I had a funny feeling I should say a prayer for you last night, so I did.<P>How are you doing today?

I'm out here Thanks for the prayers. Like an alcoholic, it's day-to-day for me. I did receive an email from my W this AM, this is good. While it wasn't touchy-feely, it wasn't LB-laden either. It is a start. I asked her to keep writing me. I will be seeing my kids tonight and that I'm looking forward to. I know they are as well. At least now when I'm around, I'm not ignored And now, I spend time with them, I'm not making sure this is fixed, or working on that. I am there for them. This good for me as well as them. Because I was so busy before (typical Type A stuff), it is one of my W ENs I have neglected. Not any more. <P>While on the ice last night (I play in a Men's Hockey league), it was the first time in weeks I haven't felt as depressed as I've been. I'm a little low now, but last night I wasn't. Maybe it's the thought that I am moving in the right direction, maybe it was the release of endorphine's, maybe was the comfortable surroundings of the sport I've played for over 33 years, maybe it was that smelly equipment I don't know. But after the game, I've felt a little better about knowing what I'm doing, what I have to do and how I'm going to do it. The cloud lifts a little more each day. Some of it has to do with my interaction in this forum and the occasional slap on the side of the head I receive from some of my posts, as well as the encouragement. I need it. My wife knows I post here, but I don't know if she is lurking or not. If she didn't like my perception of our story to be aired in this forum, I will assume she'd let me know.<P>Thanks for thinking about me. There are some really good folks out there.

I am glad to hear you are out there and that you are feeling a bit better today! <P>I think it's super that your wife sent you an e-mail! I think it's very positive that she was able to send you a non-LB note. Stay level-headed! Don't rush back in, but don't retreat, either. (Sounds so simple, doesn't it?)<P>Anyway, have fun with your kids tonight! I'm really happy today is a good day! --HBC