RokKev,

Thank you for your words of sympathy. I just don't know why this last revelation has bothered me so. I guess it will take a lot more time to cleanse my heart and soul of this woman.

Several months ago I released this to the Lord and his infinite wisdom. I know that all this is occuring for a reason that he will eventually reveal to me. I pray for continued strength and guidance from God and my friends here at MB.

I think there are many of us that follow your trials, but don't comment much.

I think it's time for you to finish your healing. It's not always clear how to acomplish this, but God knows. I am glad you take your troubles to him, I believe you will get the help you seek.

May God bless you as you continue to seek his face.

SS

Well now she showed up at my office after hours. I am usually there late catching up on charting but this date I decided to go home early. She ran into two of my office girls( she walked in with the cleaning crew). My girls said she appeared very put off by finding them there. She stammered that she was looking for me and then beat a hasty retreat out the door.

Friends that I had not seen in some time dropped in to say hello the same afternoon and insisted on telling me she has made contact with them also but pointedly stayed away from mentioning my name.

Within 15 minutes of my office girl calling and telling me about the office sighting, I got a call on my cellular line from her fax line number at our old house. After seeing who it was on caller ID, I let it go to voice mail but she did not leave a message this time.

I expect this Labor Day to produce some fireworks. It appears this WW activity is much more than a casual attempt to speak to me.

She should be happy, lawyers are working on finalizing the D, she got her boyfriend to break off his engagement with his long time fiancee and she is reaching out to her old friends.

For everything else there is Mastercard

all is not well in laa~laa land

some people have a gift for happiness <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

some people lack happiness DNA

You know Doctor ... long time ago I suspected your W might be a high functioning boarderline .... we discussed this a little bit ... any thoughts?

Pep,

Yes she was diagnosed both borderline and bipolar by three psychologists/psychiatrists.

I believe she is trying to Hoover me

"hoover"

sucker

Cymanca, does it see to you that the visitations are becoming more frequent to a wider scope of people and actually entering the immediate realm? It is not like she is hanging out at the coffee shop that you go to...hoping to run into you. Sightings at the your weekend home and now to your office..... What do you think you will do when you come face to face with her? Sounds as if she will orchestrate that one soon..... Above all, stay safe and stay well, Cymanca.

SS,

My conversation will consist of a friendly " If this concerns the D have your lawyer contact mine. As I have stated in the past , that is what I am paying my attorney to do. If this is of a personal nature the last time I checked my email there was no NC letter as you agreed to do 1 and 1/2 years ago. So in that regard we have absolutely nothing to discuss. Have a nice day"

Edited to add: I will make sure that any meeting occurs or is immediatley shifted to a public area, so that emotions will hopefully be held in check.

Hi, Cyman.

That is a sound plan. She will try her best to engage you, politely at first, then with greater desperation. Do be careful not to turn your back to her until she is out of striking distance.

God bless,
Gimble

Cy, I just read your story. Gee willikers, not sure what to say but I think Pep hit it right on the head as things are no longer so great in your WS' laa laa land. She obviously had her cake and you...and it sounds like the cake is no longer tasting very good. I really do believe she is looking for attention from you now that things are most likely crumbling on the other end.

Be strong as much as you can. It sounds like she is very confused and possible thinking twice about the whole D.

Nature

Well,well,well.Nature! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

Do tell.How are things with your F?WW since you two reconciled? I hope you are doing ok.

Cy,

Would you really contemplate taking your WW back after all this? I don't know about you but there isn't anything my STBXWH could do now to make me even consider it and I know it wouldn't happen anyway.WH is too much of a coward to admit mistakes and work on anything.

I don't like,respect or even want to know WH anymore.He is just such a different person now or,maybe more of himself than ever.Who knows.

Hope your Mom is doing well despite her circumstances.

O

Nature,

It seems to be the general consensus from my friends here and in my little part of the world that what you say is correct.

For some reason, I just doubt it. It doesn't make sense and it especially doesn't make Mrs. Cymanca sense. If she wanted to approach me, why not go the NC way and rip off the letter to my email? I know WS's are irrational but what would possibly convince her that I would listen much less talk to her after my VERY good Plan B. Mrs Cymanca is not stupid(matter of fact she makes me look like a moron) and she knows that in the past I have made some very hard decisions and stuck by them through some very trying times.

10Girl: I couldn't imagine my STBXW ever making the committment to save this M. As I told her during our two day false recovery, she couldn't keep her vows during the good times and we hadn't even gotten to the hard times as per marriage vows.

I could bluster and say ****** no I wouldn't take her back but that would only be 99% true.

But being on these boards and seeing and reading some of the turn arounds that some FWS's have made, would make that remaining 1% a real but veeeeeeery remote possibilty.

10Girl, I know you would have to admit the same if faced with that WS's epiphany.

Edited to add: I received another voicemail(erased and unheard) while driving home this afternoon. The attempted contacts are definitely increasing. I suspect WW has her holidays mixed up and thinks that she is going to shoot off fireworks this weekend <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

That's where I know I am different than many other's.I never want my WH back.Ever.There isn't any epiphany or groveling he could ever do to make me go back to him knowing all the pain he caused me,all those terrible painful words he said(fogbabble or not),the anxiety,the sexual issues,the unreachable gone missing days and nights and leaving me alone in my most dire hours,the lack of change and work he needed to do and the pain he caused my beautiful daughters.

No.I would be betraying *myself if I ever accepted that man back in my life.

Anyway,waiting and watching to see what Mrs.Cy is up to.Hmmmm.

TTFN~

10Girl,

I am very sorry to hear that anyone that is so capable of a loving and caring relationship has been so completly destroyed by so callous a man as your STBXH.

Your posts have meant so much to me in these past months. Your intelligence, encouragement and sense of humor has helped carry me through some very dark times.

You have so much to offer to any man, and I pray that someday you will again have that opportunity.

Thank you Cy for those kind sentiments.I feel the same about you and I also believe you have much to offer.

It's odd though.I do feel like I have so much to offer but yet I may just end up alone/on my own.I am reading the Dating board and it's depressing.I have "high" standards for myself and my daughters so who knows what will happen.

Anyhoo,you have helped me greatly as well.I know you will be Ok no matter what the outcome is with your WW.You sound confident and I admire you adherence to the plans and staying true to yourself.Maybe just maybe your WW will come around,for the 1%,that is. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Night~

I can't stop laughing. No, STBXW did not show up this weekend but I got the funniest bit of news a few minutes ago.

My STBXW was unable to track me down this weekend because her best friend(the one that paid for,planned and lent the use of her eail account so my WW could continue her tryst with the OM) was getting

MARRIED

The whole office is coming up with new vows that this epitome of immorality exchanged with her new spouse.

Sorry, I can not stop laughing. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Careful bub. You're gonna squirt coffee out of your nose.

I'm glad you can laugh. It's good to "hear" you laugh.

- Kimmy

Delean,

Not coffee, my drug of choice is Diet Coke.

I think I even surprised my office staff with how much I enjoyed this latest tidbit.

>Diet Coke.

Me too. But shhh! Don't let Mel hear us.

Kimmy,

Isn't it legal in Texas?