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I am asking for prayer because my husband hasn't phoned all week. He was feeling hurt when I saw him on Monday, and hasn't called since then. I don't have number for him, and I sense that even its best not to call around for him, but let him be and he will call when he is ready.

Please pray that I will calm down, and that he will call and come out to see us soon. That he will get over being angry.

Shul

I pray that you will have patience and strenth. Please read Philippians 4:6, I have to read it daily.

Please pray that my W will open her heart back up to me and start to break down the walls that she has built up.

Shul,

Whenever I start feeling "down" about wanting to talk to my H (who doesn't want to talk to me at all, apparently) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> I start thinking about the Lord, and about how I have rejected HIM. I think about all the times I SHOULD have talked to HIM, should have read my Bible, but instead turned on the TV. Times I should have prayed, but got distracted, so got up from the prayers I was saying, and went to do something else........

This feeling of "rejection" from their beloved is something our Lord is very familiar with. We have done it to Him many times in our lives (at least I have). Why not turn to HIM any time you are lonely for your WH? Why not turn to HIM every time you feel alone and rejected by WH? He is there, He is waiting, He is longing for fellowship with us. WE are the ones who continually reject HIM.

Sometimes I think the Lord has allowed all this in our lives so I WILL think more about how much I have rejected Jesus throughout my life, instead of RUNNING TOWARD Him.

Put your focus on HIM anytime you are missing your H. HE IS ABLE to be our everything. HE IS our husband for this season, and He wants to be our provider...........to provide for us emotionally, financially, spiritually, etc. I am learning this, and it has helped to comfort me whenever I am lonely, down, discouraged. It has helped me not to dwell on what WH might be doing, or thinking, or where He might be.

Jesus wants us for His own during this precious time alone with HIM. Whenever I refocus on this, and see it from God's perspective, I realize I am just as guilty of abandonment toward God as my WH has been to me - and I don't like the feeling, so, WHAT MUST GOD BE FEELING?

I hope you don't think I'm "beating you up." I certainly am NOT! I'm just trying to give you another perspective to look at your feelings, and turn your attention back toward God. HE loves you, and CAN'T WAIT for you to spend this alone time WITH HIM!!!!

God Bless,

Lupolady,

Yes, in fact I was thinking about that just yesterday- that God has reached out for us, his Son has DIED for us, and we don't talk to him. And yes, he is our everything. I have to find my peace and fulfillment in him.

I have spent most of the week in prayer, every minute I haven't been working, mostly pleading for my husbands healing. I sensed this morning when I was in a panic, that God was saying "Yes, I know his ways and I will heal him".

But I am a nervous wreck right now. I have always been the one to seek him out, call him, but I am not doing that anymore. I have to let him come to me on his own time, not pressure him. Its so hard to wait, though. My stomach is in knots.

I will go and read Philipians right now, Learninglots, and I pray that God will give you an opportunity to show love to your wife today, and that it will soften her heart.

Thank you both.

Thank you Father, for what you are doing tonight in our lives and in the lives of our loved ones. Thank you for always being there when we call out. Forgive us for neglecting you and ignoring you, after you have done so much for us, and are waiting to bless us. Thank you for loving us steadfastly, patiently. Let us be patieent with our spouses. Help us to sense your presence tonight, and to trust you to work all things out for your glory.

I have a Prayer Request and a Praise Report.

REQUEST - I feel that I am getting further from God. I know it's the enemy working here but I ask that you pray for me. I want to be in love with the Lord FOREVER. I don't want my old life back. I don't want the old me back. I want to be the godly woman God created me to be. I want to have the true happiness that only comes from loving our Lord. Please pray for me.

PRAISE - I know it may not be too much but for me it was GREAT. This evening we had a special program at church with a Pastor that works with families. He had people anonymously write question and he read them in front of the church and answered them. Meanwhile, some guy is trying to set up the laptop and the projector to show his power point presentation, but can't get it to work. The first question the pastor read was from a lady who recently divorced her husband and was asking if it was ok for her to re-marry in the future. He started talking about the vows we made to the Lord and how they are FOREVER. And lo and behold, my H walked in the church, went straight to the laptop and helped them fix it. As he was standing there (almost at the front of the church) the pastor had someone read Malachi 2:13 and on. For any of you who remember, this is where the Lord says he HATES divorce. I don't know if my H was paying attention to what was being said but MIL and I (who were sitting together) were happy that he was just there. As soon as the computer was fixed, he walked outside. I thought he had left, but when we finally got out of the program (at about 8:30pm) he was still there. He was outside the church, talking with some friends. I would have liked even better if he had been inside but I KNOW the Lord is working in his heart and has at least brouht him TO church. It's going to be a process (and could even be LONG) but God WILL bring my H back to Him. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!

Thank you Shul for this post. It's great to share praises with all my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Praise: God is awesome and keeps me out of trouble.

Prayer request: I am starting to doubt again. I feel that God is calling me to fast again for strenght and clarity. I know God wants me to stand for my marriage. He has placed me in a place where everybody (except my parents and husband's parents) tell me I am doing the right thing in standing. I am impatient and have been dwelling on my husband's sinning. I pray when that happens but it keeps happening more and more. I need prayer help with forgiving.

Thank you,
Lunadove

I will try to pray for you all tonight before I go to bed. God created us as a Body for a purpose, eh? It is hard to bear our sorrows alone.

[ June 12, 2004, 04:23 AM: Message edited by: LoveMyEx ]

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Father,

I left up Lovemyex and ask you to heal her heart, and give her clear direction for her life. I pray that you would save her husband and restore their relationship.
I ask that you would give her joy,in spite of her husbands actions, these circumstances.

Thank you Father, htat nothing is too hard for you.

I pray for Lunadove that you would give her grace to forgive her husband and see him with your eyes, as lost in sin.

I thank you for Hopeful's good news Father. It is a reminder that you are working on our behalf to draw our husbands to yourself, and to convict them of sin. Thank you that yoru word never goes back empty but acomplishes tat which you have purposed for it. May this word be in his mind, and may it convict him of the wrong he has done to his wife.

Father,

Let my husband come to his senses and call me today. Let him realise how he is hurting his child and stop sulking and feeling sorry for himself. Give him no peace until he does the right thing. Let him come to me in repentance.

Thank you Shul. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I agree with you in prayer. "Where two or three are gathered in my name, there I am in the midst of them."

I wanted to share with you all something about how it's so interesting to me (interresting not really the right word) how many stories of reconciled marriages I've heard, even among non-Christians.

Two stories:

I read on AOL today that Estee Lauder passed away. I read the article and near the end, it mentions how she married Mr. Lauder and then 3 years later divorced him. Well, then 3 yrs. after that they remarried and stayed married until his death some 40 years later! And as far as I now, this wasn't out of any conviction and they weren't Christians.

Second story: The other day I ran into an old family friend. She is my mother's age (60ish). Her and her husband were very close with my parents when I was growing up and our families did everything together. Well, I think he had an affair or two and eventually they divorced (when I was a teen or in college I think). Then he was guilty of embezzlement and went to prison for a couple of years.

I had not seen her since college (about 13 yrs or so) and we talked but I was sensitive and didn't say or ask anything about her ex-husband. When I was about to go, she said, "You do know that --- and I are back together don't you?"

NO, I didn't know!

Well, after 12 years of divorce, affairs, and even jail, they reconciled and have been back together for 4 years. I honestly was dumbfounded. They are not Chrisitans and I don't think they even desired to be reconciled. But... they are. She talked about how much they'd changed, learned, etc. They have five grown kids and several grandkids and I can only imagine the blessings that they are now together.

Anyways... thought I'd share that! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

God bless and may you see God's hand in your life and marriages in awesome ways!

Lovemyex,
As far as the Estee Lauder story. This is what was posted on Foxnews.com:

<blockquote>quote:<hr />In 1939 she got a divorce and moved to Florida. Years later, she explained why: "I was married very young. You think you missed something out of life. But I found out that I had the sweetest husband in the world." <hr /></blockquote>That is the explanation she gave. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Shul,
I haven't heard from my husband in over a week either. I know God has a reason for H to not contact us. I know God is working on him and I could see the inner struggle in my husband when he was here. Let God work on him and don't worry. There is a reason they are not contacting us.

Lunadove

[ April 26, 2004, 12:01 AM: Message edited by: LunaDove ]

Thank you both so much.

He still hasn't called. I am angry that he cares so little for his child that he doesn't call just to make sure we are ok.

And I am worried that something may have happened to him. But I have prayed. God knows where he is , and if something has happened to him I will hear eventually. No one has heard from him, which probably means he is out of town working. In his job, he never knows from one day to the next if he is going out of town, which means he never knows hwen he is going to be able to see us. He has said a few times that he would be out, and then he had to work. I was disappointed but I wasn't upset because I knew he would come if he could. But I think he feels pressured to come out, or say when he is coming and he keeps saying he doesn't know. I told him it doesn't matter , that I am just glad to hear his voice and know he is ok, I am not asking for a promise.
What upset me is that he had two days off finally after a month, and he said he was coming, but instead chose to waste it working on a car, getting drunk, and so on.

I have made every effort to make things easy for him, to make things pleasant for him. I have asssured him that that the door is always open. Maybe I have been trying too hard. It might be better if I am not so available to him.

Maybe as you say, God is dealing with him. And I am going to do my best to just pray for him adn then forget about him today. I have a job, and a child to take care of, and other things.

A friend of mine used to say "Don't rent him out too much space in your head."

I guess thats good advice.

I don't know what I will say to him when he does phone.

He is on the phone right now

Well I was just posting that and he called. He said "sorry for not calling , that was inconsiderate of me"

He didn't offer any explanation. I asked him, " Were you mad at me? Is that why you didn't call?" He said, "partly".
I said, " I was worried about you. I figured you were either in trouble, or in jail, or in the hospital or with someone else"

I said," whatever id going on with you is your business, and I am not asking you to come out here if you don't want to see me." I am your friend and I was worried about you"

He didn't say anything, changed the subject. Said he will call me tonight.

Father God, I lift up this day my brothers and sisters to You, and I ask that You would do Your will in their lives. Father, I come before the throne of grace, making my appeal known to You, O'Lord for joy and happiness to return to them. I ask that You prove to them that You are a jealous God, and that You will not let them go their own way Lord. Persue them Lord, and bring them back into Your warm embrace.
I ask that You would forgive any sins that they may be harboring, and that You would cleanse them in the purifying blood of our Savior Jesus. I ask that You would show them any areas of their lives that are displeasing to You Lord, and that You would mold them and make them into the people that you want them to be. I ask that You would restore what the locusts have eaten Lord. I charge you satan to return what you have stolen from them. In the name of Jesus I command to give it back.
In the name of Jesus Lord, I ask that You would loose all the powers of heaven to come to the aid of my brothers and sisters. And in the name of Jesus I bind the works of satan and his demons off of their lives, marriages, and families. Lord I ask that you make a path for them back to a normal and happy marriage once again. That You would cause the covenant that these people have made with another human being, and with You to not just be restored, but to be devoted and committed to serving You. Father God, I ask that today You would remove any roots of pride, of judgement, of bitterness, of anger, of hurt, of hate, of jealousy, and of revenge, from their hearts. Turn their hearts back to You Lord. In Jesus name. Amen

[ April 26, 2004, 08:43 AM: Message edited by: singleguy ]

Singleguy: I receive that prayer today....I also agree with you in prayer for the other brothers and sisters on this board.

For me, I pray for my husband's salvation - that God would send godly men across his path to lead him into salvation.

I also pray for God to restore what the locusts have eaten in our lives. I pray for forgiveness, bitterness, I pray for myself to walk in love as Jesus would do.

Thanks for the prayers - each of us needs them.

Angelia

Angelia,
Lord, hear the request of Angelia. Bring her husband into the kingdom. We praise You in advance for what You will do. In Jesus name. Amen

God Bless Angelia Today!!!
sg

Father God,

I am in agreement with these requests, and thatnk you heavenly Father, for the healing work you are going to do in the lives of our loved ones.

Father, guide me today, give me wisdom concerning my husband. Let my words be like honey to him, blessing him. Let me radiate love to him. Cleanse my heart of any attitude that is not in accordance with your perfect love, and let my words be a reflection of your love for him in me.

Guard my tongue from saying anything that I should not, Lord. Help me to be quiet and to win him 'without the word'. Give me today a quiet and gentle spirit, and take out of me any selfishness or pride, or anything that will hinder your will, your love from reaching him.

Please prepare his heart to receive this love. Let it be a balm to him, comforting his heart, soothing his mind. Let him feel cared for and valued, respected and honored by me.

I know that you said if I ask anything you will do it for me, and nothing is too hard for you.

Thank you Father

Lord, I stand in complete agreement with shul, and all the others who have prayed her prayer. Hear this request Lord. We plead for You divine intervention. In Jesus name. Amen

sg

Yesterday, when my husband called he didn't ask about us, he just talked about a family we know who are in crisis because of booze, whose children and house are at risk.

Father, please wake him up and show him how his own family are in need and his own house is falling down , because of his neglect. Show him that every word he said about them he was condemning himself. Let him see this, and give him compassion for his own child. Let him take up his responsibilities before he concerns himself with others. Let him get his priorities straight.

Father, show him his true condition. Let him stop hiding from his own wife adn child. Let him start to keep the promises that he has made about fixing the house so we can live there, about paying the bills, and let him care abou this daughter and show it by calling and visiting her, asking about her.

Give me strength to keep taking care of her and everything in the meantime. Help me today to do my job, I am so tired.

Thank you Father.

Father,

Thank you for taking care of us today, and for providing for our needs.

Thank you that my husbnad phoned. Father, he wants to get a car, but you know this is a bad idea. Please convict him about this, the money he has wasted, the cost to all of us, the potential price he might have to pay if he gts caught driving. Please let him give up this idea.

I also ask that he would get time off this weekend, and that he would think about how to spend this time off, that he would come out and help us , and spend time playing with his daughter.

Lord, tonight, let him think about what is really important in this life, and get his priorities in line with your will. Open his eyes to the good things in his life, and be conscious of the value of his family, how he has thrown away and neglected and abused this precious gift.

Amen

Shul,

Fellow sister in Christ, after reviewing your post, I wanted to encourage you a little bit because it seems like you are so lost, confused & scared. <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> I am so sorry that you have to be here & that you are facing this. Just know that God is there to comfort you when you feel your darkest & rub your head in his soothing hands.

If your H called you, even if it was to discuss another family, this is good news. It shows that he wants to be friends with you. My H would do this too. He would call just to say hi, but never ask how all of us were. Granted, he did see his children regularly, without me around. He did not want to face me because he didn't want to see the hurt look in my eyes. He didn't want to see the look on my face when he would drive away. Even though he told me that he didn't love me, he cared what happened to me & he never meant to hurt me in all of it. He was not happy with himself for the way it all happened & felt quite ashamed that he would stoop to having someone on the side & lie to me continually. It was like he was another person. When MB talks about the fog, that's exactly what it is. My H doesn't remember half of the things he said to me, the things he did while he was away. It is like it was all one big blur.

He did know that through all of it, he wanted to remain friends. This hurt me very deeply because I thought that I had meant so much more to him than "just a friend". But what I came to realize is that God was giving us a chance to become friends because we never were friends before we married. We just got married & then, boom, we had kids. We never had a chance to be ourselves. While he was away, we each developed a sense of identity & now that will never go away.

What I'm trying to tell you is -- even though you don't hear from him as much as you wish, believe me, there is a reason for it. God is using this time to change you. He needs to change both of you, because face it, if he were to come home tomorrow, would things be better? Or would they just remain the same & you two end up in the same boat you have been in? I can probably guarantee that you both would slide back in to your "old ways".

What I realized is that the whole time my H was away, I didn't know this until he came back & told me later, he would cry that he didn't get to see his kids like he wanted to. Even though he passed up opportunities to spend the days with them when they would have off school. He opted to go to the OWs house instead. But he wasn't thinking rationally. He wasn't thinking clearly. He was misguided. He wasn't letting God lead him. So expect your H to do some pretty odd things right now. He is not himself. He has not developed into the person that God wants him to be right now. He is still finding out who he is. Let God continue to work on him, being there to listen when he needs a friend, praying for him (I recommend The Power of a Praying Wife-this helped me know "how" to pray for my H). Let God continue to work on YOU. And on those chance encounters with your H, use that as a time to show God how you're developing by practicing what He's shown you. Quietness, gentleness, peacefulness, and especially love.

And just so you know, the major turning point for us was when I had told my H that I could not be "close friends" with him at that particular moment in my life. I needed some space to heal without him around (mind you, I discussed it with him, but left it up to him to give the final word on it -- trying to submit to him). The thought of not being able to speak to me, not coming in the house to hang out, not chatting till all hours on the phone like friends do, really got to him. He thought he was going to lose me as a friend forever & that scared him. He started to give my "new" personality a chance & he liked what he saw. He eventually wanted to spend more time with us, with me. I guess like they say, you always want something you can't have. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Anyway, I don't know what else to say so I'll end this here, but please know that I continue to pray for you & your family. You were in my thoughts today. Hope things went a little better for you today.

God's blessings upon you!!!

Shul,
I hope you will take the time to "listen" to what Yvette is trying to tell you, and I urge you to read between the lines. The Holy Spirit speaks thru this gal! Yvette has "been there, done that", so she knows from experience what she is talking about. Her advice is wise, but her heart is huge. And the better you get to know her, the more you like her! I can atest to that!!!

One thing that Yvette said is that absence DOES make the heart grow fonder. And the longer you don't see someone, the more you begin to wonder what is going on with them. If there is one ounce of love in us for that person, they will occupy a certain amount of our thoughts. Also too many people go into marriage expecting happiness, and not giving it. Oh, we think we give, but we are really takers. If we would take a strong stable person full of happiness into our marriages, we would have a lot less divorces. Too many people go into marriage to find happiness. It doesn't work that way. And Yvette's comment about being friends is so important. They say good friends make the best lovers. And good intimacy, sexual, or not, starts in the heart, goes to the mind, and then stimulates the body. I think the thing is about friendship is that friends learn to walk together! The bible says that: how can two walk together, unless they be agreed! That statement probably applies to marriage more so than it does to anything else.

So I urge you to become the person "God" wants you to be, and not who you "want" to be. Start focusing on being a good friend when you see your hubby. Don't manipulate, and don't force things. And above all else, don't compromise. Let God work on his heart, and yours!

God Bless You Shul!!!
sg

Okay, it's my turn for a prayer. Please pray that my H will forgive me for my actions two nights ago. I had accused him of seeing someone again after discovering some suspicious phone calls. Turns out, it wasn't him, but the children. I have asked him for forgiveness, but I really need to work on trying to trust him again. Please pray that he is receptive to my efforts & is patient with me. I was very afraid he would pack his bags after that conversation. There was major LBing on both sides & the conversation got really heated. Lord, please help me to remember to "agree with my adversary quickly" and to be of a "gentle & quiet spirit". Please don't let all our efforts go down the drain now! We've both been trying so hard! Thanks for your prayers.

My husband called me last night to discuss child custody of our son. He is getting the ball rolling on the divorce papers. I told him to do what he wants and that I will not fight him. He called me this morning asking for my work adress and phone number. I called him back and left him a voice mail message with the information. I've made so many mistakes, but I know God is working on me.

I pray to You God that You continue to work on both of us. Though I do not hear from him often, I pray that you fill me with the Holy Spirit when I do speak to him. Allow me to be a "quiet and gentle spirit." When he asks me how I am doing, allow me to answer how You want me to. Help me to avoid temptation and to follow Your will. The temptation has been great, but I know what You want from me.

Amen

Thank you Yvette, for your encouragement and understanding.

This is not the first time my husband has left,( disappeared, rather) , he has been gone for months at a time, working, or just gone. In the 18 years of our marriage, I have been alone more than we have been together.

He was calling every day for a while, a few weeks ago, and talking about how happy he is to be working again, and how he was going to pay bills adn such- but I have heard those promises before, and nothing came of it. He would turn up at some point, broke, after I had scraped for months trying to catch up on the bills he left.

But this is different, now. I am working enough to support myself and my daughter, barely, even paying a few debts with Gods help, and it is better this way.

I wish he would help, but I am not asking him for anything.

I wish he would ask about our daughter, but in the past 8 months, he has seen her about 5 times, and he never asks about her, ( I mean, not a single time). At Christmas he told her she was a spoiled brat. She is so disturbed , and hurt and rejected, that I fear for her sanity.
I am at a point where I don't really know if I even want him in our lives. Maybe it is better to have nothing to do with him and just be the two of us, let her have some peace. She is having surgery in two weeks, and I want her to feel safe, and happy. Right now she is scared, and alone, and she needs me. I am working long hours, and she is with me at work, but I am often preoccupied, and can't attend to her.

He talked about coming out this weekend to do some work on the house, but he said he might have to work, he doesn't know.

To be honest I don't know if I want to see him. He is so cold to us sometimes, that it would be better not to be with him.

I am getting my first weekend off in 6 months, and I plan to go home and try to get the water pump hooked up, and do some repairs so that the house is liveable for when I can get away from work, and so that it doesn't fall down. Me and Jesus are going to do some carpentry <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I am going to spend some time with my daughter, give her my undivided attention.

If husband shows up and helps, great! If he doesn't, its his loss.

If he comes out and starts being miserable, I will just ask him to leave. I don't ever want any more fighting or namecalling, or violence in that house, or in front of my daughter, again.

I promised her.

I am not asking him to come, or to stay, or to do anything. I am praying that God will put it on his heart to have compassion for her, and I am leaving it with Him.

But maybe it is too late, he has done too much harm. I am not asking him to come back. I sense that we are under Gods protection and that things should stay as they are for now.

Pray for my daughter, for emotional healing. She is really a mess. I didn't realise how badly hurt she was until a few days ago.

Shul

My husband called again to get more information from me for the divorce. He called yesterday for my work adress and phone number. He then called today for my social security number and driver's lisence number. I am submitting to my husband and giving him all that asks for. I just need prayers to help me to continue to stand. I know the divorce will not go through. God does not want this for my family and I will continue to stand in the gap.

Lunadove

My Prayers are with you LunaDove (((((Luna))))))

Does he really need all that info to file?? My H never asked for any of that. Is it 'cause you have a son?

Be strong my friend. God WILL see us thru this.

H98

I went to the city yesterday and found my husband. He was with the woman.

We talked, he and I . I asked him point blank if he is sleeping with her and he said yes, they are having sex.

I asked to please call and talk to his daughter. I told him that we need help. He says he will call.

I don't know how to pray.

I think he has to hit rock bottom before he will wake up and see what he has lost.

Shul,
Pray a hedge of thorns around your husband and then one around the ow. Pray that they will lose interest in one another. Pray for strenght and pray for Him to help you forgive your H. I am praying for you. Continue to have strength in God and follow His will. I know what it feels like to have them tell you the truth.

Lunadove

Thank you Luna,

I prayed that when he sees her his penis will shrivel up, that he will feel sick to his stomach. that God will do something drastic to bring him to his senses, that he will realise exactly what he is doing, that he is throwing away his family, the only person in the world who loves him.

I prayed that he will repent of all his sins. That he will experience consequences for his actions and that God will discipline him.

I see my role as to love him only, as much as he will let me, and to wait, to carry my cross, to pray, to take care of my daughter the best I can.

I am praying Hosea, that God will put a hedge of thorns in his path and that he will not be able to contact her.

I prayed that God will do a work in her heart, bring her to repentance.

The problem is not her, it is him, his heart.

I have been praying for so many years that he will be in a place where he has to choose Gods way, that he will realise that his way isn't working, and that he will give up.

He has repented a few times,when something drastic happened, but he didn't grow becasue he doesn't trust anyone, he is afraid to trust God, in case God rejects him too.

I don't know what it will take. Maybe God has a plan. Maybe he has to lose everything, his home his wife, child, job, friends, everything before he will wake up.

If thats what it takes, so be it.

Meantime I am thinking about selling the house for what I can get, I asked God if He wants me to, to send someone with an offer, enough to pay the bills and start over.

My husband takes it for granted that I will always be there, forgiving him, wanting him. He only wants what he can't have. Maybe I should tell him he can't have me, and then he will want me. Thats what my boss thinks, anyway. He said "watch, he will come to you on his knees"

Luna, I pray a miracle tonight in your situation. A big separation between your husband and the woman. Father make a gulf between them.

Heavenly Father,

Please help me to see my husbnad with your eyes, adn to understand him.

Help me to remember that he is hurting very bad, and that he is acting in the only way he knows. Father, please heal him by your love form the pain adn fear of rejection, let him receive your love. Let me be to him a safe harbour, where he doens't need to fear being hurt or abandoned no matter what. Let him begin to trust that no matter hwat he is loved and that you will never reject him, or forsake him.

Help me to be patient, and to draw him ever so gently with love. Let him not see me as a threat, but know that I love him , and that I am for him.

Let him remember what I said the other day, and let it comfort him. Wherever he is right now, let him have a sense of security in your love and mine. Let him see the love you have for him in me, and know that it is You loving him through me.

Let me have opportunities to love him.

Let him be tired of eating garbage, being alone, being with ppl who don't care about him, who are just using him. And help him not to hate himself. Let him forgive himself. Let him see that he is very important to you and to me.
Draw him to you Father. Let him undestand that he is so important and valued by you that you suffered on the cross, to heal him, even the way he is now.

Heal him Lord, please.

I found out today that my husband has Antisocial Personality Disorder.

Father, thank you for showing me that he is disturbed and he can't help what he is doing. thank you for the workof healing you are going to do in his heart and mind. Thank you for loving him and never giving up, and not letting me give up.

Mold and guide me and make me pure so that you can use me to reach him. Help me to show him your faithfulness and that you will never leave him or forsake him , no matter what. Let him know this.

Thank you for all the ppl you have put in my life to help and to love me and my daughter today. Bless them Father. Esp Carol, and Sharon, and Samia.

Amen

I have a Prayer and Praise:

We (the kids and I) moved home with my parents a month ago, H told me to- and I waited until newborn was old enough (and I was recovered enough) and I packed up. So onto the report <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

PRAISES: DS (almost 3yo) has been having a MUCH better time now that we are with "granny and pop-pop" - his behavior problems have lessened and he may acutally be completely potty trained before August...
I have had a WONDERFUL set of friends and family who have welcomed me home with open arms and as much help as I will take... YEAH!!

PRAYERS: I need a bunch-
I have been struggling with slight depression since I have been home- returning feeling like I am 17 again..
I haven't been able to find a job, there has been nothing I am qualified for that is in the area and pays enough AND
H has been refusing to pay support this month- he seems to think my parents will pick up all the money (they DO NOT make enough to support three additional people)
I am behind on all my bills, he didn't pay the car insurance- it was cancelled today (they have to keep both of us on the policy until he signs the Jeep over to me), etc...

I do pretty well on feeling like God is taking care of us- but about twice a day I PANIC about money, getting a job, being a parent to two kids, DD is only 14 weeks old, etc.. I still have deep sadness at times wanting H to wake up and come back, and even more sadness realizing how far away that day may be.

Thank you all for your prayers!!

Stareyn,
I live at home with my parents too. I can relate to feeling young again. My son loves living with my parents. Of course, they spoil him rotten. Anyway, it will get better. Last year at this time, I was still a mess dealing with my husband leaving me and shipping me off. Now, I know that God placed me here for a reason. I have family who support me and I have a wonderful job in my actual career field.

I praise God for allowing my son to get to know his grandparents and great-grandparents. I still want my husband back, but now I don't dwell on him. I am content living here and I thank God for sending me here.

Lunadove

Hi all,

A praise report!

My husband turned up on the weekend and was quite loving. He spent time with our daughter which went well, and did some repairs, and we talked a bit. He says he has quit drinking and he is trying to get it together.

He said he isn't with anyone else. I guess he is quits with the o/w. We were together, and it was good. No LB's.

PTL, Shul! I'm so happy things went well! Keep letting God take control of the situation. Good work!