GeorgiaSweetie, you've written my post for me too! I have exactly the same fears and doubts and most days think, well, if no one ever loves me again, (and I too feel like almost 50 is pushing it, although the Oil of Olay has done wonders!!) at least I had the love of my life at one time...even if he did turn out to be a lying cheating sack of **** [Mad]
So if I never find it again, I can take solace in the good memories from a few years ago.
And who knows what God has in store for us?