frustration - 02/15/07 05:41 PM
I have seperated 3 months ago from my wife of 10 years. We were together for 14 years and just had our first child a year ago. She thinks I left her for another woman and can understand why she thinks that(timing). But I think the marriage was over before that. I was acting out in order to get any attention from her and not recieving it. I understand looking back now that it was childish to go about it that way. She claims that she has changed after I explained my feelings. We tried to get back together and it only lasted 4 days because I was comparing feelings of my "new love" but can't be sure if she is just trying to be together and not out of love. I wanted to go to counseling before we tried but she showed up with her clothes ready to move back in and pretend it never happened. Every night I lay awake looking at all the memories that are left in our home. Is there hope for a marriage that has been let go this far. I still care about her deeply but am afraid to roll the dice and find out. As for the other woman she treats me great but I wish we would have met after my marriage was completely over for the both of us. I am afraid that I might miss out on true love(if there is such a thing) if I let her go in order to try to work things out.I am very torn and the only positive thing is focusing on my daughter and her needs. I feel dead inside.