Emotional Roller-Coaster - 06/15/04 03:55 AM
I found out on Feb 23 that my husband had been calling a phone service and "talking" with women around the counties that we live in. Then he informs me taht he had a one time fling with a woman in the parking lot he met from one of these party lines back in the fall. I had thought everything was going ok until I made this discovery. I was absolutely devestated. I threw him out and he repented and wanted came home. I felt it was too soon for him to come home (I really was not ready). We try and talk things out but the problem is, I can't get it out of my head. He thinks because he can't see the hurt on my face everything is ok then when I have a break-down (because I have them at strange times) he wants to know when all this is going to be over with. How do I move on? I resent everything that he does sometimes. Little issues are big issues. I'm snappy. These characteristics are not me! I get so confused sometimes. Right now he is in there snoring away like he hasn't a care in the world while I struggle day to day just to keep a positive attitude. EVERYTHING reminds me of this A. Right down to the side of the bed that I sleep on. I can't stand who I've become but I do not know how to deal with it. I don't trust him at all and I don't know how to lovingly deal with that. We are both Christians and have a wonderful support group but I get really sick of burdening my friends. I could really use some advice.
Thanks a bunch.
Thanks a bunch.