Argh...OW just spent her first day with my daughter - 01/01/07 04:22 AM
A has been going on for almost 2 years. WH and I have been separated for 12 months. Our marriage began in the UK where I lived and had his daughter for 4 years. We decided to immigrate to my country (Oz) with our daughter. He sent us out 3 months ahead of him stating he needed to ‘work’ til Christmas ’05.
When he arrived out here I found out about the A straight away. That night he decided to get on a plane and return to UK. He left me and our 2 year old without looking back. He stayed in UK with OW for another 4 months and then returned here to Oz after some pressure from other people who told him he should be supporting his child.
In the last 7 months that he’s been out here we have had absolutely no contact except to organise visitation to his daughter. All contact has been via texts. I tried the ‘let him go’ approach and he couldn’t have been happier. Has never once asked me how I am or has asked to see me in any way, shape or form. Instead has just told me over and over that he should never have married me, he’s lived with a sick feeling in his stomach for 8 years knowing he made a mistake and that he does not love me. I have heard this for 12 months now.
This whole last 12 months have been about getting me to end the marriage so he can always blame me. So, last month I told him I would go to marriage counselling if he ended his relationship with OW. He’s ‘thinking’ about it. Then, last week I find out OW has arrived out here. He still won’t admit it, but I know she’s here and have let his family know. I told him 2 days ago that we agreed he would give me an answer by the end of the year. I asked (via text of course, because we’re incapable of talking any other way these days) will I be getting an answer? He said ‘no, not yet’. I replied ‘I will ask you again in one week. I expect a final answer then’. No response.
I think I’m done. I do not believe this marriage is salvageable. I do not believe, in my heart, that I could ever be happy with this man again. I think I have sunk so low in self-esteem that I am willing to sit around and continue to let him treat me like a dog and wait for him to make up his mind. I have wrestled with this for 12 months. I have prayed, changed, grown and grieved. And I know I’m not there yet. After reading on MB for so long, and hearing how other men act even though they’re still in the fog and how most still show a glimmer of care toward the person they’ve hurt so badly, I think I have finally realised this marriage is dead.
Should I ask again in 5 days what his decision is? Or should I take my future into my own hands and make the tough decision for myself and my daughter and start getting on with my life?
When he arrived out here I found out about the A straight away. That night he decided to get on a plane and return to UK. He left me and our 2 year old without looking back. He stayed in UK with OW for another 4 months and then returned here to Oz after some pressure from other people who told him he should be supporting his child.
In the last 7 months that he’s been out here we have had absolutely no contact except to organise visitation to his daughter. All contact has been via texts. I tried the ‘let him go’ approach and he couldn’t have been happier. Has never once asked me how I am or has asked to see me in any way, shape or form. Instead has just told me over and over that he should never have married me, he’s lived with a sick feeling in his stomach for 8 years knowing he made a mistake and that he does not love me. I have heard this for 12 months now.
This whole last 12 months have been about getting me to end the marriage so he can always blame me. So, last month I told him I would go to marriage counselling if he ended his relationship with OW. He’s ‘thinking’ about it. Then, last week I find out OW has arrived out here. He still won’t admit it, but I know she’s here and have let his family know. I told him 2 days ago that we agreed he would give me an answer by the end of the year. I asked (via text of course, because we’re incapable of talking any other way these days) will I be getting an answer? He said ‘no, not yet’. I replied ‘I will ask you again in one week. I expect a final answer then’. No response.
I think I’m done. I do not believe this marriage is salvageable. I do not believe, in my heart, that I could ever be happy with this man again. I think I have sunk so low in self-esteem that I am willing to sit around and continue to let him treat me like a dog and wait for him to make up his mind. I have wrestled with this for 12 months. I have prayed, changed, grown and grieved. And I know I’m not there yet. After reading on MB for so long, and hearing how other men act even though they’re still in the fog and how most still show a glimmer of care toward the person they’ve hurt so badly, I think I have finally realised this marriage is dead.
Should I ask again in 5 days what his decision is? Or should I take my future into my own hands and make the tough decision for myself and my daughter and start getting on with my life?