desperate ,,, please help - 03/02/03 01:52 AM
Well, my H was cold today. He did give me a kiss and he is coming by for a movie tomorrow. Today I don't know what is wrong with me. I want to just die. I talked with his mom and she told me that she didn't have the answers but not to give up. She is sure he is not dating anyone, but how would she know. And he keeps telling me he is not, but maybe that's so he doesn't hurt me. He called yesturday and was so happy and called me by my pet name and was excited to be coming over tomorrow. My best freind is very angry. She said I should just kick him out the door. But Iam not ready for that. Is it his depression? His mom said it's because the stress of his job has just ended, our daughters surgery is over, and he hasn't had time to really unstress. She knows of our plans for the house and stuff and she thinks maybe he just came home to soon. It was only a week after we fell in love again. Then he went to work to help a freind. She said he needs time. Is that why he told me not to wait for him and to go find someone else that can treat me right. I agreeded with him that we need to date again. But this time slowly. AND NO SEX. When we talk we have such great conversations now. But today I just don't know. I know I should be happy beacuse he kissed me and hugged me. A small kiss on the lips, but not a freind kiss. And that he wants to come over to be with me. His mom said that is also a good thing. So why am I hurting so much today? He told me he was having a bad day today and that he wasn't feeling well. I told his mom that I want to tell him no more. But she told me even though it would be hard to do, was to be patient. Not to tell him that. I also told him I didn't mind that he wasn't sleeping here. It was ok with me for him to be sleeping at his moms. But I want to see him like we did 2 weeks ago. She thinks maybe that took some pressure off of him. Somebody help me, Im going out of my mind.