H did come up to my room to talk last night after I went to bed.<P>Nothing new, tried telling him about the damage that he is doing to the kids, didn't care only wants to be with her.<P>Talked about the move and how things are going to work with that. Need to see a lawyer for seperation papers, told him what I thought I would need per month to live on about croaked, said that the 19 yo was old enough to support himself. Ha, that's a joke! this kid can't even get up before 2 in the pm. Said that amount didn't leave him much to live on said to bad, made comment on that he wouldn't be able to afford the van payment anymore, which I told him to trade in Feb, lets see that was 5 months ago, quick moving in't he?<P>As always had to talk about OW, and then the pain that I am going through. Ha what a joke and in the same breath too. In 20 + years have never seen this person or a picture of her, had seen a family picture of all 9 of her siblings but wasn't sure which one was her, asked for H to show me, ugh! And let me say I am a big person, but am little compared to her and her family.<P>Told H again that I thought that he needed to see a counselor to understand why he is doing to his family what he is and he stated NO they are not going to change my mind, said I didn't think that they would just wanted him to understand so he might find piece of mind. <P>Asked again if I wanted him to move out and I said that I would not tell him to do that that My kids or anyone would say that I kicked him out of the house. Thought that the time left was so short that he would stay.<P>Asked what she be told to the youngest, said I told you before to write it out, but did give a few suggestions. Still not sure when. Asked if I had told friends that were this weekend. That was pretty much it.<P>When he come up to get his stuff this morning for work I said that he was getting pretty much what he wanted and that I wanted him to have 2 sesions with a counselor and he started to say no and I said that I would not go any further with speration or D til he had 2 sessions and I had documentation. Then asked if I wanted him to see my counselor or what said it didn't matter just that I had to have documentation. He left nothing more said.<P>I am so tired of all this! Did my resume yesterday and sent it to 5 friends to have critique. So am moving ahead!!!<P>Again thanks for the support Dawn
