About a month after my husband and I were married, I got a call fromm the phone company about an outstanding bill. I was sure it was a mistake andasked about where the call were made. I started some investigating and found out my husband had ben calling phone sex lines and porno sites on the net for a year(the entire time we had lived together). At that time, I was five and a half months pregnant. I went into a rage because no only do I consider this a form of cheating but had tried to hide them from me, too. Soon after, I started to go into premature labor for an unknown reason. My doc thoughtit was probably stressed induced, maybe from work, but I am still convinced that it had something to do with me being so upset with my husband. Since then, I have found it very hard to trust him, but I have tried for the sake of our marriage. I didn't want to interrogate him, but I would ask him occasionally if he had visited any more orno web sites, and he hadn't until about a month ago. I started finding strange emails on our computer and web sites that he had gone to. I don't know if I can go thriugh this again, but I do know that I will probably never trust him. It;s taken mr 1 1/2 years to get this far and he's broken my trust again!! I haven't told anyone close to me about this, so I need some advice on what to do. Please help!!

Welcome <B>kiki</B>...<P>I have a post of general welcome I wish to share with you... <P>It has a lot of quick links to many of the <B>most</B> important MB sites...<BR>Click here ==> <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/Forum29/HTML/000002.html" TARGET=_blank>General Welcome for All New Builders(Newbies)</A><P>A while ago... the "main" forum was divided into 4 separate "sub" forums... and a new one added...<BR><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/marriage/forumdisplay.cgi?action=topics&forum=Just+found+out...&number=29&DaysPrune=10&LastLogin=" TARGET=_blank>Just found out...</A>...for those new the forum... pre/post "discovery" of an affair or possible affair.<BR><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/marriage/forumdisplay.cgi?action=topics&forum=Plan+A/Plan+B&number=30&DaysPrune=10&LastLogin=" TARGET=_blank>Plan A/Plan B</A>...usually after "discovery of the affair"...for those with questions of "what to do now?"<BR><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/marriage/forumdisplay.cgi?action=topics&forum=In+recovery&number=31&DaysPrune=10&LastLogin=" TARGET=_blank>In recovery</A>...when a commitment to work on marriage by both spouses has begun.<BR><A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/marriage/forumdisplay.cgi?action=topics&number=34&SUBMIT=Go" TARGET=_blank>Divorcing/Divorced</A>...when efforts at reconciliation fail or are failing.<BR>We are being asked to post the forums that make the most sense with respect to our questions/vents and not just dump everything into the <A HREF="http://www.marriagebuilders.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/marriage/forumdisplay.cgi?action=topics&forum=General+Questions&number=28&DaysPrune=10&LastLogin=" TARGET=_blank>General Questions</A> forum because it will give you the most responses! <P><B>About your post</B>...<BR>This may be a time to consider some professional counselling...<BR>...for both of you.<P>If your H doesn't consider it necessary...<BR>...by you starting it on your own... he may see that it is important to you.<P>Especially seeing your need to trust him...<BR>...and for him to be honesty with you and himself!<P>There are quite a few W's with H's that are into porn (I happen to have the reverse situation... W got into it... before she moved out with OM)... <BR>Make your future posts "subject" have indicate the problem(s) and those forum members in your shoes will respond.<P>BTW: weekends tend to be slow....<BR>...be patient...<P>You have my prayers...<P> <P>Jim

I am sorry that has to have hurt. Tell him how you feel or you will never heal.