Oh no..............

It's okay. This wasn't the first 'scare'. I'm going to get myself into the private forum so no one can 'check up on me'. I thought it was a joke, but there are sonogram images to prove it.

It's nice knowing you're still around, believer.

Well, she was so desperate to hang on to him - now she will have contact with him for the next 18 years.

Yes, get into the private forum so they can't stalk you here anymore.

I'm so sorry Gynn.

I am sooo sorry too.

There isn't a lot of activity over there, so I'll figure out some way to be here. Honestly, I don't know if she'll even attempt to track me down over here. Any speck of me thinking she was a semi-decent human being is gone, so of course I'm not going to trust her. As far as WH goes. .. I can't believe much that he says and he still .. well, I'll write about it another time.
I'm sorry, too.

(((Gwynn))

I just read your entire thread yesterday Gwynny! I feel like I got to the end of a powerful book and someone had cut out the last two chapters. I pray you are doing better personally and got to finish nursing school. Your WH obviously still has his head up his rear.

I have added you to my MB prayer list. You are obviously a strong woman and a good mother. You will get through this too.

God's Blessings,

Say

Aww. That's nice of you to say. I was thinking of writing a book. The story is a little bit more complex and hopefully sometime soon I'll fill in the gaps and amuse you. Yes, I know infidelity isn't funny, but I have no idea how I would have gotten this far without a LARGE dose of a sense of humor.

No, I never did get to finish school. I can't really afford the daycare right now even tnough, thanks to some nice people - I still have my scholarship. (I was told I get to hold on to it as long as I need because they believe I have the desire to finish). I have a semester and a half to go. I was going to go back this summer, but since nothing has really gotten better per se, it may be fall, but I will finish!

You have so little to finish, I hope you can find a way to do it. There must be some kind of grants through the state or federal government. You deserve some help!

Gwyn,

I've just read you entire thread . . . what a ride. BTW I think you husband is a selfish jerk and I just can imagine him forcing the OW into your life the way he has. He wins the award for the foulest WS I've seen in years.

Somewhere way back you metioned that you have lost hearing in your ear and you experience vertigo. You may have Ménière's Disease . There is no cure but if you regulate your salt intake it usually stops the vertigo. It has to do with an inbalance between the ratio of sodium chloride to potasium chloride in your inner ear.


http://www.webmd.com/brain/tc/menieres-disease-topic-overview


Take care.

CN

Comfortably Numb - I thought it was Meniere's at one point, too, but with it the vertigo and the hearing loss fluctuate (as the levels fluctuate) and well, I'm just deaf and dizzy all the time. Mine's more of the 8th cranial nerve destruction kind - that's why I don't think my hearing is ever going to come back and that's pretty much what the ENT said, too.

I'll tell you what I think of my WS. I think he is selfish, but he has a lot of guilt. Now that OW has verified she's pregnant, he feels like he needs to stay with her and not make the same mistake when he left me, but is it wrong for me to not think that's good enough? I gave him the ultimatum. He needs to come home. I really need to get more time and a new pseudonym to explain what's happened..

Hah, my mom told me if I put the divorce papers in I can use welfare to get myself through school. I was like.. lovely? I don't want to use that type of thing unless I have to.

I've read your entire board in the past few hours, and I'm pretty much bowled over by how amazingly well you've come through this. I think it's a miracle that you've managed to stay on top of things as well as you have with as much as you have on your plate.

Right now it likely looks bleak. And for a while it seemed like things were going great for your husband...but think about what he's going through now, compared to what you know WILL happen down the road when OW has the baby. Even if he does return to you at this point, and complies with MB principles, etc, etc, etc, and so on, he's going to have to deal with this manipulative OW and the (from what you've described of her, I feel it is safe to assume this) child who she will undoubtedly use as a pawn to control him.

And I agree with believer. You have so little to finish, and deserve some help. I will pray for you and hope that G-d sends you the help you need.

Just a shoutout, to see how you are faring. I hope things are going better for you.

Ah, it's been a long time.
Things haven't changed too much, I guess. WS joined the Merchant Marines (yes, actually. Can't remember if I mentioned that) so he's been gone a lot and thus hasn't had to deal with all the drama. However, OW is making it her business to make mine and his life as hard as possible. There's some speculation that the OC may not be his. I wouldn't put it past her. She's been 'rescheduling' her amniocentesis a few times from what I heard and I can't really think of a reason that you would miss something like that if you cared about your unborn child, maybe that's just me. And she told WS if he wanted DNA testing he would have to pay for it, knowing full well he can't afford it right now.

I am pretty sure she's been spying on me. She used to drive around my apartment and WS's dad's house where I've been spending a lot of time lately (and will be moving with the kids at the end of the month since my lease is up and there's no money to put me elsewhere). She's tried to use a tracking system on my phone and has snooped around WS's e-mails sending me a very not so mature one that I might post here. She's ruined my reputation (the little that I had, I guess. I keep to myself mostly). We've come to a conclusion that it may not be about her loving/caring/etc for WS anymore, but to make my life a living hell.

Don't worry, I don't let this bother me. I don't even harbor any ill will; just wish she would just go away. Plain and simple.

Good news though! I got reinstated back into school and so I'll be going back in October, thus finishing a year after my classmates. It'll be done though and I won't have to worry about how to take care of the kids no matter the outcome.

I want our marriage to work even after all this. I *know* for a fact I've changed a lot. Did I have a choice? No, perhaps not, but I'm glad I'm not afraid anymore.

Sometimes I feel like I'm given a story with missing pages and it doesn't add all up. He says he feels trapped. I believe that part. On the same token, if you want to leave then wouldn't you just leave?

I'm so delighted you are finishing school!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!

That is so important. Good for you!!!!!! That will be a relief.

I would ignore OW. She sounds like a real psycho-B.