venting - pain is pretty bad - 02/10/04 04:31 AM
I did the things I needed to do today, and then I went to the library to do some research for a paper due for class. I was on the computer for 2 hours, typing and reading and typing for the paper. I was grateful to have an assistance at the desk that was very helpful. She helped me tremendously today and now I have some info to start my paper. On the way home, I realized that my neck was becoming so stiff and my eye was starting to feel like buldging out again.
By the time I got home, I was miserable. I stopped at K-mart to get some dishwasher detergent, cause son announced last night no dishwasher detergent (he does the dishes). I was beat, and my eye (R) was hurting. I warmed up the dinner, leftovers from last night, and ate, and then got sick. I had my oldest daughter do my back, and she said a disrespectful comment that you are getting hooked on me doing your back all the time. I just told her I am in pain, and I wish that I didn't have to ask you to do it. I even asked her to rub my neck and shoulder but she said no. So I warmed a neck aromatherapy pad I gave to my mother for x-mas last year for arthritis, and I used it on my neck. My mother didn't want the pad, so she gave it back to me. I see the Chiropractor Dr. tomorrow, and hope to get some relief. My neck is spasming, and my back right upper side is spasming. It must of been in the position of typing, and reading material and typing. I hate life, when I can't do simple things like this, my life just doesn't seem fair anymore. XH was over again today. And he walks around, doesn't have the pain, of course sits at his computers for hours upon hours. And he is the one that damaged my shoulder that started this whole process of pain.
I took my meds, and an extra pain Advil. I am off of pain killers, cause I was getting addicted. So maybe I can get some relief. Just wanted to vent, cause I have been crying, and just can't stop this crying crap. I once was a really active, slim very pretty woman. I ran and jogged with the guys cause I was so fast, and had a good rhythm in jogging. Now, I can't even keep up with the little tots. My exercise has gone to nothing. I was going to the gym, after I got the okay from the Dr. to try. But I found that the only thing that I could do, and not for long was the treadmill. And like tonight, even that would be painful.
Venting, that is all.
By the time I got home, I was miserable. I stopped at K-mart to get some dishwasher detergent, cause son announced last night no dishwasher detergent (he does the dishes). I was beat, and my eye (R) was hurting. I warmed up the dinner, leftovers from last night, and ate, and then got sick. I had my oldest daughter do my back, and she said a disrespectful comment that you are getting hooked on me doing your back all the time. I just told her I am in pain, and I wish that I didn't have to ask you to do it. I even asked her to rub my neck and shoulder but she said no. So I warmed a neck aromatherapy pad I gave to my mother for x-mas last year for arthritis, and I used it on my neck. My mother didn't want the pad, so she gave it back to me. I see the Chiropractor Dr. tomorrow, and hope to get some relief. My neck is spasming, and my back right upper side is spasming. It must of been in the position of typing, and reading material and typing. I hate life, when I can't do simple things like this, my life just doesn't seem fair anymore. XH was over again today. And he walks around, doesn't have the pain, of course sits at his computers for hours upon hours. And he is the one that damaged my shoulder that started this whole process of pain.
I took my meds, and an extra pain Advil. I am off of pain killers, cause I was getting addicted. So maybe I can get some relief. Just wanted to vent, cause I have been crying, and just can't stop this crying crap. I once was a really active, slim very pretty woman. I ran and jogged with the guys cause I was so fast, and had a good rhythm in jogging. Now, I can't even keep up with the little tots. My exercise has gone to nothing. I was going to the gym, after I got the okay from the Dr. to try. But I found that the only thing that I could do, and not for long was the treadmill. And like tonight, even that would be painful.
Venting, that is all.