Sorry to intrude on your thread here [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] , but I wanted to ask you a few questions Terrified. Feel free to ignore them if you wish.<p>Slap me silly if you will... but I'm not remembering all of your story. I DO remember that you're in Toronto (I'm in London, ON... so any cdns stick out to me... lol). I don't drive, but am planning a weeked visit to my mum's in January (she's in Oakville)... perhaps you might want to get together and chat? We could make a 'play date' with our kids....my son is 2 1/2, and he'll be with me (while H tends after the 9 month old twins... woohoo!!)<p>It sounds like no one other than you, your H, and your C know the WHOLE truth to what's going on in your M (aside from MBers of course). Is that the case? Because if those are the only people who you can physically TALK to about what's going on, then I would bet that that is part of your being so sad all the time. I'm no counsellor.. but you need to get it out hon!!<p>I'll tell you what... if you want to talk, just email me at topie25@hotmail.com, and I'll send you my phone number. You can call anytime, k? It's up to you.<p>I don't know what else to say. I really don't have any advice, just another offer of friendship. [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] Take care!<p>Karen

Hello Topie, Wow, what an incredible offer...you're on the mark about me not telling anyone of the truth and it would be wonderful to talk to someone that is in recovery. My D would love it.<p>Thanks also for providing me your email address. I hate to burden anyone with these problems. It can be so sad and dismal but look for me...these days, I find myself much sadder. It might be the holidays around us, the music, the memories or the plain and simple "letting go"...<p>Hugs to you!