updates... - 01/14/09 05:19 PM
My H is finally opening up and talking to me about his Emotional Needs. Before he kept saying...I don't know what I want...and I don't know what I need. Last night he told me that, he feels unappreciated, I'm often in a bad mood and have been for years, I used to rarely kiss him, I had stopped doing a lot of intimate things with him,( besides sex), we had nothing else, we would cuddle a couple night a week but that is it. So NOW I can make a change! Now we cuddle and talk and share our total selves with one another! Now I openly flirt with him and now I kiss him!
"This morning he looked at me and said, I know what else I want..." " I want you to hold my hand, in public, and I want you to "hang all over me...like you used to". I know he has not felt wanted by me in a long time...and I feel truly sorry about that. Especially since he went out and found that in someone else.
He has also been SLOWLY opening up to the REAL truth! As some of you may know, my husband has bipolar disorder type 2. He also tends to fabricate A LOT! So yesterday he finally admitted that he slept with her twice. Once the week before Thanksgiving and the second times was the day before Thanksgiving. This kills me inside...since the first time he said he was going to see his psych...and I honestly believed he had. He came home with 2 different bouqets of flowers and apologized for past wrong doings. But never mentioned he had been with her ALL AFTERNOON IN BED! I honestly thought he saw his psych...he came home and said, they upped my dosage on my medication, and I told him this and that BLAH BLAH! Damn that was good!!
But the second time he messed up!! He disappeared from work, and didn't tell me a thing! I had to call his office and the lady told me where he " said he would be". He was gone for over 4 hours! I called and text him frantically! He never ...responded! I don't get why he did it a second time if the first time..he had a break down afterward!
He blames himself and can barely speak about this...but at the same time..has not made his official apology. He tells me he hates her, and that she is nothing like me, he said it was "just sex," and it was wrong and he is disgusted with himself. But how can I prevent this from happening...do u think if I fulfill his every need it will be enough to keep him as MINE forever!?
"This morning he looked at me and said, I know what else I want..." " I want you to hold my hand, in public, and I want you to "hang all over me...like you used to". I know he has not felt wanted by me in a long time...and I feel truly sorry about that. Especially since he went out and found that in someone else.
He has also been SLOWLY opening up to the REAL truth! As some of you may know, my husband has bipolar disorder type 2. He also tends to fabricate A LOT! So yesterday he finally admitted that he slept with her twice. Once the week before Thanksgiving and the second times was the day before Thanksgiving. This kills me inside...since the first time he said he was going to see his psych...and I honestly believed he had. He came home with 2 different bouqets of flowers and apologized for past wrong doings. But never mentioned he had been with her ALL AFTERNOON IN BED! I honestly thought he saw his psych...he came home and said, they upped my dosage on my medication, and I told him this and that BLAH BLAH! Damn that was good!!
But the second time he messed up!! He disappeared from work, and didn't tell me a thing! I had to call his office and the lady told me where he " said he would be". He was gone for over 4 hours! I called and text him frantically! He never ...responded! I don't get why he did it a second time if the first time..he had a break down afterward!
He blames himself and can barely speak about this...but at the same time..has not made his official apology. He tells me he hates her, and that she is nothing like me, he said it was "just sex," and it was wrong and he is disgusted with himself. But how can I prevent this from happening...do u think if I fulfill his every need it will be enough to keep him as MINE forever!?