I just want to thank every one these last few days for your words of support, and your firmness when needed.

I also want to apologize for getting the board all in an uproar.
I really should not have brought this here.

I let my feelings over take my sensibilities and became very reactionary, something I did have under pretty good control for awhile. I was just so shocked by what has been happening the last few days that I got very very angry. And anger, of course stems from hurt.

I am also not naive to the fact that words I have posted here as I vented were hurtfult to others. So, in a way, maybe I deserve a bit of venom back for the venom I have at times spewed.

Regardless, it is over and done with and life goes on. I have no control over what people do and I have seen it happen in my life enough to know that those who play games and play with fire eventually get burned. I have big shoulders: hey, if people are laughing it up about me, at least they aren't out there hurting someone else. These are people of my PAST and as long as what they do does not directly effect my life or the lives of my children, I shall be oblivious to it, ignore it, whatever.

I have done a lot of reading and praying today and am feeling more peaceful. I have learned, once again, that I cannot control the actions of others, and that, at times, I may just need to control the things I say as well. I have also learned alot from ba today so thank you to you too!

Again, I thank you all for your support, I thank the mods for keeping things under control, and I do apologize for things becoming what they did.

It's all good, done, and over.
I haven't gotten swept up in drama like that in gosh, probably at least a year or more, and I am disappointed in myself that I fell into it so easily when I despise it so much.

So, I spent my day quietly with my children, reading and enjoying the beautiful weather. I registered for my classes for next semester and looked into what chuch I would like to attend when we move. I think I found a good one for us, it is affiliated with our current church but is much bigger. (not like thousands of people or anything, just bigger as in more activities and more younger people). They offer a lot for the youth and I believe there will be a lot more people there in my age group. How quickly I got pulled away from God these last few days (which again convinces me it was a direct hit by Satan) but today I came back to Him and have turned it all over to Him.
I am in a much better place now. There will ALWAYS be people and situations that will be hurtful, the more important thing is in how you handle it. I did not handle this well at all. I see that now.

Tomorrow I think we will bring more items to the new house. I have a bunch of stuff to donate to charity as well that I will drop off this week. I have busy weeks ahead as we prepare to move and have a b'day party for my kids. You know, THEY are my biggest source of joy!

Have a good evening everyone.
And thank you so much.

Hey Blondie!

We'll just chalk it up to a lingering case of cabin fever left over from a long winter in the frozen north!

You will always have friends around here.

duk

awwww thanks duk, you rock!

wedding is coming up soon for your dd isn't it?

how is life?

i'm fine now...
i've chilled out, cooled off, and mooooooved on.

we move in a few weeks so i have been packing. and, i am super excited because there is a gym where we will be moving so i am not only joining the gym but going to have a personal trainer as well. i loved it when i had one before and LOVE going to the gym.

it takes a LOT to get me mad and boy was i.
but it's all good now.

hugs to ya duk
mlhb