Hi,<BR> We returned from our Disney vacation late last night. We had a wonderful time. Lots of fun family time. God allowed me to put sad feelings on hold and just enjoy the week. So I ask for prayers of thanks for that. We continue to get along better, but without h's commitment, or ability to say <BR>I love you, I still feel like my life is a is a big charade. So I pray for God to change me into a woman he knows for sure he loves. Please let him be able to tell me that soon.<BR>I pray for patience, to wait, I am needing so much more than a friendly kiss goodnight.<BR>thanks for being there, all of you ladies are in my prayers daily<BR>
Update - H is STILL in CA. He is supposed to fly home this weekend. H has been drinking quite a bit the last week, has been in a bad mood. I have been trying to pray and fast more, spending more time in the Lord. Trying to tone down my feelings for H. H has been acting, well, "strange", this last week. Really has a chip on his shoulder. It is very difficult to work on restoring a marriage long distance.<P>Prayer Request: Please pray that the Lord soften my husband's heart, and reveal what is being hidden or done in secret. Please pray that nothing will be in the way of his coming home this weekend. Pray that my husband David sees me in a new perspective, in the way the Lord sees me, and that the Lord fills his heart to overflowing with love for me, his wife. Please pray that Holy Spirit filled Christians are placed in H's path to witness to him, pray that H's salvation is realized soon. Pray that the Lord continue to change me into a gentle, kind, meek, loving wife. Thanks to the Lord for all the work he has done. <BR>