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Being a music buff, I seem to look a little more into lyrics of songs post dday than I did pre dday. I know that a lot of times I'm probably looking into the lyrics a little too much, and that they probably have nothing to do with infidelity, or anything of the like. It just seems that some music was almost written for me lol...if that makes sense.
Does anyone else have any music that they would like to share? Being a BH, my songs are going to be a littlemore "depressing"... shall we say. But, maybe some others may some more inspirational or motivational music as well.
Here is one of mine, with video....
"My Immortal"
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me
You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth"
That's a great song. I do the same thing as you witht he lyrics This is one that I struck a chord with me:
Running Blind (by Godsmack)
Can't find the answers I've been crawling on my knees Looking for anything To keep me from drowning Promises have been turned to lies Can't even be honest inside I'm running backwards Watching my life wave me goodbye
Running blind I'm running blind Somebody help me see I'm running blind
Searching for nothing Wondering if I'll change I'm trying everything But everything still stays the same I thought if I showed you I could fly Wouldn't need anyone by my side I'm running backwards With broken wings I know I'll die
Running blind I'm running blind Somebody help me see I'm running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind
I can't find the answers I've been crawling on my knees Looking for anything To keep me from drowning I'm running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind Running blind
Don't find fault, find a remedy. --Henry Ford
Me (BS) - 30 WH - 35 Married 6 years - Together 11 years No kids...2 adorable boxers WH asked for divorce 5/30/08; D day 6/30/08 to 7/3/08 (confirmed EA turned PA) Exposure to OW's H 7/5/08 WH moved out 7/2/08 Served with papers 7/31/08 (oh what fun!)
I had this song and a few others on infinite loop for days after D-Day. She makes such dark and brooding music.. (I listen to all of her stuff a lot, and like it)
Check out "Call me when your sober" from her as well.
Another one to listen to, which has BS talking to WS written all over it is: "I will possess your heart" by Death Cab for Cutie. The lyrics are below:
How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart (x2)
There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass And I long for this mirrored perspective, when we'll be lovers, lovers at last You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart(x2)
I will possess your heart (x2)
You reject my advances and desperate pleas I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart (x3)
I will possess your heart (x2)
BH - me - 29 WW - 28 Married 07/2001 D-Day #2 - 03/01/2008 03/22/2008 - NC Established 05/??/2008 - NC Broken (I think) 07/01/2008 - WW 'Unsure of what she wants to do'
Oh, and here's one that I've been listening to a lot lately.
I sit alone and watch the clock, Trying to collect my thoughts, All I think about is you. And so I cry myself to sleep, And hope the devil I don't meet. In the dreams that I live through.
Believe in me, and though you've waited for so long, Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong, Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems, Believe in me, cause I was made for chasing dreams.
All the smiles you've had to fake, And all the sh*t you've had to take. Just to lead us here again. I never have the things to say, To make it all just go away, To make it all just disappear.
Believe in me, and though you've waited for so long, Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong, Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems, Believe in me, cause i was made for chasing dreams.
It's my life, It's my choice, Hear my words, Hear my voice, And just believe.
I sit alone and watch the clock, Trying to collect my thoughts, And all i think about is you.
If you believe in me, life's not always what it seems Believe in me, cause i was made for chasing dreams.
Believe in me, and though you've waited for so long, Believe in me, sometimes the weak become the strong, Believe in me, this life's not always what it seems, Believe in me, cause i was made for chasing dreams.
Last edited by Spins1344; 07/01/0811:55 AM.
Don't find fault, find a remedy. --Henry Ford
Me (BS) - 30 WH - 35 Married 6 years - Together 11 years No kids...2 adorable boxers WH asked for divorce 5/30/08; D day 6/30/08 to 7/3/08 (confirmed EA turned PA) Exposure to OW's H 7/5/08 WH moved out 7/2/08 Served with papers 7/31/08 (oh what fun!)
HA! What are the chances I have an Evanescence song too!? This pretty much sums up my marriage:
"Call Me When You're Sober"
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind.
Should I let you fall? Lose it all? So maybe you can remember yourself. Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves . And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late.
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind.
Couldn't take the blame. Sick with shame. Must be exhausting to lose your own game. Selfishly hated, No wonder you're jaded. You can't play the victim this time, And you're too late.
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind.
You never call me when you're sober. You only want it cause it's over, It's over.
How could I have burned paradise? How could I - you were never mine.
So don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. Don't lie to me, Just get your things. I've made up your mind.
Just kidding...this one is a little more light-hearted....
I just wanted to say I love "My Immortal"...
That song came out right before we went to trial for my DD14 (she was 10 at the time)....I cannot tell you how many times that song just made me bawl, yet it was good, because it helped me "mourn" what we were going through....
Unfortunately, I don't really have any songs that got me through this (though Carrie Underwood's "Before He Cheats" always came to mind whenever I walked by his Porsche in the garage.... ;)). Mostly I had that dumba$$ song "Lips of an Angel" (which was their song.... ...) stuck in my head forever....
I don't really like country, but this song cracked me the he77 up!
Collin Raye, "That's my story"
"I came in as the sun came up. She glared at me over her coffee cup. She said, "Where you been?" So I thoguht real hard and said, "I fell asleep in that hammock in the yard." She said, "You don't know it boy, but you just blew it." And I said, "Well that's my story and I'm sticking to it.
That's my story. Oh, that's my story. Well, I ain't got a witness, and I can't prove it, but that's my story and I'm stickin' to it."
I got that deer-in-the-headlight look. She read my face like the cover of a book and said, "Don't expect me to believe all that static, 'cause just last week I threw that hammock in the attic." My skin got so thin so you could see right through it, and I stuttered, "Well that's my story and I'm stickin t-t-to it.
That's my story. Well, that's my story. I ain't got a witness, and I can't prove it, but that's my story and I'm stickin' to it."
You know the time comes when a wise man knows the best thing that he can do is just look her in the eye and beg for mercy and face the bitter truth...
Well honey me and the boys played cards all night. There wasn't no hanky-panky, not a woman in sight. I know I should called, and baby I.. I'm really sorry, but get a cellular phone and then you won't have to worry. You know how much I love ya, darling, and I'm ready to prove it. And that's my story and I'm sticking to it.
That's my story, oh, that's my story. Well I ain't got a witness and ya know I can't prove it. But that's my story and I'm stickin' to it.
You know I ain't gonna do a thing darling unless you approve it. And that's my story and I'm sticking to it."
... how 'bout this one. I believe it was originally an Everly Brothers song covered by Roy Orbison as well, but the Nazareth version is the best...
"Love Hurts"
Love hurts, love scars, Love wounds, and marks, Any heart, not tough, Or strong, enough To take a lot of pain, Take a lot of pain Love is like a cloud Holds a lot of rain Love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts
Im young, I know, But even so I know a thing, or two I learned, from you I really learned a lot, Really learned a lot Love is like a flame It burns you when its hot Love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts
Some fools think of happiness Blissfulness, togetherness Some fools fool themselves I guess Theyre not foolin me
I know it isnt true, I know it isnt true Love is just a lie, Made to make you blue Love hurts, ooh,ooh love hurts Ooh,ooh love hurts
[guitar solo]
I know it isnt true, I know it isnt true Love is just a lie, Made to make you blue Love hurts, ooh ooh love hurts Ooh ooh love hurts Ooh ooh...
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
Say you stand by your man Tell me something I don't understand You said you love me and that's a fact Then you left me, said you felt trapped
Well some things you can explain away But my heartache's in me till this day
[Chorus:] Did you stand by me No, not at all Did you stand by me No way
All the times When we were close I'll remember these things the most I see all my dreams come tumbling down I won't be happy without you around
So all alone I keep the wolves at bay There is only one thing that I can say
[Chorus]
You must explain why this must be Did you lie when you spoke to me
Did you stand by me No, not at all
Now I got a job But it don't pay I need new clothes I need somewhere to stay But without all these things I can do But without your love I won't make it through
But you don't understand my point of view I suppose there's nothing I can do
[Chorus]
You must explain why this must be Did you lie when you spoke to me?
Did you stand by me Did you stand by me No, not at all Did you stand by me No way Did you stand by me No, not at all Did you stand by me No way
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
Mostly I had that dumba$$ song "Lips of an Angel" (which was their song.... ...) stuck in my head forever....
OMG, that song makes me want to puke! For the same reasons...
Basically anything by Hinder or Nickelback reminds me of that awful time in my life...
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
HA! What are the chances I have an Evanescence song too!? This pretty much sums up my marriage:
"Call Me When You're Sober"
OMG Julie....that DOES sum up your sitch....Hows it going btw???
not2fun
Yep, LOVE that song.
I don't want to thread-jack but wanted to thank you for asking...and say that I've been meaning to start a new thread for, OH, about 2 months now! I'm good. Had a revelation. I'll tell y'all about it someday.
Can I jump in? This isn't a song related to D-day or anything, but the other day while driving we were listening to H's iPod and I had one of those "aha!" moments that really made me feel old.
We were listening to Cat Stevens' "Father and Son" which I had heard countless times before (that in itself prolly makes me sound quite old!) and for the first time, listening with my two young sons in the back seat, I got teary-eyed identifying with the father!!! ............Holy cow, I never saw that coming.
Father It's not time to make a change, Just relax, take it easy. You're still young, that's your fault, There's so much you have to know. Find a girl, settle down, If you want you can marry. Look at me, I am old, but I'm happy.
I was once like you are now, and I know that it's not easy, To be calm when you've found something going on. But take your time, think a lot, Why, think of everything you've got. For you will still be here tomorrow, but your dreams may not.
Son How can I try to explain, when I do he turns away again. It's always been the same, same old story. From the moment I could talk I was ordered to listen. Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away. I know I have to go.
Father It's not time to make a change, Just sit down, take it slowly. You're still young, that's your fault, There's so much you have to go through. Find a girl, settle down, If you want you can marry. Look at me, I am old, but Im happy. (son-- away away away, I know I have to Make this decision alone - no) Son All the times that I cried, keeping all the things I knew inside, It's hard, but it's harder to ignore it. If they were right, I'd agree, but it's them you know not me. Now there's a way and I know that I have to go away. I know I have to go. (father-- stay stay stay, why must you go and Make this decision alone? )
me - 47 H - 39 married 2001 DS 8a DS 8b :crosseyedcrazy: (Why is DS7b now a blockhead???) (Ack! Now he's not even a blockhead, just a word! That's no fun!)
"i've heard of unfaithful lovers but this is outrageous soon the national enquirer will run the front pages i saw shakespeare and cheetah crying in their margaritas bad news
romeo loves jane the jungle will never be the same and juliet's crying again romeo loves jane
now in a wold full of hurt how can anybody blame them and in the heat of wild love how can anybody tame them they have fallen east of eden now
good love gone bad bad love gone wild wild love gone mad mad love out of control"
This one was one that I sent to my WW's voicemail. The story behind me sending it...
WW was staying at her mother's house, and was trying to get a hold of me...I was ignoring the phone calls. So, she proceeded to send a song to my voicemail. Can't remember which song it was, but it was a pretty nice song. I thought it was a nice gesture...until I saw WW's phone records and saw that within minutes of sending the song to me....she called OM . So, after seeing the phone records, I sent her this.........
"You'll Think Of Me"
I woke up early this morning around 4am With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms I've been tryin' my best to get along But that's OK There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories I don't need'em Take your space and take your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I went out driving trying to clear my head I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this And all the baggage that seems to still exist It seems the only blessing I have left to my name Is not knowing what we could have been What we should have been So
Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories I don't need'em Take your space and take your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind Don't worry, I'll be fine I'm gonna be alright While you're sleeping with your pride Wishing I could hold you tight I'll be over you And on with my life
So take your records, take your freedom Take your memories I don't need'em And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me
So take your records, take your freedom Take your memories I don't need'em Take your space and all your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we got nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah
And you're gonna think of me Oh someday baby, someday
I think she got the picture of how important NC is after listening to this song.
"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth"
Another country music song. This one is great when you just wanna have a little attitude!!!
Artist : Jo Dee Messina Song : My Give A Damn's Busted
Lyrics :
(1st verse)
Well you filled up my head, With so many lies. Twisted my heart Til something snapped inside. I'd like to give it one more try but my give a damn's busted.
You can crawl back home say you were wrong, stand out in the yard cry all night long. Well go ahead and water my lawn. My give a damn's busted.
(chorus)
I really wanna care, I wanna feel somethin' Let me dig a little deeper... Nope... Sorry... Nothin'
(2nd verse)
You can say you've got issues. You can say you're a victim. It's all your parents fault, After all you didn't pick em Well maybe Oprah's got time to listen. My give a damn's busted.
(*Well let me get this straight now) Your therapist said It was all just a phase A product of the prozac And your co-dependent ways So uhh ... who's your enabler these days? My give a damn's busted.
(chorus)
I really wanna care, I wanna feel somethin' Let me dig a little deeper... Eeh-Eeh
(3rd verse) (*Oh you're tellin' me) It's a desperate situation, No tellin' what you'll do. If I don't forgive you, You say your life is through. Well honey... give me somethin' I can use. (My give a damn's busted.) (*Ahh you knew I was gonna say that, didn't ya.)
My give a damn's busted (*ha ha) My give a damn's busted Honey trust me My give a damn's busted yeahhh ... OOOH My give a damn's busted yeahhh (*You wanna do what?)(*ha ha ha ha ha) My give a damn's busted (*Get the party started thats what we'll do) My give a damn's busted (*I'm not done honey, trust me) My give a damn's busted (*Been there, done that) My give a damn's busted My give a damn's busted
Mostly I had that dumba$$ song "Lips of an Angel" (which was their song.... ...) stuck in my head forever....
OMG, that song makes me want to puke! For the same reasons...
Basically anything by Hinder or Nickelback reminds me of that awful time in my life...
I so totally hear ya Try.....I'm not positive, but nearly 99.9% sure that Nickleback was used alot in the CD he burned for her.....which REALLY pi$$es me off because I love that group. In fact, I loved them from their first song and WS didn't get on the bandwagon till later. Now its all kind of spoiled for me.....
Crap....I think I'm in a "mood" today....(actually, I KNOW I am...)
It was one hundred degrees, as we sat beneath a willow tree, Who's tears didn't care, they just hung in the air, and refused to fall, to fall.
And I knew I'd made horrible call, And now the state line felt like the Berlin wall, And there was no doubt about which side I was on.
Cause I built you a home in my heart, With rotten wood, it decayed from the start.
Cause you can't find nothing at all, If there was nothing there all along. No you can't find nothing at all, If there was nothing there all along.
I braved treacherous streets, And kids strung out on homemade speed. And we shared a bed in which I could not sleep, At all, woo, hoo, woo, hooOoOo.
Cause at night the sun in retreat, Made the skyline look like crooked teeth, In the mouth of a man who was devouring, us both.
You're so cute when you're slurring your speech, But they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.
And you can't find nothing at all, If there was nothing there all along. No you can't find nothing at all, If there was nothing there all along.
I'm a war, of head versus heart, And it's always this way. My head is weak, my heart always speaks, Before I know what it will say.
And you can't find nothing at all, If there was nothing there all along. There were churches, theme parks and malls, But there was nothing there all along.
I watch, and am as a sparrow alone upon the house top.