Looking for some salve ... in the wrong place - 05/21/06 03:24 PM
I met up with xh last week, to get some documents signed.
We met for breakfast and chatted for a while. BAD IDEA.
After the meeting, I realised that I am still wanting him to soothe my pain. I don't think it is something that he wants to do, or is able to do.
So I am left here, obsessing again. Aarrgh...
I didn't know that he is still able to bring out the pain.
Why do I still feel that he owes me something for all those years that we were married, where he gave little?
What is it with me? Why do I want him to be the one to apply the salve on the wound? Why? I am just asking for the impossible, when I think he cares little and wants none.
How do you apply salve to yourself? What's your balm? How often do you apply it and for how long?
Is it enough just to stay away from the object that hurts me? How do other people remains friends with an ex spouse?
I am so... ruffled.
We met for breakfast and chatted for a while. BAD IDEA.
After the meeting, I realised that I am still wanting him to soothe my pain. I don't think it is something that he wants to do, or is able to do.
So I am left here, obsessing again. Aarrgh...
I didn't know that he is still able to bring out the pain.
Why do I still feel that he owes me something for all those years that we were married, where he gave little?
What is it with me? Why do I want him to be the one to apply the salve on the wound? Why? I am just asking for the impossible, when I think he cares little and wants none.
How do you apply salve to yourself? What's your balm? How often do you apply it and for how long?
Is it enough just to stay away from the object that hurts me? How do other people remains friends with an ex spouse?
I am so... ruffled.