WH has not given me any reason to doubt the NC. I just don't trust him.....it's barely been 3 months.
.... Recovery is hard. So far your WH is really trying to behave like H and you have an awesome MC. You want to snoop because you don't trust him. I could see why, you had to pull some tooth and chopped limbs to get him to confess.
I give you another point of view. Why focusing on snooping which is very hard to do and WH is a fed ! ... he knows how to counter surveillance. IMVHO, I disagree on snooping on the road to recovery. Any steps implemented should be out in the open. In your case, you are in early road to recovery and WH is doing his best to earn your trust. Use deterrence, send a very clear message -
I will end this M if you hurt me again since we already try our best to recovery. I will give up on this M. Stop snooping, let WH fillin your ENs and train him to fillin the way you need it. You need to give feed back to your WH and MC that you are still having a hard time.
Work on your M and focus on recovery. Put this on back burner and revisit it a couple of months if you still want to snoop.
-rh-