So confused. - 05/10/12 04:20 AM
Hey While we are in counselling I'm still facing the world with great trepidation. Recently I found my wife has been having emotional affair dating back to while we were dating. The latest has been the most devasting as they involve my boss. And life there has been a pure and utter hell once I found out as salt has been ground into my wounds daily by the look of him and comments made by him about my inadequacies. I have given my all to this marriage and I wish to keep trying but the diffculties are becoming to much to bear.
If she complained about lack of time I gave up hobbies, if she complained about help with chores I bore down and helped out. Conversation I made a point of trying to work on that. Romance well dear god I'm a hopeless romantic. Oddly since the discovery I feel I'm the one forever apologiszing. For years I have screamed what about me and now that things are open things are improving in the sex depts which I want her to enjoy more than my own needs there but why do I still feel like the giver. Just for once I would like to receive. Whtas wrong with me?
If she complained about lack of time I gave up hobbies, if she complained about help with chores I bore down and helped out. Conversation I made a point of trying to work on that. Romance well dear god I'm a hopeless romantic. Oddly since the discovery I feel I'm the one forever apologiszing. For years I have screamed what about me and now that things are open things are improving in the sex depts which I want her to enjoy more than my own needs there but why do I still feel like the giver. Just for once I would like to receive. Whtas wrong with me?