anybody there that's willing to listen - 07/18/07 06:22 PM
i am engaged to the love of my life. nick and i have been good friends for about ten years and i have had the biggest crush on him for sixteen years. we started dating when he left for two weeks when i dropped him off at the airport and i realized he was the one i wanted to be with for the rest of my life. i thought that everything was ok with us but i had a suspition that something was going on but i never said anything. part of me has become controlling because i dont want him to go out because i know that something is going on. one day i ended up on his messenger and saw some sexual things posted and asked what it was and he said that he gets messaged that stuff and that it was nothing. so i decided to snoop and found him on about fifteen dating and booty call sites. he sending pictures of himself to other women. he has promised me that he has stopped after i brought this all to his attention but on july fourth i found out that he was texting a girl that he used to talk to on the websites. i dont know what to do anymore i love him so much. what hurts me the most is that he could come to me and tell me whats going on how he feels why he is on these sites and i have told him that yet he shuts me out. and on top of that we have lost two children that he could cheat on me through that when i needed him the most. the other thing that bothers me is stuff is said about me and he does nothing to defend me. he can blow me off when we have plans to be with someone else but cant do the same for me. he doesnt answer the phone when i call him when hes gone but the phone is glued to his ear when he is with me. what do i do?