7-3-10 WH returned home
taking recovery one day at a time

"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See I am doing a new thing!
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland."
Isaiah 43:18-19