<BR> <P> <BR> I have no where else to turn to.I do not know many<BR>people here in ,we have been here since last<BR>May.My husband and I been married 4 years and have 6<BR>children 4 our mine from previous relationships and 1<BR>is his ,but now he lives with his mother up north,we<BR>have a 2 year old boy together.But,lately thing have<BR>been going bad.I do not feel love for my husband<BR>anymore,we got back together last October we were<BR>seperated and I was living with my parents back home.<BR>We had separated last Janurary and got back together<BR>and we moved over here.When we got back together this<BR>time we decided to go back to church.So we did,but<BR>there was a problem actually 2,my oldest daughters.<BR>My 15 year old was still with my back home and my 11<BR>year old came back with me.Anyways her and my husband<BR>never got along she always did wrong in his eyes,I<BR>prayed and cryed to God about it ,but nothing .My<BR>oldest daughter came to vist for Thanksgiving and that<BR>is when I LOST EVERYTHING!I still do not know why it<BR>happened ,but we both went out and our little one was<BR>with us and her(11 year old)I needed to buy her a coat<BR>cause the days were getting cold,she is the kind of<BR>person that laughs and jokes alot.She did not do<BR>anything that day but as always he got after her,then<BR>at me and went home without buying the coat.When we<BR>got home my oldest daughter ask what happened and he<BR>told her ***** started everything.Which was not true<BR>,my 11 year old tried to defend herself and crying she<BR>told him to shut up ,I know that is wrong.But neither<BR>apologized and afterwards I was talking to her and she<BR>told mom please lets go back to grandmas I told her to<BR>calm down and he came in she walk out and said "go on<BR>***** the damaged has already been done"!,to me he<BR>said"why are you on her side"?Then him and my oldest<BR>daughter got into it,cause she was defending her<BR>sisiter, <BR>So I did something that still hurts me everyday,I<BR>called my parents crying and asked them to take care<BR>of my daughters.With the money I had to buy my<BR>daughter her coat,I spend it on bus tickets for<BR>them.Put them on the bus back home.<BR>He was very happy afterwards and sang Christmas songs<BR>all the way home.<BR>I have no loving feelings for my husband anymore,we<BR>get along sometimes but it is not the same.I guess I<BR>came back just for the little ones.I've tried and I<BR>can't.Before Christmas I asked him for some money so I<BR>could buy something for my daughter ,but he said NO!I<BR>did not say any thing anymore about it till the other<BR>day,and he said"you are using witchcraft now because<BR>you did not like the answer I gave you"!Boy did not I<BR>get confused.And said terrible thimgs I can't take<BR>back.My daughters say I love him more cause I send<BR>them over there and I stayed here.Please tell me what<BR>I should do!I AM SO DEPRESSED!<BR>My daughter called earlier crying and we got into an<BR>argument as usual and she said my sister was being<BR>more a mother to her than I was.<P>Sorry for all this,but I have noone else to talk<BR>to.............God Bless <P>
