I'm new to the board, and have spent the last few day's reading through everything - not just in the discussion forum, but as much info as I can from the site in general. My question is: Is the discussion's in the forum specifically for those who have survived an affair as the betrayed spouse? or can the "wayward" spouse's post and ask for advice as well?
My question is: Is the discussion's in the forum specifically for those who have survived an affair as the betrayed spouse? or can the "wayward" spouse's post and ask for advice as well?
I'm new to the board, and have spent the last few day's reading through everything - not just in the discussion forum, but as much info as I can from the site in general. My question is: Is the discussion's in the forum specifically for those who have survived an affair as the betrayed spouse? or can the "wayward" spouse's post and ask for advice as well?
I'm new to the board, and have spent the last few day's reading through everything - not just in the discussion forum, but as much info as I can from the site in general. My question is: Is the discussion's in the forum specifically for those who have survived an affair as the betrayed spouse? or can the "wayward" spouse's post and ask for advice as well?
I'm new to the board, and have spent the last few day's reading through everything - not just in the discussion forum, but as much info as I can from the site in general. My question is: Is the discussion's in the forum specifically for those who have survived an affair as the betrayed spouse? or can the "wayward" spouse's post and ask for advice as well?
Thanks!
Welcome to the forum! We are glad you are here. We are pro healthy-happy-marriage. That about sums it up.
My H and I have been married 9 years this July, we have two children and are both 36. I am the WW, my affair lasted 9 weeks. During the last 8 1/2 years, leading up to the affair, my H was very for lack of a better word "in to himself", he paid next to no attention to me, was un-affectionate (seemd to cringe at touch) and had what I can only guess as to some form of "Sexual Anorexia", intimacy between was as long as three years without. I had set up numerous sessions with marriage therapists only to have him go once and the refuse to go again, I was open with him about my sadness and feelings on his behaviour towards me - it all added up to nothing. I'm Feb of this year, I got a msg from an old friend (one I'd known for 15 years) asking me to go have a coffee - I did, I thought nothing of going BUT that was the start. Without going into the griddy details to much - my H found out, I was honest with him, I never denied or tried to hide it. He began divorce proceedings and permanent custody orders immediatley. The OM threatened to end it with me,if I refused to move in with him. I realized I didn't love the OM, that I wanted my family back. My H agreed to try a reconcilliation under certain conditions - I was to have NO contact either direct or indirect with OM, I got rid of my facebook account, changed my cell number, gave H access to my email/bank accounts and phone, I signed the legal seperation he drafted to "feel safe", I've given him total disclosure. I've accepted what I did, I haven't "passed" blame, I've done EVERY THING my H has asked and yet it seems to not be enough - I don't know what else I can do, I get it that he's hurt and angry and it will take time, but I feel like I'm never going to stop being punished for it.
Hi MrsCen, it sounds you have taken the first steps towards recovery but stopped there. The next step has to be to create a happy, romantic marriage. OTHERWISE, you will be left with a crippled version of the pre-affair marriage. His resentment will grow every year and so will your unhappiness.
But you don't have to be like this if you follow this program to the letter. The program will help you fall in love again. Do you have the book Survivng an Affair?
A couple more questions:
1. have you ended ALL - I do mean ALL - contact with the OM?
2. is the OM married, and if so, did your husband inform his wife?
3. have you given your husband all the facts about the affair?
4. will your husband come here and let us help him?
Yes, I have ended ALL contact with OM - different phone number, email address, we don't socialize with the same groups. He was not married or attached at the time.I have given all the details as my H has asked - I wasn't sure if I should volunteer what's not brought up? My H is here on the website, he's the one who initially sent me the links and asked me to start reading.
Um yes, you should volunteer everything. Your BH is already terribly damaged by what you did, and the damage from "trickle truth" is even worse. Every time he thinks he knows everything, and can think about healing, BOOM something else comes along. Get it all out in the open, so he can begin to heal.
Glad you're both here - it's the best place to be, under the circumstances.
I'm Feb of this year, I got a msg from an old friend (one I'd known for 15 years) asking me to go have a coffee - I did, I thought nothing of going BUT that was the start.
This is pretty typical. Love bank draining plus opportunity to connect with an old "friend". Love bank deposits are made. Adultery ensues. You understand the dynamics, right?
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Without going into the griddy details to much - my H found out, I was honest with him, I never denied or tried to hide it. He began divorce proceedings and permanent custody orders immediatley.
BH's love bank was already also very close to empty. You understand that as well, right?
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The OM threatened to end it with me,if I refused to move in with him.
What a hero.
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I realized I didn't love the OM, that I wanted my family back.
If OM had not thrown you under the bus, you may have been willing to keep your love bank open to OM.
Adultery is wrong. Even if you still carried "love" for OM, it would still be wrong. This is the principle that will protect your family/marriage. "I did not really love OM" offers ZERO protection in the future !!! Think about that.
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My H agreed to try a reconcilliation under certain conditions - I was to have NO contact either direct or indirect with OM, I got rid of my facebook account, changed my cell number, gave H access to my email/bank accounts and phone, I signed the legal seperation he drafted to "feel safe", I've given him total disclosure. I've accepted what I did, I haven't "passed" blame, I've done EVERY THING my H has asked and yet it seems to not be enough - I don't know what else I can do, I get it that he's hurt and angry and it will take time, but I feel like I'm never going to stop being punished for it.
A BIG MISTAKE is to start the clock on your BH's wounds, and tell him he is not healing fast enough.
I wasn't sure if I should volunteer what's not brought up?
How far away does he live?
It is important that your husband has all the facts about the affair. So if there is anything important that he doesn't know, I would get it out now. What he doesn't know, he will wonder about and that will keep him thinking about hte affair. You don't want that. There should be no secrets between you and OM that your H is not privy to.
I wasn't sure if I should volunteer what's not brought up?
I think you answered your own question if you feel guilty about what your haven't told him then get all of it out all at once.
You don't want to have your BH ask you questions that pop into his head 5 years from now and be devastated, there can be no more secrets between you and OM your marriage is more important.
...I'm Feb of this year, I got a msg from an old friend (one I'd known for 15 years) asking me to go have a coffee - I did, I thought nothing of going...
Opposite-sex friendships are never a good idea. I don't care what you never thought through, or what you saw on some TV sitcom or some light-beer commercial, or what your girlfriends think. When a married person is in an opposite-sex friendship, it is never a good idea. That crap only works out in the world of fiction. In real life, it leads people to where you've been.
I know. I've been there myself.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
...Without going into the griddy details to much - my H found out, I was honest with him, I never denied or tried to hide it. ...
Well, assuming your "never" started only on the day you got caught... Like I said, I've been where you are, mrs_cen. That means you can't easily bull*** me. That's actually good news for you.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
... I've accepted what I did, I haven't "passed" blame, I've done EVERY THING my H has asked and yet it seems to not be enough - I don't know what else I can do, I get it that he's hurt and angry and it will take time, but I feel like I'm never going to stop being punished for it.
See, this early into recovery, your husband probably isn't even sure himself what it will take, isn't sure what will be enough. He may not be sure what he needs to know from you. That's to be expected. Why would you assume that on the basis of the time between the discovery of your affair & the present day, you'll be punished "forever"? That's a heck of an extrapolation on your part. That'd be sort of like your husband assuming you'll be an adulterer forever, based on an extrapolation of your conduct during your affair. Would it be unfair for him to make such an assumption, but not unfair for you to do so?
My wife (who has worked for most of the last 3 decades in neonatal intensive care units) has drawn a parallel between the pain of being cheated upon & the pain she's witnessed in parents who've just lost a child. Maybe that's overdrawn, I dunno, but my wife isn't given to maudlin statements. Anyway, you've got kids; so let that thought sink in for a bit. Give yourself some pause before you go making any glib assumptions about his level of pain -- it may be worse than you think. Still, figuratively-speaking, and literally, your husband, when faced with a choice between this site & a lawyer's office, came here -- by his own free will. That's huge. If you want to save your marriage, it's huge. Take heart.
I'm here to tell you that a marriage can not only be saved but made better than before. That's my message of hope for you both. But it requires that you commit gratuitous acts of trust on a daily basis. It requires that you both aim not to get back to the marriage you had before, but to something better.
If you haven't gotten the book "Surviving An Affair," please know that it's the book that well may have saved my marriage after my own affair. If your husband thought enough of you to stay his own hand on the divorce, then chances are, he'd be interested in working through the book with you.
No, it won't all be one-sided -- all work for you & no expectations, and him holding this over your head forever. It can't be one-way if your marriage is to flourish; and hopefully your husband is smart enough to realize that. 3 years w/o sex sounds pretty damned messed-up -- y'all need to figure that out, the two of you, together, and that's nothing that I've got any experience in dealing with, so I can't help you there. But for today, I'll counsel patience on your part. Recoveries take two years even in best-case scenarios, and with the sexual issue you've described, I'm not sure your situation is best-case.
You can fix this, but you both have to be all-in, and ready to work at it together, daily.
Right now, how much time are you getting each week for undivided attention to one another?
The biggest thing on my mind right now is the fact that he dumped her not the other way around. This tells me she would still be with him and not me otherwise. I was just around and still willing to try and make this work, so she figured she may as well come back to me. Am I wrong for thinking this? She and him were still in communication as little as two weeks ago, i've seen the messages. The first message I encountered was her basically begging him to tell her why he dumped her? Now i'm not supposedly doing something right because I don't trust her? I am going to give this my best, i've been around from the beginning but there will be no second chances.
I'm already wondering what was said here and deleted?
You are mrscen's BH?
If you are referring to the fact that the threads were merged, it doesn't mean that anything was deleted. Just that her two threads were merged into one.
While you can read your W's thread, it is not a good idea for you to post on it. It would be great for you to start your own thread. Welcome to MB!
The biggest thing on my mind right now is the fact that he dumped her not the other way around. This tells me she would still be with him and not me otherwise. I was just around and still willing to try and make this work, so she figured she may as well come back to me. Am I wrong for thinking this?
Are you mrs_cen's BH? Welcome to MB.
No, you are not wrong for thinking this. You are probably correct in your analysis. However, you should read the case study of Sue and Jon in Dr Harley's book Surviving an Affair.
Sue left Jon for another man, and only went back home because he dumped her and she had nowhere to go. Jon was very resentful of this fact and hopeless about the prospects for their marriage. Yet, because they used Dr Harley's programme to estore their marriage, Sue fell in love with Jon again and their marriage is successful today, years later.
Have you read Surviving an Affair, or any of the infidelity articles available free on this forum?
The biggest thing on my mind right now is the fact that he dumped her not the other way around. This tells me she would still be with him and not me otherwise. I was just around and still willing to try and make this work, so she figured she may as well come back to me. Am I wrong for thinking this?
Are you her husband?
The fact of who dumped whom makes zero difference in recovery. And let me explain why. An affair is an addiction. Rarely does an alcoholic give up alcohol because he woke up one day and realized the error of his ways. That is because he is a drunk and too inebriated to make a sound decision. A cheater experiences the same kind of high from her affair; it is called the "fog."
It doesn't matter HOW the addict was separated from the booze [affair] only that she WAS separated. Cutting off the booze [or affair] means the addict can sober up and engage in recovery. So as long as your wife has cut off all contact with the OM [no matter how it happened] she can fall in with you again.
And it is really BETTER that he dumped her for another reason. As long as he dumped her, she can't go back. If it had been the other way around she could make a decision to take him back.
So it is really more risky to your chances of recovery if your wife did the dumping.
The biggest thing on my mind right now is the fact that he dumped her not the other way around. This tells me she would still be with him and not me otherwise. I was just around and still willing to try and make this work, so she figured she may as well come back to me. Am I wrong for thinking this? She and him were still in communication as little as two weeks ago, i've seen the messages. The first message I encountered was her basically begging him to tell her why he dumped her? Now i'm not supposedly doing something right because I don't trust her? I am going to give this my best, i've been around from the beginning but there will be no second chances.
I am going to start a new thread for you so that you can get some help.
No, you are not wrong for thinking this. You are probably correct in your analysis.
Although, having said this, I went back and read your wife's description and it seems that he did not dump her. She dumped him because she realised that she loved and wanted you and her family. Why did you describe this so differently?
Since, this is my thread I best comment on it, and not my BH's.
The OM DID dump ME, he did so, because I wasn't willing to "agree" to his terms of the "relationship", I realized after thinking about what the OM was asking of me, that i did still love my H, and I wanted to be with him (my H ) I wanted my family back - therefore deciding that what the OM was wanting out of the "relationship" I was not willing to do - so he ended it. This has been hard on my BH, because as he stated he feels, that had I not been dumped, I would still be with the OM, I'm saying that the reason I was dumped in the first place was BECAUSE, I didn't want the relationship with the OM, I wanted my H, and had I wanted to continue the relationship with the OM, I would have "agreed" to the "terms" the OM was asking, and I never would have been dumped, the relationship never would have ended.
The OM DID dump ME, he did so, because I wasn't willing to "agree" to his terms of the "relationship", I realized after thinking about what the OM was asking of me, that i did still love my H, and I wanted to be with him (my H ) I wanted my family back - therefore deciding that what the OM was wanting out of the "relationship" I was not willing to do - so he ended it. This has been hard on my BH, because as he stated he feels, that had I not been dumped, I would still be with the OM, I'm saying that the reason I was dumped in the first place was BECAUSE, I didn't want the relationship with the OM, I wanted my H, and had I wanted to continue the relationship with the OM, I would have "agreed" to the "terms" the OM was asking, and I never would have been dumped, the relationship never would have ended.
Please don�t argue with your H. If you truly want to be with your H then prove it. Read everything Dr. Harley has written on how to survive an affair and put in extraordinary precautions so that you never stray again.
If I were you I wouldn't ask to have your thread deleted. I would leave them here so as you learn you can see the flawed thinking you currently have � and yes right now some, if not all, of your thinking on how you�re going to save this marriage is flawed.
If your H is reading this I�d encourage him not to and instead start his own thread.
Your H has suffered a great hurt committed by you and as such he deserves just compensation. What do you plan to do to recover your M? I hope it�s more than you trying to justify who dumped who and why you say you�re back in this M. From our standpoint we don�t care why you�re no longer in an A. We want to know what you�re going to do so it never happens again, what you�re going to do to help your H trust you again and what you are going to do to help restore love in your M.
I have had the night to "think", my H and I talked about my post a bit and I have decided to leave the thread and continue to do as is suggested in saving my marriage. We both appreciate all the replies.
And your fogginess hurts him, too. The path MB lays out is the fastest way to get you through the fog, both of you in love with each other, and with a new, safe M that doesn't leave room for an A.
My BS and I are both here on MB, I wanted to clarify a few things - since I can't comment on his thread. My A began Feb 2013 and lasted just under nine weeks, my BS (RNR2013) was aware of the A, almost from the start. My BS had always expressed an interest to reconcille (or at least try) so when the A ended (yes, the OM dumped ME) my BS and I decided to try. The day it ended April 10/13 was the day all contact stopped - I closed my FB account, gave H access to email and text message, I received a text from OM about three weeks ago (H says its 2)OM had two phones, the primary one I deleted when the A ended, the 2nd I had under a false name and honestly forgot it was even there - since OM never used it (BS obviously does not believe that) anyway, I did not answer, the next day I changed my cell number, he still has access to it. Its been hard to read the few comments he's made, because we have discrepancies in how things have been done etc, but as I've read I need to put my feelings aside and focus solely on helping him heal. We bought the book that was suggested and have begun reading it - I'm unsure how it will go.
I received a text from OM about three weeks ago (H says its 2)OM had two phones, the primary one I deleted when the A ended, the 2nd I had under a false name and honestly forgot it was even there - since OM never used it (BS obviously does not believe that)
Sorry, hon, I call BS on this as well. You "honestly forgot" in a manner within the last 9 weeks that you created a fictitious name for your AP?? Really?
Please start being radically honest with your battered betrayed spouse. He deserves the truth and not more lies.
Rocket queen - yes, I did "honestly" forget, it was a number that was not used, I had it in there at the beginning of the affair. Because I cut contact and deleted the number I was familiar with, the other number was not a thought UNTIl Om tried to make contact. Your "assumption" was incorrect.
Rocket queen - yes, I did "honestly" forget, it was a number that was not used, I had it in there at the beginning of the affair. Because I cut contact and deleted the number I was familiar with, the other number was not a thought UNTIl Om tried to make contact. Your "assumption" was incorrect.
Your BH is EXTREMELY devastated and needs your help.
What EPs have you given to him for yourself? What just compensation have you given your BH?
Rocket queen - yes, I did "honestly" forget, it was a number that was not used, I had it in there at the beginning of the affair. Because I cut contact and deleted the number I was familiar with, the other number was not a thought UNTIl Om tried to make contact. Your "assumption" was incorrect.
It actually doesn't matter whether she was incorrect or not. Her point being that this is how it looks to your BS.
Any further contact is incredibly offensive to the BS. Your BS isn't going to care that you forgot - it is going to trigger him and make him wonder how much you are actually doing to protect him and the M.
The best course of action would have been to CHANGE the number so that the OM cannot ever get through again. Most WS try to short-cut this one and it backfires often.
Hopefully you have thought carefully and blocked off any other loopholes there may be (email, etc)
BTW, if there are any mementos from the affair (pictures, notes, emails, texts, ANYTHING) it should all be revealed to your BH and then disposed of immediately.
When you explain it that way SusieQ, I understand. I did change the number the next day, and have had no further contact. I had no "mementos" but I do see the relivance of disclosing such information.
" My H agreed to try a reconcilliation under certain conditions - I was to have NO contact either direct or indirect with OM, I got rid of my facebook account, changed my cell number, gave H access to my email/bank accounts and phone, I signed the legal seperation he drafted to "feel safe", I've given him total disclosure. I've accepted what I did, I haven't"
Your husband said he just caught you Facebook messaging this POS and taking his calls on your cellphone?? How does that line up with what you told us here?
I changed the number the day after he sent the text. Clearly it doesn't matter, if you follow his thread, as he mentioned he's in the oil field - your wife has already commented on my "faithfullness" and lack there of. He's already now got it in his head, that's what I will do.
My H and I have been married 9 years this July, we have two children and are both 36. I am the WW, my affair lasted 9 weeks. During the last 8 1/2 years, leading up to the affair, my H was very for lack of a better word "in to himself", he paid next to no attention to me, was un-affectionate (seemd to cringe at touch) and had what I can only guess as to some form of "Sexual Anorexia", intimacy between was as long as three years without. I had set up numerous sessions with marriage therapists only to have him go once and the refuse to go again, I was open with him about my sadness and feelings on his behaviour towards me - it all added up to nothing.
We now know that your husband's job was keeping him away for weeks at a time. It's no wonder there was no intimacy. Nights apart are murder on marriage and intimacy.
In order to recover, you guys are going to need to make a big life change and commit to no nights apart ever again. It's already been demonstrated to be devastating to your marriage and contributory toward the circumstances that led to your affair.
I changed the number the day after he sent the text. Clearly it doesn't matter, if you follow his thread, as he mentioned he's in the oil field - your wife has already commented on my "faithfullness" and lack there of. He's already now got it in his head, that's what I will do.
When my wife and I used to spend nights apart, I got involved in looking at porn, which was devastating to her.
We don't spend nights apart any more, so the circumstances that led to me looking at porn never happened, so now she doesn't have to live in fear of me doing it again.
Of course, the nights apart didn't MAKE me look at porn. There were plenty of nights when I was alone and did not do that, so obviously I had a choice and was in control of my own decisions. But we had together made a decision that was bad for our marriage in many ways, and that was one of them. I'm very thankful we don't spend nights apart any more.
You're more than welcome. You can start by answering the questions I asked.
Are you willing to never spend the night apart again? What about your email? Your husband seems to think you haven't shared it completely. What about Facebook. Is it now BLOCKED?
Your wife is now telling him - "I'm just doing what I can to get by, waiting until he leaves", she doesn't know me, those comments are NOT helpfull.
You realize my wife had a short ~9 week affair, and has since completely recovered our marriage with me, right? You realize she knows how to actually do the work to recover from an affair, right?
mrs_cen, we are on the side of your marriage and want the two of you to recover. Are you willing to do whatever it takes to make sure an affair never happens again, and to make sure your marriage recovers? Are you willing to never spend the night apart again, if that is what it takes?
Originally Posted by Prisca
Are you willing to commit to never spending the night apart again?
From one wayward to another, every time your H finds out another secret that you are intentionally or not intentionally keeping, it puts him back to day one of the affair. You need to stop worrying about the advice given to your H and start taking the advice given to you from BH's and Waywards that took the high road and truly cleaned up their mess.
Think about the tornado that just hit Oklahoma and that is the mess you made of your marriage. Sitting around and waiting for someone else to clean up or complaining because its not getting cleaned up fast enough is not going to get the job done. In addition it is a BIG job that is going to take ALOT of work on your end.
Please stop taking such offense to what people on here are telling you. Like Markos said, we are on the side of your marriage and know what it takes to make it work.
You have got to be patient and work on cleaning up your side of the street. That includes EP's and Just Compensation(look them up if you don't know what they are)to your H. Both of these need to come into play before you he can even begin to recover.
He is going to be on a roller coaster of emotions for awhile. You are going to have to except that, deal with it, and understand that you are the cause.
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
Talk to your cell carrier, and see if there is an option for "parental controls."
Using parental controls through your account on the provider's website may allow you to apply blocks and/or filters.
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
You could also consider just getting a dumb phone, like an older version flip phone without internet capability. That would keep you off social networks entirely.
Since April of rhis year, i have had NC with the OM, in person or by phone - there was a text message in the beggining of May (which i did not respond to) but BS set our recovery day back to that last communication. Since then i have deleted and blocked FB, have no email address (other than the joint one we share) have transfered my cell to his plan and under his name so he is able to go through and see any texts or phone calls ive received/made through our cell provider (should he choose) our bank accounts are now joint, I have given him a 24hr schedule (as book suggests) to my daily activities, he has all numbers to where i should be at any time to be able to verify. My BS was upset that i had not done a NC letter to OM - since we have both just started to read Dr. H's book "Surviving an Affair" I (we) was not aware until now it should be done, so my question is shoul i still be doing a NC letter to OM? and if so, how do i go about getting it to him? he only has one living relative that i know of - his mom and i dont have any info on her as to number, address etc. I don't want to make things worse after this much time has now passed, I want to do what's best in reparing my marriage and helping him heal. Thank you,
My advice is to write a final letter in a way that the victimized spouse would agree to send it. It should begin with a statement of how selfish it was to cause those they loved so much pain, and while marital reconciliation cannot completely repay the offense, it's the right thing to do. A statement should be made about how much the unfaithful spouse cares about his spouse and family, and for their protection, has decided to completely end the relationship with the lover. He or she has promised never to see or communicate with the lover again in life, and asks the lover to respect that promise. Nothing should be said about how much the lover will be missed. After the letter is written, the victimized spouse should read and approve it before it is sent
OW, I want you to know that out of respect and love for my wife and children, I have come to realize that I must never see or talk to you again. My relationship with you was a cruel indulgence that BS did not deserve. While I cannot completely repay BS for the pain I caused her, I will do my best to become the husband she has been missing. I care a great deal for my family and I would not want to do anything to risk their happiness. I will not make any further contact with you and I do not want you to make any contact with me. Please respect my desire to end our relationship.
how do i go about getting it to him? he only has one living relative that i know of - his mom and i dont have any info on her as to number, address etc.
Are you willing to never spend the night apart again? What EPs have you given to him for yourself? Are you willing to do whatever it takes to make sure an affair never happens again, and to make sure your marriage recovers?
Are you willing to never spend the night apart again? What EPs have you given to him for yourself? Are you willing to do whatever it takes to make sure an affair never happens again, and to make sure your marriage recovers?
1. Yes, I am 100% willing to never spend the night apart 2. I'm not sure what an EP is (couldn't find it in the abbreviation section) so I can't answer that one yet. 3. I am 100^ willing to do whatever it takes to recover my marriage.
Are you willing to never spend the night apart again? What EPs have you given to him for yourself? Are you willing to do whatever it takes to make sure an affair never happens again, and to make sure your marriage recovers?
1. Yes, I am 100% willing to never spend the night apart 2. I'm not sure what an EP is (couldn't find it in the abbreviation section) so I can't answer that one yet. 3. I am 100^ willing to do whatever it takes to recover my marriage.
I did see it Brain, and I had a few minutes to talk to my H at lunch about it, he feels that following Dr.H's steps as well as the forum advice is the way to go, so we will be discussing the letter further tonight.
I did see it Brain, and I had a few minutes to talk to my H at lunch about it, he feels that following Dr.H's steps as well as the forum advice is the way to go, so we will be discussing the letter further tonight.
Good.
Make a list of EPs and present them here and then give them to your BH.
Once your BH feels like he's had all his questions answered about Your Affair and sees you living a complete transparent life then you can proceed with building a romantic integrated marriage.
When a wayward spouse ends the affair, and agrees to rebuild the marriage, extraordinary precautions must be taken to guarantee that there will be no relapses. Affairs thrive on what I've called a secret second life. It's what you do under the radar. You know, or at least suspect, that your spouse wouldn't approve, so a part of your life is hidden from him or her. When a spouse is able to come and go without any accountability, men like Alex can have an affair with relative impunity. The temptation of an affair is great because there's little to stop them.
So I encourage couples to end their secret second lives by being transparent in the way they live their lives. It not only guards against affairs, but it also helps create intimacy and build compatibility. It's not a punishment for bad behavior -- it's an essential ingredient for a healthy marriage.
Transparency occurs when couples follow the Policy of Radical Honesty that I introduced to you in chapter 7. Reveal to your spouse as much information about yourself as you know -- your thoughts, feelings, habits, likes, dislikes, past history, daily activities, and future plans.
Nothing should be hidden. Passwords, email, text messages, telephone logs, computer histories, and all other forms of communication are made readily available to a spouse. It's the way my wife, Joyce, and I have lived during our 47 years of marriage. By revealing everything we know about ourselves, we have not only avoided an affair, but our transparency has helped our marriage in a host of other ways, too. It's not a lifetime prison sentence, where disclosure prevents us from having what we need most -- it's the formula for a very fulfilling life.
If I were to counsel Alex, I would encourage him to give Elaine a twenty-four-hour-a-day schedule of his whereabouts, and Elaine should do the same. Such a schedule is essential in a great marriage because spouses who are partners in life check with each other throughout the day to coordinate their decisions and activities. Elaine should call him several times a day, and he should call her as well just so they can check in with each other.
When discussing EPs, Dr. Harley addresses that the following areas need to change:
A) Blocking all communication with Affair Partners (AP�s) B) Accounting for all of your time C) Accounting for all money D) Spending your leisure time with your wife.
EP�s are put into place to protect your spouse.
Protection = Care
EP�s are also designed to ELIMINATE the opportunity to have a secret second life.
Ok, so let�s talk about two different categories you need to create in your list of EP�s.
The first category is a list of one-time EPs that you will need to make sure you complete quickly.
The second category is a list of EPs that you will follow for a lifetime.
So let�s start with the first category items.
(what follows are SUGGESTIONS, remember this is going to be YOUR list)
A) Change cell phone number and give password & account access to your spouse. B) Change email account. C) Eliminate all social networking accounts (i.e., Face book, Classmates, My Space, etc.) D) Take a polygraph E) Make a copy of my vehicle keys and any other keys my spouse does not have and give to them (i.e., safe deposit boxes, business keys, storage cabinets/lockers, etc.) F) List out passwords for all business and personal computer logins, and any other passwords my spouse does not have access to. G) Give my spouse access to any banking/financial accounts, business and personal. H) Install software that tracks all internet use, giving my spouse administrative access. I) Install a webcam/security cameras for while at work that my spouse can access. ... K) Sell the house/purchase a new one. L) Sell any vehicle AP was in and replace them.
Some of these things you may have already done. But these are one time things that you set up and they stay this way with little or no maintenance.
Include completed items on this list as well as items still in process on your list.
A) I will protect my spouse and their feelings above all else. B) I will not participate in any one-on-one meetings with anyone of the opposite sex. C) I will not discuss my personal marriage issues with anyone of the opposite sex. D) I will not attend clubs, strip joints, or any such establishment E) I agree to use POJA as a basis for all decisions. F) I will be open and honest with my spouse at all times about the past and present. G) I will provide my spouse a daily schedule of all appointments and contact information. H) If I need to make an adjustment to my schedule, I will notify my spouse of the change immediately. I) I will make my spouse�s phone calls my highest priority by answering them or returning them immediately. J) I will avoid all chat rooms, porn, member sites, etc. K) I will trade phones with my spouse at any time they request, NO questions asked. L) I will leave my phone accessible to my spouse at night/or anytime I�m home. M) I will commit to at least 15 hours of undivided attention with my spouse to meet each other�s ENs every week (time working together does not count toward those 15 hours). N) If AP finds a way to make contact, I will immediately end the contact and notify my spouse about it immediately after. O) I will install a keylogger, GPS, or any other tracking system my spouse may request. P) Anytime I have the thought, �I don�t want my spouse to know about��.�, I will call my spouse immediately and tell them my thoughts. Q) Anything else my spouse wants as a boundary.
I did see it Brain, and I had a few minutes to talk to my H at lunch about it, he feels that following Dr.H's steps as well as the forum advice is the way to go, so we will be discussing the letter further tonight.
This is good to see -- we will do whatever we can do to help you guys.
I did see it Brain, and I had a few minutes to talk to my H at lunch about it, he feels that following Dr.H's steps as well as the forum advice is the way to go, so we will be discussing the letter further tonight.
This is good to see -- we will do whatever we can do to help you guys.
BS has spent the night accusing me of being dishonest - having a "secret" bank account ( there is NO secret bank account) texting and deleting people ( I suggested he contact our cell provider and ask for the records - so as to see I've not been "texting/deleting"people) suggesting I was NOT where I said was after work for half hour (returned a sundress - brought new top AND receipt with time/date stamp to show him) I have completed the NC letter, BS has not read it, as has been busy with the above. He's said IF the NC letter is not sent by tomorrow it's over. I have NO contact info for OM, other than the cell number, am I suppose to text him and ask for his address? I have no idea what I'm supposed to do - only if I don't do SOMETHING it's over.
Stay transparent with your husband so he can verify everything himself. Be sure not to react negatively to him wanting to verify anything.
HOWEVER,
husband should not be going about this in an angry manner. If he feels angry, he needs to go off by himself and not say or do anything until he calms down.
I say this as a formerly angry man with a formerly wayward wife: Dr. Harley says neither of these conditions is tolerable if you want to save your marriage!
suggesting I was NOT where I said was after work for half hour (returned a sundress - brought new top AND receipt with time/date stamp to show him)
Can you carry a GPS or GPS-enabled phone that he can always check to know where you are? Technology can work wonders when it comes to accountability these days.
suggesting I was NOT where I said was after work for half hour (returned a sundress - brought new top AND receipt with time/date stamp to show him)
You should not go ANYWHERE without your husband's knowledge. He should be able to contact you at any moment.
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I have NO contact info for OM, other than the cell number
I have a hard time believing this. Do you not know his name? Do you not know where he works? Do you not know his family or friends names? Can you not look him up in a phone book? Can you not google for the information?
It is NOT difficult at all to find someone's address when you have their name and number ... I have a hard time believing that you can't find SOMETHING.
suggesting I was NOT where I said was after work for half hour (returned a sundress - brought new top AND receipt with time/date stamp to show him)
You should not go ANYWHERE without your husband's knowledge. He should be able to contact you at any moment.
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I have NO contact info for OM, other than the cell number
I have a hard time believing this. Do you not know his name? Do you not know where he works? Do you not know his family or friends names? Can you not look him up in a phone book? Can you not google for the information?
It is NOT difficult at all to find someone's address when you have their name and number ... I have a hard time believing that you can't find SOMETHING.
He DID know where I was, I spoke with him twice on the phone while I was at the store.
1. Yes, I know his name 2. No, I do not know where he works. 3. He had one living relative (as I previously posted) his mother, who does not share his last name - I do not know what her last name is. 4. He has a cell only, phone books in Canada use landline only. 5. I googled him after Markos suggested and came up with some men in the UK and a possible Facebook page.
[ He DID know where I was, I spoke with him twice on the phone while I was at the store.
How does that prove your location?
I would imagine the receipt I brought home, with the time/date stamp would confirm it.
How would he know you were calling from the store??? You were on a cell phone, no?? And any halfwit could run into the store and grab a shirt off the shelf to produce a receipt. All that proves is that you ran through the store real quick.
You have ALOT OF NERVE getting mad at him for not trusting you when it was YOU who destroyed that trust. Don't blame him for not trusting you.
[ He DID know where I was, I spoke with him twice on the phone while I was at the store.
How does that prove your location?
I would imagine the receipt I brought home, with the time/date stamp would confirm it.
How would he know you were calling from the store??? You were on a cell phone, no?? And any halfwit could run into the store and grab a shirt off the shelf to produce a receipt. All that proves is that you ran through the store real quick.
You have ALOT OF NERVE getting mad at him for not trusting you when it was YOU who destroyed that trust. Don't blame him for not trusting you.
He should not trust out of his sight.
First of all I NEVER said I was angry MelodyLane - I started by explains the events of our evening - expressing HIS anger and asking for suggestions on how to send the NC letter. Secondly, I suppose as you said any "half-wit can run into a store etc" is indeed true, however, getting off work, speaking to him, buying the shirt and making it home within 40 minutes really doesn't leave me a lot of time to be doing "dishonest things"
First of all I NEVER said I was angry MelodyLane - I started by explains the events of our evening - expressing HIS anger and asking for suggestions on how to send the NC letter.
You're obviously agitated about it, though.
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40 minutes really doesn't leave me a lot of time to be doing "dishonest things"
40 minutes is plenty of time to do many dishonest things. You haven't even sent a NC letter yet, and you're shopping? And you expect him to not wonder if you're honest? Of course he's going to wonder ... He CAN'T trust you right now. And he SHOULDN'T.
First of all I NEVER said I was angry MelodyLane - I started by explains the events of our evening - expressing HIS anger and asking for suggestions on how to send the NC letter.
You're obviously agitated about it, though.
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40 minutes really doesn't leave me a lot of time to be doing "dishonest things"
40 minutes is plenty of time to do many dishonest things. You haven't even sent a NC letter yet, and you're shopping? And you expect him to not wonder if you're honest? Of course he's going to wonder ... He CAN'T trust you right now. And he SHOULDN'T.
No, I'm actually not agitated at all. I don't "expect" him to do anything - perhaps I'm not being clear enough here - when I posted tonight, it was to explain his feelings and ask about the NC letter I'm expected to send. I did not suggest, nor did I say I was angry at all, I did not suggest, nor did I say I expect him to suddenly trust me.
First of all I NEVER said I was angry MelodyLane - I started by explains the events of our evening - expressing HIS anger and asking for suggestions on how to send the NC letter. Secondly, I suppose as you said any "half-wit can run into a store etc" is indeed true, however, getting off work, speaking to him, buying the shirt and making it home within 40 minutes really doesn't leave me a lot of time to be doing "dishonest things"
You didn't need to say you were angry, we can read it in your post which complains about him. Did you tell your husband you were going there?
First of all I NEVER said I was angry MelodyLane - I started by explains the events of our evening - expressing HIS anger and asking for suggestions on how to send the NC letter. Secondly, I suppose as you said any "half-wit can run into a store etc" is indeed true, however, getting off work, speaking to him, buying the shirt and making it home within 40 minutes really doesn't leave me a lot of time to be doing "dishonest things"
You didn't need to say you were angry, we can read it in your post which complains about him. Did you tell your husband you were going there?
Yes, I did tell him I was going. I didn't realize talking about his feelings, was complaint about them - I will refrain from doing so in the future.
Right. So you should have no problem with him checking up on you in the future.
And you shouldn't have a problem skipping the shopping for awhile, to ease your husband's fears.
Of course I don't have a problem with it - I didn't realize that shopping for half an hour would upset him, being as I spoke with him on the phone and brought home the receipt etc. clearly I was wrong, and need to be much more aware of his feelings in the future and either bring him with me or not go at all.
Right. So you should have no problem with him checking up on you in the future.
And you shouldn't have a problem skipping the shopping for awhile, to ease your husband's fears.
Of course I don't have a problem with it - I didn't realize that shopping for half an hour would upset him, being as I spoke with him on the phone and brought home the receipt etc. clearly I was wrong, and need to be much more aware of his feelings in the future and either bring him with me or not go at all.
This doesn't add up. So you told him BEFORE you went shopping and he agreed to this and then when you got home he was upset?
Of course I don't have a problem with it - I didn't realize that shopping for half an hour would upset him, being as I spoke with him on the phone and brought home the receipt etc. clearly I was wrong, and need to be much more aware of his feelings in the future and either bring him with me or not go at all.
Yes, that is correct - I told him, where I was going BEFORE I went, spoke with him twice while I was there, everything was fine when I got home, he got angry a few hours after - which was the start of my first post tonight.
Yes, that is correct - I told him, where I was going BEFORE I went, spoke with him twice while I was there, everything was fine when I got home, he got angry a few hours after - which was the start of my first post tonight.
I don't know, I believe when I'm not around it gives him time to "think" and it reminds him of the A and he gets angry and begins to "think of things/ideas/scenarios" in his head.
I get it now. He doesn't BELIEVE the explanation, which makes perfect sense. The big red flag to ME was the "I called twice while I was there!!" You just set off his red flags with that lame cover. You do realize that is not a cover, right, and makes your story sound contrived?
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( I suggested he contact our cell provider and ask for the records - so as to see I've not been "texting/deleting"people) suggesting I was NOT where I said was after work for half hour (returned a sundress - brought new top AND receipt with time/date stamp to show him)
I NEVER said I "called him twice", I said I SPOKE with him twice, I called ONCE, he called me ONCE. There IS/WAS no "cover".
You just sound more incredible with every post, do you realize that? Your defensiveness makes you very unbelievable. You used the phone calls as COVER, which should have set off his spidey senses.
I hope he is watching you like a bloodhound. If not, he needs to.
I am still at a loss as to why you were shopping when there is a NC letter to be written and sent, and knowing you were going to have to invest some time into finding the way to send it ....
Whitepages.com is a good website on finding mailing address. Make sure its sent certified and signed by POSOM. Also, let your BH review of for authenticity.
The OM threatened to end it with me,if I refused to move in with him.
How did you not know where he wanted you to move to?
I just want to share this with you from the perspective of a BH. You need to put this stuff on the front burner. I guarantee you that your H is thinking about this 24/7. And I mean all the time, day and night. He sees this as the most important issue of his life and it is torturing him relentlessly. The best thing you can do right now is treat this like your most important priority too.
I understand where you and your BH are coming from. Right after my A, my H allowed me to go out to dinner with a girlfriend. While out at dinner I called him twice. Not as a cover but just to check on him and make sure he was okay alone without me by his side (it was the first time I went out without him post A). I told him I would be home by 9:00.
My H has never been a stickler for time so when I walked in at 9:05 and he was freaking out and angry with me, it was the first time that I really got a look at the damage I had done. It was the first time that I came to the realization that I HAD to be accounted for at all times in order for him to feel safe.
Even doing something as simple as exchanging a shirt can and will set him off. Even if he says its okay, I would try not to go anywhere or do anything where there is lost time and his mind can wonder. He is VERY fragile and you need to see this and understand it.
I have not personally used it but I have seen it suggested on this site, Spokeo has been suggested for finding people. I think you can get a month free for only a couple of bucks.
I think this might be a good thing for you and your H to do together then send the letter together. This letter is his security blanket right now. Find a way to get it mailed ASAP!!!
I NEVER said I "called him twice", I said I SPOKE with him twice, I called ONCE, he called me ONCE. There IS/WAS no "cover".
Not true... You said this just a few posts back:
Originally Posted by mrscen
He DID know where I was, I spoke with him twice on the phone while I was at the store.
MelodyLane - please actually read my post BEFORE commenting - my post said I "spoke to him twice", no where in there did I say I called him twice, as I explained to you and the other thread readers - he called me ONCE, I called him ONCE - thus making it TWICE that we spoke while I was out.
Since my BS has done exposure, I sent my sister a text asking her to find him by name on FB and ask for his address - which she has done. The NC letter has been written and is in an envelope waiting for my BS to read and approve.
Hate to point this out but maybe if the NC letter was sent your BH wouldn't be freaking out as much when you are away from him. Your ignoring a bigger issues for something contrite. What steps have you taken to find the address for this POSOM and get the NC letter done? It was suggested this should be an activity you both do together.
Hate to point this out but maybe if the NC letter was sent your BH wouldn't be freaking out as much when you are away from him. Your ignoring a bigger issues for something contrite. What steps have you taken to find the address for this POSOM and get the NC letter done? It was suggested this should be an activity you both do together.
BS wanted the info found by the time he came home from work today. As I posted, I asked my sister to find him by name on FB and get an address.
Your BH should not be taking out his justified anger on you. That is the least important bit of information in this whole thing, because that's his battle to fight, not yours.
The most important bit of info in all this is the NC letter. Let me break it down for you. If you could find a way to get in touch with OM in the first place, if you could spend enough time online or on the phone to make a connection, if you could find the ways, means, and time to meet with him and pull your pants down, if you could get so far with your adultery that OM wanted you to live with him and be his Lust Shack Queen, then don't try to say you have no way of sending him an NC letter.
Have a friend, or better yet your pastor, call OM on his cell phone and say you need to send him a letter. Search everything you can think of. Zabasearch.com may have something.
So your initial contact was on FB? Well, unless he's deleted his account, a letter can be sent there. If your BH is unwilling to send it himself, have a friend send it for you, to both OM and BH so BH can see that it was actually sent.
You're spending so much time parsing words about your ill-advised shopping trip, that you're missing the most important thing. Did you call him twice? Did he call you twice? Did you each call each other once? Your defensiveness is at the very least foggy, and at the worst deceptive, but the bottom line is STOP WASTING TIME AND FIGURE OUT HOW TO SEND THE LETTER.
Oh good, it sounds like you've been making some progress while I was posting. Don't just sit around waiting to see if he writes your sis, though. Keep hunting, keep brainstorming. This is a vital first step, and you will get nowhere (nor will your BH) until it's done.
I also noticed that as soon as you began to take concrete action, the tone of your posts changed, and became less foggy and defensive, at least for now. That's also a good thing. Right actions lead to right feelings.
Oh good, it sounds like you've been making some progress while I was posting. Don't just sit around waiting to see if he writes your sis, though. Keep hunting, keep brainstorming. This is a vital first step, and you will get nowhere (nor will your BH) until it's done.
I also noticed that as soon as you began to take concrete action, the tone of your posts changed, and became less foggy and defensive, at least for now. That's also a good thing. Right actions lead to right feelings.
So true! Keep on brainstorming show your BH that you are serious and the healing can begin. Also, he might not be an angry individual to begin with but your affair crumbled that wall. He may need to take some anger management classes. I was like him anytime, I find out some bad news about my WW and her POSOM I would get angry and take it out on whoever was in proximity. Anger managment classes will help and also can be a way to show you that he is serious about protecting your feelings. There's a thread here about anger managment too. He should read it.
Have a friend, or better yet your pastor, call OM on his cell phone and say you need to send him a letter.
Very good suggestion. I was just thinking your husband could text him, posing as you, asking for his address so you could send him a letter.
I will suggest that to him, he can block the number so the OM does not get the new number, or BS cell number. I did do a reverse address look up where you put in the phone number and you get an address - nothing came back on that, I will try whitepages.ca
You need to call the police the next time your husband touches you. He clearly has anger problems and is not safe to recover with until he gets help from his anger.
Please view the material my wife links to her in thread about what to do about an angry husband. As a former angry husband, I implore you.
mrs_cen, are you all right this morning? I have asked your husband if you were out on the street last night, but I'm not sure when he'll be able to answer.
Dr. Harley takes the position that angry outbursts are not to be tolerated in marriage. We back that up here on the forum! If you guys are going to recover, he is going to need to learn to completely eliminate angry outbursts. You do not have to put up with this kind of behavior.
I have encouraged your husband to contact Dr. Harley and see about one or both of you talking to Dr. Harley on his radio program. It's free, and very helpful.
I encourage you to do the same! And if for some reason RNR2013 doesn't do it, I encourage you to go forward and do it without him.
There are a lot of issues and obstacles here that you guys need to work through if you are going to recover. Not just your infidelity, but also his love busters. Dr. Harley takes the position that a marriage (even a recovered marriage after an affair) needs to be a relationship of equals, with decisions made jointly, and no demands, disrespect, or angry outbursts. He classifies these three things (demands, disrespect, and angry outbursts) as abuse and takes the position that they should not be tolerated.
FYI, my wife asked me to leave our home last year because of my continuing angry outbursts. It turns out that was very much a part of the permanent solution! (I am back now, and haven't had an angry outburst in nearly a year.)
Hi Markos/Prisca - I am alright - thank you. I did not sleep on the street. I have read Prisca's link on "Angry Husbands" and am looking into some of the other books suggested. I will look into speaking with Dr. Harley on his program as well.
We (BS) and I have come to the decision that he WILL leave the rigs, a city job DOES pay less BUT we both realize in order to repair our marriage and have a healthy future it needs to be done.
I have completed the NC letter to OM and DID get the address! I will continue to do what I have to do - following Dr. H's steps in the book. I'm now looking at starting the questionnaires that are at the end.
That is very good to hear. Are you mailing the NC letter today?
Which book are you looking at? I think you two would benefit from getting Lovebusters and going through it together, first. There is a workbook that goes along with it called Five Steps to Romantic Love.
After you have done that, go through His Needs, Her Needs.
If you can afford it, I highly recommend the Online Program. You will have a coach to guide you through the lessons, as well as access to Dr. Harley on the private forum. It is possible to work through the program on your own, but if you find yourself having trouble doing so, this is a GREAT way to be made accountable.
The "Lovebusters" was the one I was most interested in - and seems to be the one you guys are suggesting as well.
The NC letter WILL be mailed today, we will post it together. He recognizes that what happened last night was NOT ok, and it can't and will not ever happen again.
One thing, I did not mention was during last night's "fiasco" between BS and I, he had asked for the NC letter, which was already addressed and ready (just needed him to look it over and be comfortable with the wording) he ripped it up. Today, he posted on being upset, because I had not brought up mailing it, he felt I "didn't really want to send it". Long story short, I re-wrote it a second time, addressed it, put a stamp on it, and am waiting for him to verify so we can post it tonight. I will not let this step be skipped, though I'm feeling very angry tonight (over last night) yet at the same time guilty (if I'd never have had the A, last night wouldn't have happened).
It makes sense to be hurt by his angry outburst. It is going to be very important for him to completely eliminate those, going forward.
It is disrespectful for him to judge you for not bringing it up or to psychoanalyze your motives. You guys are going to need to go through Love Busters (the book) and follow Dr. Harley's plan to eliminate those. Hopefully he is already starting to think about how to be more respectful.
Other than that, just get it done. Give him a copy of the letter and the info he needs; keep the discussion to a minimum and AT ALL COSTS avoid fighting. Don't start a fight over who did or didn't bring up the letter, or who should have done this or that, or whatever. You guys are a team; just do it.
Thanks Markos, I've copied the link and will have a listen on my own today at lunch, than tonight when we are both home, talk with H, about having a listen.
I did Brain - Ty. Here are the ones I have so far. 1. I must be totally honest with you about everything 2. I must answer every question you have fully and truthfully 3. I must do everything in my power to prove you are who I want to be with 4. I must prove myself to you 5. I must feel your pain 6. I need to completely understand the devastation I have cause you 7. I must accept total responsibility for my actions 8. I must stop all contact with OM & not try to protect him 9. I must reassure you it's ok to ask any and all questions 10. I must recognize when your struggling or experiencing a trigger and comfort you 11. I must re-enforce to you, that you are NOT responsible 12. I must work on rebuilding the trust I have taken. No secrets, no privacy.
This list concerns me. It is mainly a list of promises of how you will feel. Extraordinary Precautions is not repentance. Extraordinary Precautions are boundaries to prevent another affair. Extraordinary precautions are behavior based, not feeling based.
1. I mustwill be totally honest with you about everything 2. I must answer every question you have fully and truthfullywill sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully. 3. I must do everything in my power to prove you are who I want to be withI will enter into a program of recovery with you - Marriage Builders. I will create a romantic relationship with that is far better than what we had before my affair. 4. I must prove myself to you 5. I must feel your pain 6. I need to completely understand the devastation I have cause you 7. I must accept total responsibility for my actions 8. I must stop all contact with OM & not try to protect him. I will have No Contact with him for life 9. I must reassure you it's ok to ask any and all questions 10. I must recognize when your struggling or experiencing a trigger and comfort you 11. I must re-enforce to you, that you are NOT responsible 12. I must work on rebuilding the trust I have taken. No secrets, no privacy.will commit to total transparency. 13. I will commit to never spending the night apart again. 14. I will no longer have male friends 15. I will never join another social networking site. 16. I will provide my spouse a daily schedule of all appointments and contact information. 17. Anytime I have the thought, �I don�t want my spouse to know about��.�, I will call my spouse immediately and tell them my thoughts.
. I will sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully.
Dr. Harley recommends that a couple do this ONCE. Get all the info out about the affair in one seating. Then never, ever bring up the affair again. He can't talk about it anymore, and you can't either.
This list concerns me. It is mainly a list of promises of how you will feel. Extraordinary Precautions is not repentance. Extraordinary Precautions are boundaries to prevent another affair. Extraordinary precautions are behavior based, not feeling based.
1. I mustwill be totally honest with you about everything 2. I must answer every question you have fully and truthfullywill sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully. 3. I must do everything in my power to prove you are who I want to be withI will enter into a program of recovery with you - Marriage Builders. I will create a romantic relationship with that is far better than what we had before my affair. 4. I must prove myself to you 5. I must feel your pain 6. I need to completely understand the devastation I have cause you 7. I must accept total responsibility for my actions 8. I must stop all contact with OM & not try to protect him. I will have No Contact with him for life 9. I must reassure you it's ok to ask any and all questions 10. I must recognize when your struggling or experiencing a trigger and comfort you 11. I must re-enforce to you, that you are NOT responsible 12. I must work on rebuilding the trust I have taken. No secrets, no privacy.will commit to total transparency. 13. I will commit to never spending the night apart again. 14. I will no longer have male friends 15. I will never join another social networking site. 16. I will provide my spouse a daily schedule of all appointments and contact information. 17. Anytime I have the thought, �I don�t want my spouse to know about��.�, I will call my spouse immediately and tell them my thoughts.
Prisca, I see the difference between what I wrote and how you fixed it. I guess I didn't quite "get it", I've copied the "new list" and will go over it with BS to get his thoughts . Thanks.
. I will sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully.
Dr. Harley recommends that a couple do this ONCE. Get all the info out about the affair in one seating. Then never, ever bring up the affair again. He can't talk about it anymore, and you can't either.
Talking with BS now, he wonders what happens if he had another question regarding the A, in a month - he doesn't always have questions at one time??
That will greatly depend on what questions he wants to ask. Dr. Harley says to get out the information about how the affair happened, what methods were used for contact during the affair, where did the affairees meet, who was involved, etc. All of this is information that is used to prevent a future affair. Example: if affairees contacted on Facebook, eliminate Facebook.
Sometimes down the road a betrayed spouse gets mired into wanting to bring the affair up again, and this is almost always a bad idea. They typically want to know something like "Were you really in love?" or whatever. The answer is yes, the answer is unpleasant, and the discussion is not helpful for recovery, according to Dr. Harley.
If there's really a piece of information he wants to know down the road, I would strongly advise him to contact Dr. Harley directly and ask his advice and follow it as to whether it is a good idea or not. This is too important to mess up.
. I will sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully.
Dr. Harley recommends that a couple do this ONCE. Get all the info out about the affair in one seating. Then never, ever bring up the affair again. He can't talk about it anymore, and you can't either.
Talking with BS now, he wonders what happens if he had another question regarding the A, in a month - he doesn't always have questions at one time??
Ah yes, one of the problems I have with the program. As a BS, it is hard not to ask questions about something that is on your mind on a daily basis.
I would tell RNR that he needs to ask himself if the answer to the question is important to bring up or if its just to satisfy a curiosity. If its not, then stifle it. If it is important, then he needs to bring it up. However, it should not be done in a disrespectful way.
However, it is very important for you, Mrs. Cen, to tell him everything now so that there are not gaping holes in the puzzle that he will be turning over in his head for years to come. Be honest with everything he asks, ok?
I would tell RNR that he needs to ask himself if the answer to the question is important to bring up or if its just to satisfy a curiosity. If its not, then stifle it. If it is important, then he needs to bring it up. However, it should not be done in a disrespectful way.
The problem with this is that every question he comes up with will seem important to him.
And if he brings it up, it is very likely to set their recovery back to square one.
The rule is to talk about it all in one seating. And then to never talk about it again.
If he comes up with something he'd like to ask later, he'd be better to write Dr. Harley and ask him about it first. Or perhaps post it here on his own thread. But bringing it up with her just because he feels it's important is a recipe for disaster.
Mrs.Cen. We have a couple on this board where the wife was told to tell her husband every time she remembered something about the affair. And every time a little detail came to her mind, she would tell him. It kept both of them dwelling on the affair for 3 years. They should be very far along into recovery by now, but they are just now beginning to look at it.
You will not be able to recover if the affair keeps being brought up.
You make a very good point Prisca. It really is up to the BS, though, what is important and what is not. If RNR questions if its important, he should feel free to post on his thread and we can help him.
I have given my all - he's now called our local police department to have me "removed" from "our" apartment. Until he has acknowledged and received help for his anger, I feel I'm not going to be "ok" here - the rollar coaster of his threats is taking is tole.
His anger is his to deal with. He claims you are still lying. Obviously you both can't be right. Either you are lying or he is mistaken. If you are telling the truth, and he is mistaken about something that triggers him it doesn't change the fact that it triggers him. If he sees a jacket that brings all of the emotion back, even if you haven't worn it in a year, is the jacket more important than his feelings?
His anger is a major issue here, but it seems that neither of you are handling your conversations well.
I am not going to assume you are lying, but if you are you should understand that lying about the affair does almost as much damage as the affair. I remember reading on the forum that more couples get divorced over the lies than the affair itself. If you are lying then I recommend that you stop, appologize, and tell him the truth. It hurts to do so, but it doesn't hurt nearly as bad as the affair or continued lies.
If you are telling the truth then you need to convince him. Take a polygraph. lie about nothing. If you tell the truth about everything and he catches you in the tiniest lie about what you had for breakfaast then all trust will be lost again.
I have given my all - he's now called our local police department to have me "removed" from "our" apartment. Until he has acknowledged and received help for his anger, I feel I'm not going to be "ok" here - the rollar coaster of his threats is taking is tole.
You are right, you are not safe with an angry husband. And he shouldn't be making threats. And you should very likely not remain in the home with him if he cannot end his anger. End. Not control. End.
You both have the right to feel safe in the marriage.
I have given my all - he's now called our local police department to have me "removed" from "our" apartment. Until he has acknowledged and received help for his anger, I feel I'm not going to be "ok" here - the rollar coaster of his threats is taking is tole.
We all agree that RNR needs to control his anger. Are you controlling yours? Are you having AO or DJ's towards him? Are you being patient with him? In perspective, you betrayed him. Are you being sensitive to his needs to help him heal? It took me weeks to get all of thin information I needed about the affair. His mind is realing with the shock of this and he needs time to wrap his brain around what happened. He is trying to put a puzzle together without a picture and half of the pieces missing. He may not even know what he wants to know yet. Be patient.
No this does not excuse his anger, or walking away. That used to infuriate my wife. But using radical honesty you can tell him if it makes you angry and suggest another way he can end a conversation that is making him feel unsafe without upsetting you.
mrs_cen, I am just now catching up - Dr. Harley's position is that angry outbursts are not to be tolerated in marriage, and if he is not willing to commit to no angry outbursts for any reason (even mistakes on your part), you probably do need to separate from him.
Although an affair is definitely the most traumatic thing one human being can do to another, Dr. Harley won't justify angry outbursts or spouses punishing spouses at all.
I see a very dangerous suggestion here that you be patient with anger on your husband's part. I would definitely recommend a patient separation. But it is incorrect to think that you should try to meet your husband's needs or help him heal in the face of your husband's angry outbursts.
Has he demonstrated a willingness to take anger management classes? You should bring this up to him. Personally I believe the outbursts are mutual and you should attend together. Wouldn't hurt, also do you own Lovebusters? Are you reading it together?
His feelings as to the events of the last few days are all posted in his thread - including his thoughts on anger - (I won't speak on his behalf) I (we) have not got "Love Buster) yet, I've just myself finished reading SAA, I'm unsure if my BS has finished or not. It was another book suggested by some other members and was already on my list to get, once finished SAA (which is now)
You can tell him that you are willing to give him Just Compensation by building a romantic relationship with him that was better than the marriage you had before the affair.
But you cannot do that if he is going to abuse you. And you will not tolerate his AOs.
I see a very dangerous suggestion here that you be patient with anger on your husband's part
Markos I hope that you are not getting that from my post. Reading both threads it seems that his anger is coming from her impatience. From her setting the timeline or lying. that could be true or false. But if his anger is coming from impatience, then by her being patient with his pain then his anger will be less.
Yes he does need anger management and conflict resolution classes. But this is a two way street and mrs Cen also needs to clean up her side of the fence.
You can tell him that you are willing to give him Just Compensation by building a romantic relationship with him that was better than the marriage you had before the affair.
But you cannot do that if he is going to abuse you. And you will not tolerate his AOs.
Yes, I agree - though as I said he's posted on his thoughts regarding his anger and the reasons behind them. I will say that I've noticed him trying to control and refrain from AO, I think we both need to learn the correct techniques to handle them when we see them coming. I must continue to be diligent I'm my EP's for him, as I know that a lot o his anger comes from insecurities he's still (obviously) feeling.
I see a very dangerous suggestion here that you be patient with anger on your husband's part
Markos I hope that you are not getting that from my post.
I want to make sure that she doesn't get any such impression.
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Reading both threads it seems that his anger is coming from her impatience.
There are reasons for angry outbursts, but no excuses. RNR clearly has an anger problem, and until he is ready to eliminate it, he is not ready for recovery, and mrs_cen needs to be protected from him.
He should eliminate angry outbursts whether she is patient or not. He's already assaulted her and thrown her out of the house once.
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Yes he does need anger management and conflict resolution classes. But this is a two way street
No it isn't, actually. He needs to deal with his own anger and not have any excuse to think of her as the cause of it.
The correct technique for you to handle them is to leave the room and refuse to engage with him when he is angry. If he follows you, tell him "I'm not going to talk about this right now." If he persists, take the kids and leave he house.
Do not engage. He can talk to you when he is ready to do so calmly.
I see a very dangerous suggestion here that you be patient with anger on your husband's part
Markos I hope that you are not getting that from my post. Reading both threads it seems that his anger is coming from her impatience. From her setting the timeline or lying. that could be true or false. But if his anger is coming from impatience, then by her being patient with his pain then his anger will be less.
Yes he does need anger management and conflict resolution classes. But this is a two way street and mrs Cen also needs to clean up her side of the fence.
I'm not 100% sure about the direction it's coming from. I believe he still has questions regarding the timeline and hopefully we will be able to address them soon. I agree I need to do my part and "clean up my side". All I know is that I love him and I will do whatever needs to be done for however long it needs to be done to have the marriage we both want.
I suggest that she look him right in the eye and say to him, "Listen Buster, do you love me? Do you want me to love you? Do you want to spend the rest of your life with me? If the answers to any of those questions is 'yes' you sure are going about it the wrong way. You are not doing things that I admire, you're doing things that I find disgusting!"
What if he says, "Fine, then lets just get a divorce and end it all."
To that I would say, "It's up to you. I married you for life, but if you want a divorce, it's your call. If you want to be in a love relationship with me, however, you're going to have to treat me much better than you have been treating me. You must never again bring up my affair, and if you are upset with me, you will have to treat me with respect until we can solve the problem. If you are upset with our sexual relationship, I want us to discuss it as adults and solve it with mutual respect. I refuse to be treated like this, especially by the man I love."
Are you being sensitive to his needs to help him heal?
If he wants his needs to be met, he is going to need to eliminate his AOs. Read this from Dr. Harley:
Originally Posted by Dr. Harley
Angry Outbursts are the final and most inappropriate form of abuse and control. As long as either spouse can�t control their anger, their marriage has little hope of improving or being fulfilling. It�s not only an ineffective way to overcome problems, but it is also very dangerous. There are many cases every year of people who killed or maimed their spouse in a fit of rage, where they never thought they would do such a thing. I usually recommend that overcoming angry outbursts, and all other forms of abuse and control (demands and disrespectful judgments) be eliminated before trying to resolve conflicts, or even trying to meet emotional needs. Your sincere effort to please a controlling and abusive husband puts you in a dangerous position both emotionally and physically. So until your husband learns to control his temper, I wouldn�t even consider trying to meet his emotional needs.
I'm not 100% sure about the direction it's coming from. I believe he still has questions regarding the timeline and hopefully we will be able to address them soon. I agree I need to do my part and "clean up my side". All I know is that I love him and I will do whatever needs to be done for however long it needs to be done to have the marriage we both want.
Keep this in mind from Dr. Harley:
Originally Posted by Dr. Harley
Angry Outbursts are the final and most inappropriate form of abuse and control. As long as either spouse can�t control their anger, their marriage has little hope of improving or being fulfilling. It�s not only an ineffective way to overcome problems, but it is also very dangerous. There are many cases every year of people who killed or maimed their spouse in a fit of rage, where they never thought they would do such a thing. I usually recommend that overcoming angry outbursts, and all other forms of abuse and control (demands and disrespectful judgments) be eliminated before trying to resolve conflicts, or even trying to meet emotional needs. Your sincere effort to please a controlling and abusive husband puts you in a dangerous position both emotionally and physically. So until your husband learns to control his temper, I wouldn�t even consider trying to meet his emotional needs.
You can tell him that you are willing to give him Just Compensation by building a romantic relationship with him that was better than the marriage you had before the affair. But you cannot do that if he is going to abuse you.
All true.
Equally true is the fact that you cannot "tell him" anything if he does not trust your words. Discounting all the "he said/she said" about who in recent days said what, to whom, when, and in what context, what fairly LEAPS off his pages is that he believes he does not have the full story about the past, doubts your commitment in the present, and cannot project trust into your future.
Whether he blows up like the early NG, walks away like the later NG, or endures like the NG-Gandhi that will never be, your lack of trustworthiness in his eyes is PROBLEM NUMBER 1.
You can tell him that you are willing to give him Just Compensation by building a romantic relationship with him that was better than the marriage you had before the affair. But you cannot do that if he is going to abuse you.
All true.
Equally true is the fact that you cannot "tell him" anything if he does not trust your words. Discounting all the "he said/she said" about who in recent days said what, to whom, when, and in what context, what fairly LEAPS off his pages is that he believes he does not have the full story about the past, doubts your commitment in the present, and cannot project trust into your future.
Whether he blows up like the early NG, walks away like the later NG, or endures like the NG-Gandhi that will never be, your lack of trustworthiness in his eyes is PROBLEM NUMBER 1.
Nothing will move without that being repaired.
NG, I couldn't agree more. He has angry outbursts, this is true. According to him he walked away because she was having an AO towards him. Thus is all he said she said.
I get the feeling that alot of the people here have just stopped paying attention to RNR once he threw her out of the house (which there is no excuse for) We need to be helping BOTH Mrs Cen and RNR. And not forget that RNR was victim and is still hurting. Just as he MUST work on his anger, Mrs Cen also needs to work on her anger/impatience and if she finds she does something that makes him angry then stop since it is a love buster.
a little devil's advocate here but i do believe it's a two way street. from the other thread, i get the impression that Mrs. Cen gets pretty irritable when her BH makes requests (like dump the jacket).
i always find it interesting when a wayward gets the board's sympathy and support over the betrayed. you can disagree.
i too had an affair, mrs. cen. it took awhile for me to really see and understand the devastation my affair caused and i too was impatient while my BH got his head around it.
i think you could use some serious self reflection in terms of how he must feel about all of this. he is totally destroyed by your actions. i get the feeling you just don't get it and if you could, you might have more compassion.
a little devil's advocate here but i do believe it's a two way street. from the other thread, i get the impression that Mrs. Cen gets pretty irritable when her BH makes requests (like dump the jacket).
i always find it interesting when a wayward gets the board's sympathy and support over the betrayed. you can disagree.
i too had an affair, mrs. cen. it took awhile for me to really see and understand the devastation my affair caused and i too was impatient while my BH got his head around it.
i think you could use some serious self reflection in terms of how he must feel about all of this. he is totally destroyed by your actions. i get the feeling you just don't get it and if you could, you might have more compassion.
I'm not sure if you've read my entire thread or not - at any rate "sympathy" from the board is far from what I've got - in fact Prisca has been one of the hardest on me. Perhaps your not aware o the last few days - perhaps you are. One thing I will say is everything that my BS has said upset him with unpleasant memories has been thrown out without question and without anger. Self-reflection is a big part of healing, and I am doing it.
remember that while the affair was fun and intoxicating for you, your BH gets NONE of the pleasure and all of the fallout from the affair.
some of the posters on your threads are AO experts so listen up. it's really tough to get a feeling for what's really happening but i imagine you're looking more disinterested in healing this than you realize.
Hey, helpfordad Been awhile since you've been around. How would you feel about posting on your thread and telling us how eliminating your AOs is coming along, and if you've signed up for the online program yet?
The way that is repaired is through Just Compensation.
How can I state this more clearly?
HE DOES NOT VALUE THE "JUST COMPENSATION" BEING OFFERED BECAUSE HE DOUBTS HER SINCERITY!
First off, could you not shout in response to my wife? As you know, I traumatized her for years through shouting and angry outbursts. So even an internet shout is pretty inappropriate.
Second of all, we know what Dr. Harley would say in this situation, because he said it to Prisca:
Do I have to listen to complaints when they are full of lovebusters? We are having a conflict over UA time, and Markos is accusing me of not wanting to spend time with him. He had an AO and made threats over it, telling me he deserves better than me and reminding me of how much I tortured him last year, and made accusations that I'm not willing to work the MB program. He made threats along the lines of "I'm not going to live like this," which to me sounded like "straighten up or I'm leaving you."
It is not true that I do not want to spend time with him. I have thrown myself into UA time, and have enjoyed the time we have together.
He is refusing to talk to me unless I listen to these complaints of his. His tone has been very demanding and harsh all morning, and he refuses to listen to how he has lovebusted me. I'm willing to try to work with him to make UA time better for him, but I don't like the way he is treating me. Do I have to listen to his complaints when he is treating me like this?
Originally Posted by Dr. Harley
Prisca:
How is Markos doing with his anger management program? A point we often make is that if angry outbursts are not eliminated from a marriage, no other problems can be solved.
Best wishes, Willard F. Harley, Jr.
Notice how the good doctor redirected immediately to the real problem. There was NOTHING Prisca could do if my angry outbursts were tolerated. And the same is true, here.
There is no need to get all psychobabbly about his feelings of whether he values just compensation or doubts her sincerity or whatever. He needs to sit down in a room by himself and ask if he really wants his marriage or not. If he does, then he needs to get with the program. Given that he assaulted her last week, he is going to need to learn to keep his temper or she should not live with him. She certainly shouldn't try to prove her sincerity in the face of angry outbursts! That'd be about the same as trying to meet the emotional needs of a falling down drunk. He'd be a black hole she could never please.
If he decides he doesn't want his marriage, we'd certainly support him in that. That is his right. There may have been more damage done here than can be overcome. But that is his decision to make.
You can tell him that you are willing to give him Just Compensation by building a romantic relationship with him that was better than the marriage you had before the affair. But you cannot do that if he is going to abuse you.
All true.
Equally true is the fact that you cannot "tell him" anything if he does not trust your words. Discounting all the "he said/she said" about who in recent days said what, to whom, when, and in what context, what fairly LEAPS off his pages is that he believes he does not have the full story about the past, doubts your commitment in the present, and cannot project trust into your future.
Whether he blows up like the early NG, walks away like the later NG, or endures like the NG-Gandhi that will never be, your lack of trustworthiness in his eyes is PROBLEM NUMBER 1.
Nothing will move without that being repaired.
It will not and should not be repaired because it was TOO much trust that led to the problem in the first place. The solution to that is to NOT TRUST by eliminating the conditions that allowed her to have an affair.
However, even that is a non starter if he won't get his angry outbursts under control. This is all hopeless unless he gets himself under control. Like DR HARLEY has stated, the FIRST thing that has to be resolved are angry outbursts when present. He is not safe otherwise.
I'm not 100% sure about the direction it's coming from. I believe he still has questions regarding the timeline and hopefully we will be able to address them soon. I agree I need to do my part and "clean up my side". All I know is that I love him and I will do whatever needs to be done for however long it needs to be done to have the marriage we both want.
Mrscen, from what your husband described in his thread this morning, YOU were the one who had an angry outburst when you marched in and demanded to hear his questions right now. Are you kidding me? While he is not entitled to have AOs, neither are you. You are not in any position to demand anything.
Everything we have written to him about AOs applies to you too. If you have not given him a timeline of the full facts, I would get this written out. Let him read it alone and WRITE out any remaining questions. Don't discuss it in person.
Get this done on HIS timetable, not yours. (As LNG as it is done soon)
Of course he doesn't trust her, NG. Who disputes that? And he shouldn't. Recovery doesn't require trust on his part. It requires Just Compensation on her part, which she is well on her way to providing -- NC letter sent, Facebook shutdown, transparency established, EPs written, a willingness to enter into a program of recovery to create a romantic relationship.
mrs_cen, there is a very important Marriage Builders rule that needs to be followed:
If your spouse breaks the rules, don't break the rules in response.
For example, if your spouse has an angry outburst, don't have an angry outburst in response.
Or, if your spouse needs to do something, don't resort to love busters about it. For example, we stayed on you hard here about getting that no contact letter written and sent. But hopefully your husband wasn't there having angry outbursts at you about it, and if so, I hope you know now that you should not put up with it.
In the same way, he should not put with angry outbursts from you, either.
You guys have got to stop fighting, or it is going to be the end of your marriage.
Suggestion: if you are having trouble with your husband about something, post here first and get some pointers how to talk about it to make sure that whatever you do is not something that is done in a disrespect, demanding, or angry way!
I get the feeling that alot of the people here have just stopped paying attention to RNR once he threw her out of the house (which there is no excuse for) We need to be helping BOTH Mrs Cen and RNR. And not forget that RNR was victim and is still hurting. Just as he MUST work on his anger, Mrs Cen also needs to work on her anger/impatience and if she finds she does something that makes him angry then stop since it is a love buster.
I want to speak to this. First off, by taking a no tolerance position on angry outbursts, we ARE helping both mrs_cen and RNR. They both had an angry outburst. This has got to stop, or there will not be a marriage to save.
So now not only do we have a marriage with a betrayed spouse victim, we have a marriage where both husband and wife are victims of each other's abuse. There's only one clear standard here: abuse is not to be tolerated in marriage, for any reason. Nobody gets the right to become demanding, disrespectful, or angry.
I had told BS, that he needed to leave the house - we had been arguing again. BS, said no, he was not going to leave the house, I threatened to call them and have him charged - he decided to call them himself - which he did, then tried to "cancel" the call (which you can not do) so they came. They asked if I DID want him arrested and charged, I declined.
There seems to be so many thoughts, opinions, speculations even, that I have NO idea what we (RNR and I) need to do next.
Thus far, I've concluded that he needs to get his AO's under control, that I need to get mine (AO) under control, that fighting will get us no where, that actions (on both sides) speak louder than words. I (we) have read the first suggest book SAA, that we need to get the next suggested book "Love Busters" but where do we start? What's next?
You both need to START the program with Lovebusters and its workbook, 5 steps to romantic love. That is the next step. These lovebusters MUST be eliminated. Order the books today.
From Wed - when he threw me out (in Canada, you have two weeks to decide, unless an officer sees your situation as life threatening and in that case the offender is charged immediately and consent is not needed)
Dr. Harley says that you should file a criminal complaint when your spouse is physically abusive. You should've filed one for wednesday, especially if he left bruises. Did you?
Was he violent when you threatened to call the cops?
If you have not given him a timeline of the full facts, I would get this written out. Let him read it alone and WRITE out any remaining questions. Don't discuss it in person.
Get this done on HIS timetable, not yours. (As LNG as it is done soon)
If you have not given him a timeline of the full facts, I would get this written out. Let him read it alone and WRITE out any remaining questions. Don't discuss it in person.
Get this done on HIS timetable, not yours. (As LNG as it is done soon)
mrs_cen, I am really worried that with all of the fighting, you guys are not going to be able to pull this off without professional help. Unless the demands, disrespect, and angry outbursts can completely be eliminated, there is not much hope. It sounds like every time somebody makes a demand, there is an escalating response. You already have bruises on you. I am worried you are going to wind up in the hospital.
Did you guys say you were going to email Dr. Harley? I would strongly suggest it.
mrs_cen, I am really worried that with all of the fighting, you guys are not going to be able to pull this off without professional help. Unless the demands, disrespect, and angry outbursts can completely be eliminated, there is not much hope. It sounds like every time somebody makes a demand, there is an escalating response. You already have bruises on you. I am worried you are going to wind up in the hospital.
Did you guys say you were going to email Dr. Harley? I would strongly suggest it.
Are you being fully transparent with your husband?
Yep. My question too.
What EP's have you both put in place to start R? Do you plan to use MB's?
If I were your H, no way would I even start to consider R with you unless there was a mutual decision that MB rules are in place so this would never happen again.
There seems to be a lot of focus on your H's AO's..rightfully so.
He seems to be working on his LB's and trying to fulfill your EN's.
However, what are you doing to change YOU? If I were he, I would be very uncomforable.
Not wanting him to see your cell phone? Really? okay. This is not a good start.
mrs_cen, apparently there are some times you are acting upset with your husband when he looks at your cellphone or whatever. Don't do that! Invite him to look at such things any time. This is what it means to be fully transparent.
There seems to be so many thoughts, opinions, speculations even, that I have NO idea what we (RNR and I) need to do next.
Thus far, I've concluded that he needs to get his AO's under control, that I need to get mine (AO) under control, that fighting will get us no where, that actions (on both sides) speak louder than words. I (we) have read the first suggest book SAA, that we need to get the next suggested book "Love Busters" but where do we start? What's next?
Also while you both are working on your Love Busters.
Did you you answer ALL his questions about the affair?
Did you give him your list of EPs that you were working on?
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Yes, I am being TOTALY transparent with him, my phone was switched under his plan, so that at any time he has access to any and all incoming/outgoing texts and phone calls. I have ALWAYS let him see the phone, it's not hidden. He has not given me a list of questions yet, so I e not answered, only the questions he's verbally asked - those I HAVE answered. My EP's are posted in this thread, a few pages back and I'm continuing to follow and complete them. I need to work on my own AO, he's pointed out a few to me last night.
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe - he, pointed this out to me last night - I've said I will not do it anymore, he sees it as an obvious LB. I saw you posted about spyware for my phone on RNR's link - I think that would be a good idea, can you just go to a BestBUy?
I saw you posted about spyware for my phone on RNR's link - I think that would be a good idea, can you just go to a BestBUy?
He needs to take care of that himself. You need to just let him.
Whenever he asks to see your phone, let him. No emotion. Just hand it over and let him see it. He cannot handle ANYTHING that looks like you are hiding something. Go out of your way to be transparent.
I'm not - usually it's just games - Tetris/Candy crush. When I do text it's to him or my sister - and I leave the text history, so he knows or can see that nothing's been deleted.
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe - he, pointed this out to me last night - I've said I will not do it anymore, he sees it as an obvious LB.
Prisca didn't ask about anger. She asked why you seem upset.
I don't get it -- if you are being "totally transparent" and there is no issue here, why would you be agitated? Do you not realize that he is going to be distrustful of almost everything that you do for a while?
My sister and her H have never had affairs and they can't text anyone without the other coming and looking and they have no problem with that.
Give him your phone as soon as he walks in the door from work. Tell him you are committed to transparency, and ask him to put any kind of spyware on your phone and computer that he needs to. Do so without emotion -- no agitation or arguing or acting like this is something you are being forced to do. He can give you your phone back when he is done. DO NOT DEMAND IT. OFFER IT.If he responds with a disrespectful judgement or angry outbursts, keep your mouth shut, leave the phone, and leave the room.
Do not push him to give it back to you. Wait patiently.
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe -
Have you actually dared to say "who are you, the phone police?" to your H, who has just discovered your affair? Have you actually dared to say that in the last few days, despite having read about the devastation of affairs on here?
Why on earth would you speak in that manner to the man you betrayed, if that's true?
Give him your phone as soon as he walks in the door from work. Tell him you are committed to transparency, and ask him to put any kind of spyware on your phone and computer that he needs to. Do so without emotion -- no agitation or arguing or acting like this is something you are being forced to do. He can give you your phone back when he is done. DO NOT DEMAND IT. OFFER IT.If he responds with a disrespectful judgement or angry outbursts, keep your mouth shut, leave the phone, and leave the room.
Do not push him to give it back to you. Wait patiently.
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe -
Have you actually dared to say "who are you, the phone police?" to your H, who has just discovered your affair? Have you actually dared to say that in the last few days, despite having read about the devastation of affairs on here?
Why on earth would you speak in that manner to the man you betrayed, if that's true?
Yes, Sugarcane I did say that - and my BS pointed it out and called me on it. I realized what I did, and committed to never doing it again - and also following Prisca's suggestions as well.
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe -
Have you actually dared to say "who are you, the phone police?" to your H, who has just discovered your affair? Have you actually dared to say that in the last few days, despite having read about the devastation of affairs on here?
Why on earth would you speak in that manner to the man you betrayed, if that's true?
Yes, Sugarcane I did say that - and my BS pointed it out and called me on it. I realized what I did, and committed to never doing it again - and also following Prisca's suggestions as well.
Good.
Sarcasm is a disrespectful judgment, so you'll have to eliminate it in the way you talk to your husband.
Prisca and I were lovers of fine sarcasm, so this was particularly difficult for us. But it was well worth it! Nowadays we know how to flirt all the time without being sarcastic or disrespectful to each other, and that is MUCH more fun!
I don't know, I don't see it as anger - agitated maybe -
Have you actually dared to say "who are you, the phone police?" to your H, who has just discovered your affair? Have you actually dared to say that in the last few days, despite having read about the devastation of affairs on here?
Why on earth would you speak in that manner to the man you betrayed, if that's true?
Yes, Sugarcane I did say that - and my BS pointed it out and called me on it. I realized what I did, and committed to never doing it again - and also following Prisca's suggestions as well.
I would take it a step further. I have noticed on this thread several times that you are very defensive-- and I foresee a lot of problems if you don't drop the attitude when you are questioned about things -- because you BH is going to question EVERYTHING you do for a while.
I would take it a step further. I have noticed on this thread several times that you are very defensive-- and I foresee a lot of problems if you don't drop the attitude when you are questioned about things -- because you BH is going to question EVERYTHING you do for a while.
This is the point I was hoping to get you to see. For the life of me, having been through this myself, I have never been able to undertand how a WS can watch their spouse crumble into a near breakdown on discovering their affair, and yet have the brass neck - to lack compassion and concern to such a degree - that they can mock and belittle them over their panic and fear of the affair continuing or reigniting.
Your only response here is that your BS called you on it and you stopped. There is no sense of humility or regret from you for having done that, whatsoever.
I would take it a step further. I have noticed on this thread several times that you are very defensive-- and I foresee a lot of problems if you don't drop the attitude when you are questioned about things -- because you BH is going to question EVERYTHING you do for a while.
This is the point I was hoping to get you to see. For the life of me, having been through this myself, I have never been able to undertand how a WS can watch their spouse crumble into a near breakdown on discovering their affair, and yet have the brass neck - to lack compassion and concern to such a degree - that they can mock and belittle them over their panic and fear of the affair continuing or reigniting.
Your only response here is that your BS called you on it and you stopped. There is no sense of humility or regret from you for having done that, whatsoever.
In the early part of my posting on the board, I was indeed very defensive - I felt for lack of a better word "attacked" - my BS, implored me to join this site, so that we could get help to save our marriage. I stayed with it. I believe that my defensiveness to the posts on not only my thread but my husbands as well as lessened significantly, I read, I respond, I answer the questions. It's certainly not my intent to come across any other way. As far as having "no sense of humility and or regret", I can only say that yes, of COURSE I have regret, deciding to not post that "I feel regret" etc, was what I thought I was supposed to do? One of my EP's was "to put my feelings aside and help you heal with yours", I believe someone posted already that my feelings are just emotion not actions. And since it was me that caused the potential break-up of my marriage, I thought I was doing the correct thing. Last night when he called me on it, I expressed to him my regret, I made a conscious decision and promise to him to not do it anymore - I chose to leave my feelings out of the original post. I don't know now what I'm suppose to say when answering questions here - if I respond with my feelings of regret etc it comes across as being "poor WW" but I I don't ten it comes across as "having no humility or regret"
This list concerns me. It is mainly a list of promises of how you will feel. Extraordinary Precautions is not repentance. Extraordinary Precautions are boundaries to prevent another affair. Extraordinary precautions are behavior based, not feeling based.
1. I mustwill be totally honest with you about everything 2. I must answer every question you have fully and truthfullywill sit down with you once to answer every question you have about my affair. I will answer fully and truthfully. 3. I must do everything in my power to prove you are who I want to be withI will enter into a program of recovery with you - Marriage Builders. I will create a romantic relationship with that is far better than what we had before my affair. 4. I must prove myself to you 5. I must feel your pain 6. I need to completely understand the devastation I have cause you 7. I must accept total responsibility for my actions 8. I must stop all contact with OM & not try to protect him. I will have No Contact with him for life 9. I must reassure you it's ok to ask any and all questions 10. I must recognize when your struggling or experiencing a trigger and comfort you 11. I must re-enforce to you, that you are NOT responsible 12. I must work on rebuilding the trust I have taken. No secrets, no privacy.will commit to total transparency. 13. I will commit to never spending the night apart again. 14. I will no longer have male friends 15. I will never join another social networking site. 16. I will provide my spouse a daily schedule of all appointments and contact information. 17. Anytime I have the thought, �I don�t want my spouse to know about��.�, I will call my spouse immediately and tell them my thoughts.
Prisca, I see the difference between what I wrote and how you fixed it. I guess I didn't quite "get it", I've copied the "new list" and will go over it with BS to get his thoughts . Thanks.
I believe that my defensiveness to the posts on not only my thread but my husbands as well as lessened significantly, I read, I respond, I answer the questions.
From what I see, I do believe your defensiveness has gotten better. Probably still present somewhat.
I will point out that, for the most part, in addition to reading, responding, answering questions, you have also been following the suggestions made to you! Certainly hoping this continues.
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As far as having "no sense of humility and or regret", I can only say that yes, of COURSE I have regret, deciding to not post that "I feel regret" etc, was what I thought I was supposed to do? One of my EP's was "to put my feelings aside and help you heal with yours", I believe someone posted already that my feelings are just emotion not actions. And since it was me that caused the potential break-up of my marriage, I thought I was doing the correct thing.
Yes, I think you are doing the right thing. I think the point the other posters were making was for you to be aware of the emotional impact that being sarcastic and disrespectful to your husband has on him when it comes down to something related to extraordinary precautions, like your telephone, or anywhere else where you need to be transparent. Plenty of people are probably appalled by the "phone police" comment.
Yes, I am being TOTALY transparent with him, my phone was switched under his plan, so that at any time he has access to any and all incoming/outgoing texts and phone calls. I have ALWAYS let him see the phone, it's not hidden. He has not given me a list of questions yet, so I e not answered, only the questions he's verbally asked - those I HAVE answered. My EP's are posted in this thread, a few pages back and I'm continuing to follow and complete them. I need to work on my own AO, he's pointed out a few to me last night.
Have you asked him to please sit down and ask you all his questions he has?
Then once you've answered ALL his questions completely and honestly then you both must never talk about the affair again and follow the steps for recovery.
Have you ordered Lovebusters and the workbook yet?
Not yet, we normally put it on credit but its maxed, we did figure out though that we can get a Kobo gift card and put it on that so we will do that tonight after work.
Yes, I am being TOTALY transparent with him, my phone was switched under his plan, so that at any time he has access to any and all incoming/outgoing texts and phone calls. I have ALWAYS let him see the phone, it's not hidden. He has not given me a list of questions yet, so I e not answered, only the questions he's verbally asked - those I HAVE answered. My EP's are posted in this thread, a few pages back and I'm continuing to follow and complete them. I need to work on my own AO, he's pointed out a few to me last night.
Have you asked him to please sit down and ask you all his questions he has?
Then once you've answered ALL his questions completely and honestly then you both must never talk about the affair again and follow the steps for recovery.
I did ask, he said he's not ready yet, that he doesn't have a list yet. I told him I'm ready at any time.
Have you ordered Lovebusters and the workbook yet?
Not yet, we normally put it on credit but its maxed, we did figure out though that we can get a Kobo gift card and put it on that so we will do that tonight after work.
It's $9.99 on Amazon.
I know it probably can't wait until this, but if you're a caller on the show they will send you a book for free.
Also, are you studying the POJA, RH (I mean REALLY focusing on these) and UA meeting EN's?
My total transparency is/are: -No privacy -Phone plan switched to allow for him to heck with our provider all in/out going calls/texts -No social media - FB has been blocked - spyware - he will look into it and has said it will make him feel a bit better - 24 hour schedule with all contact numbers at all times - I call when I get to work or am on the way, I call when I leave so he knows when to expect me - I go no where without him with me now ie. groceries, gym
In the early part of my posting on the board, I was indeed very defensive - I felt for lack of a better word "attacked" - my BS, implored me to join this site, so that we could get help to save our marriage. I stayed with it. I believe that my defensiveness to the posts on not only my thread but my husbands as well as lessened significantly, I read, I respond, I answer the questions. It's certainly not my intent to come across any other way. As far as having "no sense of humility and or regret", I can only say that yes, of COURSE I have regret, deciding to not post that "I feel regret" etc, was what I thought I was supposed to do? One of my EP's was "to put my feelings aside and help you heal with yours", I believe someone posted already that my feelings are just emotion not actions. And since it was me that caused the potential break-up of my marriage, I thought I was doing the correct thing. Last night when he called me on it, I expressed to him my regret, I made a conscious decision and promise to him to not do it anymore - I chose to leave my feelings out of the original post. I don't know now what I'm suppose to say when answering questions here - if I respond with my feelings of regret etc it comes across as being "poor WW" but I I don't ten it comes across as "having no humility or regret"
I can't tell from this response if you are really getting it or not.
Regardless of whatever the issue or story is, if you are AT ALL defensive when being questioned or when your BS is trying to examine any aspect of your life (email, phone, whatever) this is going to cause big problems in your R.
So I would not do that anymore (become agitated, defensive, etc), period.
Originally Posted by Dr Harley
So one of the most common clues of an affair is an unwillingness to let a spouse investigate all aspects of life.
There is another future issue in your marriage that should probably be addressed soon. It is one that casues the most stress in marraige.
Finances.
RNR has taken a lesser paying job and you said your credit is maxed. I suggest doing a financial program to help you curb spending, budget, and be happy with less. The Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey is good. I fear if you don't then the NEW stress of finances, combined with the stress about the affair may be too much.
There is another future issue in your marriage that should probably be addressed soon. It is one that casues the most stress in marraige.
Finances.
RNR has taken a lesser paying job and you said your credit is maxed. I suggest doing a financial program to help you curb spending, budget, and be happy with less. The Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey is good. I fear if you don't then the NEW stress of finances, combined with the stress about the affair may be too much.
I will put that program on the list of "to gets" as we'll. thank you.
Also, are you studying the POJA, RH (I mean REALLY focusing on these) and UA meeting EN's?
My total transparency is/are: -No privacy -Phone plan switched to allow for him to heck with our provider all in/out going calls/texts -No social media - FB has been blocked - spyware - he will look into it and has said it will make him feel a bit better - 24 hour schedule with all contact numbers at all times - I call when I get to work or am on the way, I call when I leave so he knows when to expect me - I go no where without him with me now ie. groceries, gym
Not a bad list. Really, it falls back into your H's hands as to if these things make him feel safe or not.
The idea of MB's is for you and your H to build and integrated lifestyle where there is no chance of either of you having a Secret Second Life.
A life in which there are No secrets at all in your M.
Some don't realize that "omission' is also lying. You know..leaving OUT important details of your life.
My FWW lied to my face many, many times...however most of her lying was by Omission where she just hid facts. Actually these were more damaging.
Also there is a distinction between Privacy and Secrecy. Privacy is going to the restroom with the door closed.
What you have done to your H is the worst possible thing you could ever do to someone you love. Dr Harley has counseled people who have experienced both A and losing a child and have said an A is more painful. Your husband should not trust you right now. It is up to YOU to prove to him you will always take his feelings into account with every decision you make and NEVER hurt him again.
Please, I implore you�if you intend to follow through on using MB�s and not hurting him again GO FOR IT..Honestly. IF in your heart you don�t think you can really do it�just tell him. Please. Only you know what is really in your heart of hearts. This is going to be a LONG journey. 2-5 years with many ups and downs.
Just be honest with yourself and with him. Isn�t it about time? Don�t you owe it to him and yourself to do the right thing here? What he is doing for YOU to even consider R is more gracious than you will ever know. Trust me. I am living it.
You should thank him every day for what he is doing. Start becoming an expert at meeting his needs and eliminate ALL LB�s.
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
You could also consider just getting a dumb phone, like an older version flip phone without internet capability. That would keep you off social networks entirely.
I don't think you ever answered this post, mrscen. Was this ever taken care of?
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
You could also consider just getting a dumb phone, like an older version flip phone without internet capability. That would keep you off social networks entirely.
I don't think you ever answered this post, mrscen. Was this ever taken care of?
I've been researching different programs to block Facebook - most of them seem to be available for computers only - I need to have it on my iPhone. Right now it's not installed, and there is a password needed to get into my settings to be able to install it (I don't have the password) but my BS has asked that this be done. Does anyone have any experience or advice for this software?
You could also consider just getting a dumb phone, like an older version flip phone without internet capability. That would keep you off social networks entirely.
I don't think you ever answered this post, mrscen. Was this ever taken care of?
You seem to need a lot of prodding. Why not just get the other phone to show him you're serious?
I pick up so much resentment from you that you have to make so many 'sacrifices' to help him.
How about going at this with the intention of making yourself a better person? A better wife and mother.
The phone police comment is just one example of what I mean here. You show reluctance to do the right thing and frame it as something for HIM instead of seeing it for the good of everyone, most importantly you.
I think your assuming to much Zibbles - how does one "pick up resentment"? I have done nothing since I started this process but want to fix my marriage. I have been following the suggestions, advice and comments that have been made. I'm sorry you feel I don't "get it" - that's just not how it is.
If that's what he needs to feel safe - then I will get a "dumb" phone. I thought with mSpy on my phone that would make him feel better.
I am confused as to why you acted as if FB was blocked when it is still accessible through the web browser though? It seems to me, an outsider, that you were trying to make it seem as though you were honoring his request when you really weren't.
Plus you didn't respond when you brought this issue to our attention and it was recommended that you get the dumb phone.
It's like making half-hearted attempts when you should be going the extra mile to make your BH comfortable.
The big problem I see, mrs.cen, is that you even had the capability to text the timeline, because you said you were going to give your husband your iPhone but didn't.
I don't appreciate being lied to.
Are my original suspicions of you correct? You left in a huff awhile back because I told your husband that you were just waiting for him to turn his back in order for you to go back to OM.
Well, we were able to speak with Dr. Harley and his wife on the show this am - it was a real "kick in the a$$" - impulse control is a term I've heard and am somewhat familiar with BUT I never in a million years would have thought I had issue's with it - which clearly I do, it was defienetly hard to hear BUT what a relief - I'm encouraged as is my BS, I am looking into finding a new psychiatrist as he hasn't "caught" on to this impulse control. I've also printed out the PORH and POJA so I can have them on hand, and we've committed to following them. I know (well I guess I don't) it will be a long road, I know (well I don't) it's not going to be easy - especially when I feel like an "spoiled brat" - BUT I've committed to work on that as well.
We have a lot in common in that I once suffered from impulse control too. If you will commit to the PORH and POJA, you will get out of the habit of giving into every whim and will see an amazing difference in your life. My life was chaotic and crazy like yours until I got a handle on it. You will be SOO grateful to live in peace.
And your husband is the key to helping you get control. If he can control his anger, he will be an amazing resource for you.
Your stress and anxiety will go down to nothing. You will actually enjoy your life instead of living in fear of the next consequence to slap you in the face.
I just listened - great radio show. Aren't Dr Harley and Joyce wonderful? I think I have been on the show myself three times and each time the help they gave me was invaluable.
Just wanted to add that when your H leaves because he feels an AO coming on, I know you requested that he tell you he is leaving and when he will back, etc. I would just recommend that you allow him to leave and text it. And don't respond.
I am concerned it will escalate to a fight if you force him to talk to you when he wants to leave. When you both have your lovebusters under better control, you can come to a different agreement. Just my 2 cents...
I just listened - great radio show. Aren't Dr Harley and Joyce wonderful? I think I have been on the show myself three times and each time the help they gave me was invaluable.
Just wanted to add that when your H leaves because he feels an AO coming on, I know you requested that he tell you he is leaving and when he will back, etc. I would just recommend that you allow him to leave and text it. And don't respond.
I am concerned it will escalate to a fight if you force him to talk to you when he wants to leave. When you both have your lovebusters under better control, you can come to a different agreement. Just my 2 cents...
We (BS) both feel the advice was/is invaluable to the recovery of our marriage - as soon as we were off the show, we again read both policies and began implementing them. We have spent some time googling psychologists in our area that deal with impulse control and infact the same place BS is going for his anger management classes is where one of the psychologists is.
I think that's a good idea Susie and BS agrees, so that's what we will do.
MrsCen, when that radio clip shows up in the archives, one of us can post the links. I think it would be an invaluable aide to your new psychologist to hear what Dr Harley has said. You could play that clip for him.
MrsCen, when that radio clip shows up in the archives, one of us can post the links. I think it would be an invaluable aide to your new psychologist to hear what Dr Harley has said. You could play that clip for him.
BS and I were just talking about that this morning - that we need to find someone who will first recognize the impulse control issue, followed by the anxiety attacks and depression.
I never even thought to link our clip and be able to play it! ML your a genious!!! Much thanks again to you and everyone.
Just now getting a chance to listen to your show, and it was a good one.
Joyce mentioned to you that you have all weekend to re-listen to the show -- have you had a chance to do that?
We both listened again on Friday after it originally played and again on Saturday.
As Dr. H told us the two agreements PORH & POJA (in particular) are going to be crucial to our recovery. I feel we've both made a real effort this weekend to practice them over and over (Dr. Harley said we needed to start right away) I think my BS is having a bit harder of a time with the PORH, he doesn't want to "upset" me with what his thoughts are when they are "not good" - as he says.
I think my BS is having a bit harder of a time with the PORH, he doesn't want to "upset" me with what his thoughts are when they are "not good" - as he says.
My first time on the radio show was about this very topic. My wife was telling me thoughts she was having post-A that were extremely upsetting to me. Dr. H's advice was that RH trumps the side effects, and he was right. Now, I appreciate the past honesty much more and the foggy thoughts are long forgotten. In the future, you will appreciate his present RH much more that any lasting impressions of his negative thoughts.
Prisca and I listened to your show last night. Glad to hear that you guys were encouraged and have some direction! We here on the forum will do everything we can to help encourage and motivate you both to carry through on the advice Dr. Harley gave.
I'm pretty sure we've got some impulse control issues in our house; in fact, for awhile I nicknamed one of our boys "impulse control." For the record, my belief is that the Policy of Joint Agreement is a wonderful check on a person's life, to keep things in balance. I tend towards being what some might describe as "obsessive compulsive." On my own, I would obsess towards lots of little details that really don't add any value to life. For example, I might decide to waste half a day ironing handkerchiefs or something. I realized to some extent before getting married that I could NEVER expect my wife to want to handle everything with the level of detail that I always wished I could give everything. (In fact, I couldn't even make all of that work myself!) When we found the Policy of Joint Agreement, it helped me put that belief into a concrete form and realize that it needed to apply to everything in our life. I can't demand that my wife do things my way, or even insist on doing things my own way -- and I am a more balanced and happier person as a result!
Just wanted to add that when your H leaves because he feels an AO coming on, I know you requested that he tell you he is leaving and when he will back, etc. I would just recommend that you allow him to leave and text it. And don't respond.
I am concerned it will escalate to a fight if you force him to talk to you when he wants to leave. When you both have your lovebusters under better control, you can come to a different agreement. Just my 2 cents...
This is a really good point here. I believe Prisca and I struggled with something similar until we started to get a handle on things.
It is great if he can tell you he needs to go calm down, but if he's upset he may not be able to do that, and if he feels cornered while he is having an angry outburst (temporarily insane) he may do something crazy like say you've eliminated the option to go calm down so now he has to have an angry outburst and is justified doing whatever he wants. It's great if he can tell you, but if he can't, don't demand it - just let things cool off, and then try to pick things back up together later.
Today I typically don't have to leave to go calm down, so it hasn't been as much of an issue! And if one of us does feel that need, we just tell the other.
I'm concerned that we haven't heard from either of you guys in awhile.
Thank you for your concern Markos! We are still "here", been focusing diligently on the two concepts the Harley's said we need, reading, reading and more reading!.
We had a "set back" of sorts yesterday - BS really let me "have it" with his immediate thoughts (PORH) and boy did it hurt! which lead to the start of AO's on both sides - I say "start" because we were both able (BS especially) to recognize, stop, and redirect our behaviour. Needless to say, I spent most of yesterday "digesting" his words. I believe I'm still coming to terms with the severity of what I did to him and our family and THAT is a hard pill to swallow.
He has found a rig job that will allow him to be home every night, however it may be as late as 8-9 pm, which will NOT allow us to spend the necessary time together each day/week that we need. I know his concern is still financial BUT the fact that BS brought up the time thing, leads me to believe that he "gets it", his worry still there though.
After our show, I cancelled my next appointment with my Psychiatrist, and am still in process of finding one that deals with Impulse Control and will allow BS to be with me in session which is my request. The one we found at BS's anger management course looks "ok", the only drawback is now having to return to my family do for medication, though we are both hopefull that once my impulse control issues are being "treated", I will be able to be med free!!
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
I'll let the vets dissect the post but I am happy to hear your both on board with MB. I am nowhere near there yet and my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
I'll let the vets dissect the post but I am happy to hear your both on board with MB. I am nowhere near there yet and my thoughts and prayers are with you both.
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
As you know, this is step 1:
Have you thoroughly answered all of his questions to his satisfaction?
Have you come clean on all the facts of the A?
Is there ANYTING at all that you are still hiding from him?
The last thing you want to do is for facts to trickle out over time. This will set you back to square 1.
First you are going to have to come to grips that this is a marathon not a race. 2-5years to recover.
The biggest help that my FWW does for me is to be completely and radically honest, reassure me daily that she does not have a SSL, no hidden email accounts, no secret phone, no one is making LB deposits besides me, schedule and document our UA, meet my EN�s.
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
As you know, this is step 1:
Have you thoroughly answered all of his questions to his satisfaction?
Have you come clean on all the facts of the A?
Is there ANYTING at all that you are still hiding from him?
The last thing you want to do is for facts to trickle out over time. This will set you back to square 1.
Yes - All questions have been answered, there were some things BS wanted done regarding OM and past criminal activities and I was leary about speaking with police, however - I did so and it's done. There will be NO "trickle truth" from me.
Do you ask him everyday "what you can do for him" "what does he need from you"?
I do now BH, I hadn't always but I make a point through out the day to ask, we text frequently to just "check" in and we get a chance to speak to each other on the phone a few times during breaks as well.
First you are going to have to come to grips that this is a marathon not a race. 2-5years to recover.
The biggest help that my FWW does for me is to be completely and radically honest, reassure me daily that she does not have a SSL, no hidden email accounts, no secret phone, no one is making LB deposits besides me, schedule and document our UA, meet my EN�s.
This would be a great start for you.
Sounds like a good start indeed - thank you for the advice.
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
The best thing you can do for your husband is to build a romantic marriage with him. This is part of Just Compensation, and when you have achieved it, the "bad thoughts" and resentment will go away.
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
The best thing you can do for your husband is to build a romantic marriage with him. This is part of Just Compensation, and when you have achieved it, the "bad thoughts" and resentment will go away.
Have the two of you started going on dates yet?
WE DID!!!! We went on our "first" this past Saturday to a movie and then Sunday we had a "coffee" date at Second Cup! - it was sooo nice (until he had some "bad thoughts")
You need to start going on 4 dates a week, 4 hours each, concentrating on meeting the 4 Intimate Emotional Needs (Conversation, Affection, Recreational Companionship, and ending with Sexual Fulfillment). Will you do that?
Has he started Anger Management? I know he found a place to go, but has he actually started the classes yet?
Not yet - the next level 1 course is 2 days and runs July 6 & 13. I spoke with a counsellor this am - they won't let BS attend my sessions with me - so I guess we have to look elsewhere - I think it's imperative for him to be on board and aware at all times with what's happening as far as my impulse control - as a nurse, I don't see how how it's a FOIP breech if its ME requesting he attend. Really discouraged right now
Has he started Anger Management? I know he found a place to go, but has he actually started the classes yet?
Not yet - the next level 1 course is 2 days and runs July 6 & 13. I spoke with a counsellor this am - they won't let BS attend my sessions with me - so I guess we have to look elsewhere - I think it's imperative for him to be on board and aware at all times with what's happening as far as my impulse control - as a nurse, I don't see how how it's a FOIP breech if its ME requesting he attend. Really discouraged right now
Good on finding another one.
I'm very involved in my H treatment and go to every appointment. It was just one of the many good advice HHH gave me.
You need to start going on 4 dates a week, 4 hours each, concentrating on meeting the 4 Intimate Emotional Needs (Conversation, Affection, Recreational Companionship, and ending with Sexual Fulfillment). Will you do that?
You need to start going on 4 dates a week, 4 hours each, concentrating on meeting the 4 Intimate Emotional Needs (Conversation, Affection, Recreational Companionship, and ending with Sexual Fulfillment). Will you do that?
Will you do this?
Yes, 15 hours a week - can some of the dates be at home? As long as the kids are away? Or do we have to leave the house?
Has he started Anger Management? I know he found a place to go, but has he actually started the classes yet?
Not yet - the next level 1 course is 2 days and runs July 6 & 13. I spoke with a counsellor this am - they won't let BS attend my sessions with me - so I guess we have to look elsewhere - I think it's imperative for him to be on board and aware at all times with what's happening as far as my impulse control - as a nurse, I don't see how how it's a FOIP breech if its ME requesting he attend. Really discouraged right now
Yeah, people's buttholes pucker at thoughts of HIPPA and whatever else.
But, you are EXACTLY RIGHT; by involving him in your mental health plan-of-care, you are being Radically Honest and Transparent.
Also; wouldn't you say that his participation in your plan of care is a demonstration of care?
These things are part of an open, honest, and interdependent marriage as far as I'm concerned.
We had a "set back" of sorts yesterday - BS really let me "have it" with his immediate thoughts (PORH) and boy did it hurt! which lead to the start of AO's on both sides - I say "start" because we were both able (BS especially) to recognize, stop, and redirect our behaviour. Needless to say, I spent most of yesterday "digesting" his words. I believe I'm still coming to terms with the severity of what I did to him and our family and THAT is a hard pill to swallow.
The PORH is not for the purpose of blasting our spouses with our terrible thoughts about the recent tragedy. The PORH is so spouses can really get to know and more fully understand the other. It's so we can let our spouse know when something bothers us and to respectfully voice our complaints.
Once your H has all the necessary details of your affair, it does no good in the least to keep bringing it up in the spirit of Radical Honesty. I did that, too. I finally had to simply learn to swallow my words. It only made both of us miserable for me to keep bringing it up. Bringing up the mistakes of the past in an enemy of good conversation. He will feel miserable about the affair until your marriage improves. Recovery takes a couple of YEARS, at the minimum. Talking about it keeps bringing the agony into the present. He has to stop talking about it.
When he brings it up again, ask him to stop, "Honey, this conversation is becoming very unpleasant for me. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you and want our future to be wonderful. Please don't talk about my failure anymore." Say it calmly and respectfully.
If he persists, then, again respectfully, tell him, "I need to step away from this conversation now." And then leave.
It's hard; it's very hard for the BS to stop talking about it, but it truly is absolutely necessary.
Talking about the A will not bring recovery faster; it will ruin the present.
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He has found a rig job that will allow him to be home every night, however it may be as late as 8-9 pm, which will NOT allow us to spend the necessary time together each day/week that we need. I know his concern is still financial BUT the fact that BS brought up the time thing, leads me to believe that he "gets it", his worry still there though.
Have you both looked at the potential schedule and carefully carved out your UA hours? This needs to be done. And you both need to agree on the job, ensuring that the job is supporting the marriage and not the other way around.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
Your H will need to practice the habit of replacing the bad thoughts with more helpful ones. I had to constantly, as in many times a day, tell myself, often out loud, to look at what FWH is doing NOW. I've practiced this so much for the last couple of years that I hardly ever think about how awful he was for a while. I think of what a terrific man he has become instead.
When your H is feeling badly, he should come to you for comfort, as in a hug or holding each other. He may weep spontaneously or just look terribly sad. Go to him and just hold him. There are times, thankfully rare these days, when my loss comes into my thoughts. My H knows it simply by seeing my face. Even then we don't talk about it, he simply holds me.
We had a "set back" of sorts yesterday - BS really let me "have it" with his immediate thoughts (PORH) and boy did it hurt! which lead to the start of AO's on both sides - I say "start" because we were both able (BS especially) to recognize, stop, and redirect our behaviour. Needless to say, I spent most of yesterday "digesting" his words. I believe I'm still coming to terms with the severity of what I did to him and our family and THAT is a hard pill to swallow.
The PORH is not for the purpose of blasting our spouses with our terrible thoughts about the recent tragedy. The PORH is so spouses can really get to know and more fully understand the other. It's so we can let our spouse know when something bothers us and to respectfully voice our complaints.
Once your H has all the necessary details of your affair, it does no good in the least to keep bringing it up in the spirit of Radical Honesty. I did that, too. I finally had to simply learn to swallow my words. It only made both of us miserable for me to keep bringing it up. Bringing up the mistakes of the past in an enemy of good conversation. He will feel miserable about the affair until your marriage improves. Recovery takes a couple of YEARS, at the minimum. Talking about it keeps bringing the agony into the present. He has to stop talking about it.
When he brings it up again, ask him to stop, "Honey, this conversation is becoming very unpleasant for me. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you and want our future to be wonderful. Please don't talk about my failure anymore." Say it calmly and respectfully.
If he persists, then, again respectfully, tell him, "I need to step away from this conversation now." And then leave.
It's hard; it's very hard for the BS to stop talking about it, but it truly is absolutely necessary.
Talking about the A will not bring recovery faster; it will ruin the present.
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He has found a rig job that will allow him to be home every night, however it may be as late as 8-9 pm, which will NOT allow us to spend the necessary time together each day/week that we need. I know his concern is still financial BUT the fact that BS brought up the time thing, leads me to believe that he "gets it", his worry still there though.
Have you both looked at the potential schedule and carefully carved out your UA hours? This needs to be done. And you both need to agree on the job, ensuring that the job is supporting the marriage and not the other way around.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
Any suggestions on helping BS through his "bad thought" times - I don't want to ignore it, I want to help, but I don't want I make it worse and come across patronizing if I try to reassure him.
Your H will need to practice the habit of replacing the bad thoughts with more helpful ones. I had to constantly, as in many times a day, tell myself, often out loud, to look at what FWH is doing NOW. I've practiced this so much for the last couple of years that I hardly ever think about how awful he was for a while. I think of what a terrific man he has become instead.
When your H is feeling badly, he should come to you for comfort, as in a hug or holding each other. He may weep spontaneously or just look terribly sad. Go to him and just hold him. There are times, thankfully rare these days, when my loss comes into my thoughts. My H knows it simply by seeing my face. Even then we don't talk about it, he simply holds me.
BS and I have had a quite the day. He has not registered for his classes as he was supposed to, he had said he would put me on the lease but now as we move onto our third month of reconcillation he still refuses to but would like me to continue to contribute to half the bills, he told me and I quote "This is not my mess to fix, it's all yours to clean up, I just have to allow it to happen", he's also just texted and said he's accepted the rig job - I'm truly at a loss right now, I do t know what he wants.
Many things, are beginning to come to "light" since our "D day", aside from BS having those pictures of girls on the computer - that I still haven't really gotten a straight answer other than "I don't even remember saving them, I don't know them etc", I found out recently that he has a profile on Match.com, when I confronted him initially he denied, denied, denied - then he went out and I got a text saying "Yes, I did make a match profile months ago. The difference is I never used it I never $&?�% anyone else so please stop thinking you are anything special or have any special privileges" I realize that I AM the WS, and I'm trying to fix our marriage but I haven't a clue how to take this???
He is not being transparent with anything - unless caught (as he was tonight)he still has a "private" email account which I have no access to etc. He has had a few AO lately, and his DJ's are getting worse, most recent tonight when he "demanded" we talk, that he needed to and I needed to listen, I told him, I would listen, but that I would not talk, he seems to think that if I don't want to talk, that I'm being uncaring, he's texted that I disgust him, that I don't deserve him, that he can get any girl he wants, and the list goes on. He thinks that I'm blaming him for my affair - I never have, I have always accepted responsibility for MY choice to engage in that behaviour.
As im not supposed to comment on his thread, what he has failed to mention, is I have our 8 year old daughter with me, I am at my parents, I don't hide my phone at all - in fact he took it away from me again and I don't even have it with me. I have not found a new doctor as of yet, however, I AM booked to see my old doctor on the 12th of July.
He is not being transparent with anything - unless caught (as he was tonight)he still has a "private" email account which I have no access to etc. He has had a few AO lately, and his DJ's are getting worse, most recent tonight when he "demanded" we talk, that he needed to and I needed to listen, I told him, I would listen, but that I would not talk, he seems to think that if I don't want to talk, that I'm being uncaring, he's texted that I disgust him, that I don't deserve him, that he can get any girl he wants, and the list goes on. He thinks that I'm blaming him for my affair - I never have, I have always accepted responsibility for MY choice to engage in that behaviour.
He will delete that profile, right? If so, this can be a fairly minor issue, I think.
Will he delete it? Will he be transparent with you and let you verify he doesn't do anything like this in the future?
You didn't thoroughly answer my questions - will he delete the Match profile? Did you ask him to delete it?
When either of you finds things wrong like this, you need to focus on solving the problem and finding solutions. The solution in this case is obvious: no more match.com, and transparency going forward.
I would take that as a no and not have an iPhone. It sounds like he doesn't want you to have it but when he is not angry he capitulates and says it's okay with him for you to keep it.
I just listened to your show and I must say I am hopeful for you two. Dr Harley gave you two some great advice to get things going. Take him up on his offer to keep in touch and help you through this process.
Originally Posted by markos
I would take that as a no and not have an iPhone. It sounds like he doesn't want you to have it but when he is not angry he capitulates and says it's okay with him for you to keep it.
From an EP perspective as a former wayward � you should no longer want a smart phone. Even if he thinks he may be OK with it � you shouldn�t want it. You should know it is just one more avenue where you could cross a boundary. Remove it from your list of available options. You�ll rest better knowing it�s gone.
There is where POJA is going to help you two so much. Having the phone shouldn�t be an at random decision that one makes in the moment. Establish a policy, make a decision and stick to it. IPhone or not? At a time when you are both thinking clearly if you both agree �No. It�s not a good option� then get rid of it � sell it, trade it in, throw it away.
Where it takes time getting the hang of POJA is learning to work together to brainstorm a solution. A lot of answers are things that are way out of the box for us. The answer to the problems many times are things you would normally not consider.
It can be hard especially when things are rather raw, sort of volatile in the relationship � when you are still a bit stuck in old behaviors. Until things like AOs are under control and the impulses to do whatever you want to do are replaced with healthier thoughts accept that POJA and brainstorming are going to be more difficult than they will be once they are gone. Accept that you two are rookies at this and at first it will most likely feel like a frustrating process. Recognize your part. Be flexible in taking the necessary time and be determined to put in the effort to get it right. If you need to separate and come back to it later then do that and do it without being resentful. But keep at it. Keep working PORH and POJA.
The great news for you two is that you have a plan that is going to help you remove those obstacles that keep you two from being successful at PORH and POJA. Keep your eye on the end goal where you two are totally immersed in caring and protecting each other and the marriage.
To me it always sounded odd to use the word �team� when discussing my marriage � but that is what my wife and I are. We�re a team. We now have the best interest of the �team� in all of our intentions. We didn�t always before but after following this program we now do. And it is a very comforting feeling knowing I can be completely honest with her and it isn�t going to lead to all sorts of poor behaviors coming from either one of us.
The idea of MB's is for you and your H to build and integrated lifestyle where there is no chance of either of you having a Secret Second Life.
A life in which there are No secrets at all in your M.
Some don't realize that "omission' is also lying. You know..leaving OUT important details of your life.
My FWW lied to my face many, many times...however most of her lying was by Omission where she just hid facts. Actually these were more damaging.
Also there is a distinction between Privacy and Secrecy. Privacy is going to the restroom with the door closed.
What you have done to your H is the worst possible thing you could ever do to someone you love. Dr Harley has counseled people who have experienced both A and losing a child and have said an A is more painful. Your husband should not trust you right now. It is up to YOU to prove to him you will always take his feelings into account with every decision you make and NEVER hurt him again.
Please, I implore you�if you intend to follow through on using MB�s and not hurting him again GO FOR IT..Honestly. IF in your heart you don�t think you can really do it�just tell him. Please. Only you know what is really in your heart of hearts. This is going to be a LONG journey. 2-5 years with many ups and downs.
Just be honest with yourself and with him. Isn�t it about time? Don�t you owe it to him and yourself to do the right thing here? What he is doing for YOU to even consider R is more gracious than you will ever know. Trust me. I am living it.
You should thank him every day for what he is doing. Start becoming an expert at meeting his needs and eliminate ALL LB�s.
What are you doing signing up for a Twitter account?
What are you doing setting up a new e-mail account?
What are you doing planning to establish a separate cell plan?
What are you doing......
Never mind! I KNOW what you're doing, ma'am. You haven't the GUTS to end the marriage that in your own warped mind has become inconvenient, and want to drive RNR into doing so.
Very, very sad....that you caused many well-meaning folks here to waste much time in the belief that you had a soul worth redeeming!
What are you doing signing up for a Twitter account?
What are you doing setting up a new e-mail account?
What are you doing planning to establish a separate cell plan?
What are you doing......
Never mind! I KNOW what you're doing, ma'am. You haven't the GUTS to end the marriage that in your own warped mind has become inconvenient, and want to drive RNR into doing so.
Very, very sad....that you caused many well-meaning folks here to waste much time in the belief that you had a soul worth redeeming!
The idea of MB's is for you and your H to build and integrated lifestyle where there is no chance of either of you having a Secret Second Life.
A life in which there are No secrets at all in your M.
Some don't realize that "omission' is also lying. You know..leaving OUT important details of your life.
My FWW lied to my face many, many times...however most of her lying was by Omission where she just hid facts. Actually these were more damaging.
Also there is a distinction between Privacy and Secrecy. Privacy is going to the restroom with the door closed.
What you have done to your H is the worst possible thing you could ever do to someone you love. Dr Harley has counseled people who have experienced both A and losing a child and have said an A is more painful. Your husband should not trust you right now. It is up to YOU to prove to him you will always take his feelings into account with every decision you make and NEVER hurt him again.
Please, I implore you�if you intend to follow through on using MB�s and not hurting him again GO FOR IT..Honestly. IF in your heart you don�t think you can really do it�just tell him. Please. Only you know what is really in your heart of hearts. This is going to be a LONG journey. 2-5 years with many ups and downs.
Just be honest with yourself and with him. Isn�t it about time? Don�t you owe it to him and yourself to do the right thing here? What he is doing for YOU to even consider R is more gracious than you will ever know. Trust me. I am living it.
You should thank him every day for what he is doing. Start becoming an expert at meeting his needs and eliminate ALL LB�s.
For those MB members, that feel they have my "true convictions" pin pointed and have vocally labelled me with them as such ~ I'm sorry, you are not correct. I have chosen to remain quiet and not comment on any of the last 24 hours until now. I will say only that my BS, has misunderstood some of the comments I've made, during our conversations - he has admitted in his own thread that perhaps he may have misconstrued certain things. Now, on saying that, I will not be apart of anymore of "THIS" - "he said/she said", it will do our marriage and all of its issues no good. The bottom line is, I love my husband and I want my marriage, those that feel I'm not serious - are entitled to their opinion, and I respect that BUT the fact that it is "just an opinion" doesn't change. I mean no disrespect to those who are truly trying to help me and my BS, I mean only to point out that not all "assumptions" are always all correct.
mrs_cen, you guys need to stop fighting, and I don't understand why nobody seems to be writing to Dr. Harley.
Stop doing anything your husband clearly isn't enthusiastic about (i.e., twitter, having a smart phone, etc.) Time to start subjecting those impulses to the POJA.
For those MB members, that feel they have my "true convictions" pin pointed and have vocally labelled me with them as such ~ I'm sorry, you are not correct. I have chosen to remain quiet and not comment on any of the last 24 hours until now. I will say only that my BS, has misunderstood some of the comments I've made, during our conversations - he has admitted in his own thread that perhaps he may have misconstrued certain things. Now, on saying that, I will not be apart of anymore of "THIS" - "he said/she said", it will do our marriage and all of its issues no good. The bottom line is, I love my husband and I want my marriage, those that feel I'm not serious - are entitled to their opinion, and I respect that BUT the fact that it is "just an opinion" doesn't change. I mean no disrespect to those who are truly trying to help me and my BS, I mean only to point out that not all "assumptions" are always all correct.
mrs_cen, you need to make sure to keep practicing the utmost transparency and the strictest extraordinary precautions, and following the program, and reaching out to Dr. Harley for help as needed.
There is nothing to be gained from arguing with posters on the forum about your sincerity. It doesn't matter what people believe. Your actions will show the truth. People have the right to assume whatever they want!
The big question to ask, all the time is, "Are we following the POJA?" Example being the twitter account: does your husband seem to feel happy in his gut that you have one? If not, you turn it over to him and let him delete it. Or the locked phone: was he turning cartwheels of joy about that? Definitely not, so you give him the password.
All of this is about behavior, not thoughts or feelings. Of course your husband is going to have negative feelings when he sees things like secret twitter accounts, locked phones, and anything else that he is not enthusiastic about. He's entitled to feel that way. Our job here as posters on Dr. Harley's forum is to help teach both of you how to stop doing the things that cause negative feelings in each other.
Didn't Dr Harley advise you guys to re-read lovebusters?
Maybe I am getting things mixed up, but I would advise you two to re-read it perhaps even daily until you two get the lovebusters under control.
This is excellent advise.
You guys need to stop the damage, stop the bleeding. You will be in love with each other again if you stick to the plan and learn how to stop doing anything that the other finds demanding, disrespectful, or angry.
mrs_cen, you need to make sure to keep practicing the utmost transparency and the strictest extraordinary precautions, and following the program, and reaching out to Dr. Harley for help as needed.
There is nothing to be gained from arguing with posters on the forum about your sincerity. It doesn't matter what people believe. Your actions will show the truth. People have the right to assume whatever they want!
The big question to ask, all the time is, "Are we following the POJA?" Example being the twitter account: does your husband seem to feel happy in his gut that you have one? If not, you turn it over to him and let him delete it. Or the locked phone: was he turning cartwheels of joy about that? Definitely not, so you give him the password.
All of this is about behavior, not thoughts or feelings. Of course your husband is going to have negative feelings when he sees things like secret twitter accounts, locked phones, and anything else that he is not enthusiastic about. He's entitled to feel that way. Our job here as posters on Dr. Harley's forum is to help teach both of you how to stop doing the things that cause negative feelings in each other.
EXACTLY.
People doubt your sincerity because of your LACK OF ACTIONS in addition to the RISKS YOU ARE FLIRTING WITH.
Actions are needed at this point. Not words. What actions are you taking?
There is no Twitter account - I had it for approximately 3 hours, I DID use our son's email, because of what I saw come into BS "private" email, I didn't want him to know I was "snopping", I locked the phone, so he would see it and ask, and he did - that's when and how I brought up the "spam" message, he asked for the code - I gave it to him, he deleted Twitter, and the phone remains unlocked - as stupid and insecure as it sounds, he's mentioned revenge more and more and he's said he's disgusted and sickened by me, it's almost like I'm waiting for him to leave me.
We have NOT been following the two principles that Dr. Harley said would help save our marriage - POJA/PORH, we've both been so busy with the "I said/you said" that I believe we've lost sight of what our true goal is.
I have finished reading SAA (BS has not) we ordered Love Busters on Kobo and are now waiting for it to come in on paperback so we have both. I have adamantly supported (though admitingly not always enthusiastically) the idea of a polygraph and that remains true today, BS was aware that I contacted the examiner back in June to enquire about cost,administration protocol etc.
We both are committed to each other, our family and making our marriage work, though I think we are "stuck" in not knowing what we should be doing and in what order.
I think we are "stuck" in not knowing what we should be doing and in what order.
1. Complete transparency, for both of you. a. Practice PORH every day. b. Practice POJA everyday. c. Get rid of iPhone d. Don't EVER use lack of transparency to get each others attention 2. Start reading lovebusters. Read it everyday. 4. Polygraph. 5. Four dates, 4 hours each, outside the home. Use this time to meet he four intimate emotional needs (conversation, affection, recreational companionship, sexual fulfillment). 6. Write Dr. Harley.
No, I still have it - money is an issue right now, so getting a new one, even a "dummy one" isn't an option. I've offered to go without a phone, and have BS contacted me during the day through the landline, but BS does not want me to not have a phone, he (through his own admission) wants to be "able to get ahold of me whenever he wants".
Do I refuse to carry it? Do we get a key logger program for it?
They have prepaid phones for cheap available. This is what markos and I are currently using. It's no big investment, and probably cheaper than what you're paying for the service for your iPhone.
They have prepaid phones for cheap available. This is what markos and I are currently using. It's no big investment, and probably cheaper than what you're paying for the service for your iPhone.
Yes, your right - BS is not enthusiastic about buying another one, when we have two brand new ones on his plan. I guess I can just refuse to use the iPhone until I get a "dummy"
There is no Twitter account - I had it for approximately 3 hours, I DID use our son's email, because of what I saw come into BS "private" email, I didn't want him to know I was "snopping", I locked the phone, so he would see it and ask, and he did - that's when and how I brought up the "spam" message, he asked for the code - I gave it to him, he deleted Twitter, and the phone remains unlocked - as stupid and insecure as it sounds, he's mentioned revenge more and more and he's said he's disgusted and sickened by me, it's almost like I'm waiting for him to leave me.
We have NOT been following the two principles that Dr. Harley said would help save our marriage - POJA/PORH, we've both been so busy with the "I said/you said" that I believe we've lost sight of what our true goal is.
I have finished reading SAA (BS has not) we ordered Love Busters on Kobo and are now waiting for it to come in on paperback so we have both. I have adamantly supported (though admitingly not always enthusiastically) the idea of a polygraph and that remains true today, BS was aware that I contacted the examiner back in June to enquire about cost,administration protocol etc.
We both are committed to each other, our family and making our marriage work, though I think we are "stuck" in [b]not knowing what we should be doing and in what order. [b]
Mrs_Cen,
I think if you read your post here you�ll see some things you can be doing to take on the steps Dr Harley asked you to. You two are supposed to have total transparency. Yet you�re snooping. It�s ok to snoop but you would have been better off just being radically honest with your H. The way you acted � he went off making all kinds of horrible assumptions � which needs to stop too.
If you�re going to save your M you need to be able to talk openly and honestly with each other. Every move you make, every action should be in accordance with PORH and POJA. The I said/ you said crap will be the death of your progress. The goal is to work together, lay down your hurts and egos, open yourself up to each other. The independent thinking, the need to lash out at each other, the need to be defensive towards each other � all those things go away once you engrain PORH and POJA into your everyday lives.
There shouldn�t be a single thing you should need to keep from your H. Nothing, zero, zilch. Any attempt to hide or conceal your action and true feelings will delay your progress. You have to open up, reveal your truths, explain your feelings.
To clarify, both husband and wife should be snooping as much as they want. The real telling moments are when either one reacts negatively to this or tries to prevent it. For example, password protecting the phone she gave her husband -- very very bad sign! Or, suppose he were to get angry with her if he discovered her checking his email (I'm making this up as a hypothetical) -- also a very bad sign!
Both of them need to be inviting and WELCOMING the other to check up on them. The result of this will be a fantastic feeling of trust sometime down the road.
POJA is very, very important. However, if there is a boundary item, I will hypothetically pick having a Myspace account (since I haven't seen that mentioned), AND he is enthusiastic, I would still advise against it. Or make a joint account, with both of you having full access.
Point is, even if he's enthusiastic, if there's the slightest chance of secrecy or anything inappropriate happening even far down the road, YOU should avoid it because it's the right thing to do.
AJ and I each have our own FB account, the login for each other, and my mom has it, too, so she can send herself Farmville presents. I can think of few things to keep everything on the level better than having Mom/MIL popping in at odd hours every single day.
Whatever you do, keep the safety of the M paramount in both your minds. Extraordinary care and protection.
The below is copied from my BS RNR's thread, as I'm not allowed to post on his thread, however I did want to clarify a few things. Please not ~ I'm not "yelling" in my replys - just wanted to make my replys clear
"Wife has been saying she wants to and should go back on Facebook"
- I DID NOT SAY I WANTED TO GO BACK ON FB, I SAID PERHAPS I SHOULD LOOK AFTER BS'S QUESTION WHICH WAS AN EMAIL BACK FROM MARCH, ONCE IT WAS EXPRESSED THAT IT WAS AN EMAIL (WHICH BS HAD ACCESS TO AND IS NO LONGER IN "SERVICE" TODAY AND NOT FB - I DID NOT RE-ACTIVATED.
Today she's acting very strange and distant. I don't know what she's doing but she's hiding her phone and won't let me see it. I was going to take it and look at it but she would not allow me to leave the room with it. I think she ha made contact today or got messages?
IT IS MY THOUGHT THAT WHEN THINGS ARE GOING WELL, BS HAS TO THROW SOME KIND OF "WRENCH" IN, WHERR HIS COMMENTS TO ME TEND TO BE VERY BITING AND SOME DJ'S AS WELL - THIS HAS ALWAYS TAKEN ME ABACK - AND I HAVE A TENDENCY TO PULL AWAY (WHICH IS BS'S INTERPRETATION OF ME ACTING STRANGE) AS FOR THE PHONE, I DID NOT HIDE IT, I SIMPLY ASKED WHY BS WAS LEAVING THE ROOM WITH IT, I HAD/HAVE NP WITH BS LOKING AT IT, BS MADE A NASTY COMMENT AND TOSSED IT AT ME AND LEFT THE ROOM, HE HAD/HAS ACCESS TO IT AT ANY TIME. I HAVE REMAINED IN NC WITH OM.
IT IS MY THOUGHT THAT WHEN THINGS ARE GOING WELL, BS HAS TO THROW SOME KIND OF "WRENCH" IN, WHERR HIS COMMENTS TO ME TEND TO BE VERY BITING AND SOME DJ'S AS WELL - THIS HAS ALWAYS TAKEN ME ABACK - AND I HAVE A TENDENCY TO PULL AWAY (WHICH IS BS'S INTERPRETATION OF ME ACTING STRANGE) AS FOR THE PHONE, I DID NOT HIDE IT, I SIMPLY ASKED WHY BS WAS LEAVING THE ROOM WITH IT, I HAD/HAVE NP WITH BS LOKING AT IT, BS MADE A NASTY COMMENT AND TOSSED IT AT ME AND LEFT THE ROOM, HE HAD/HAS ACCESS TO IT AT ANY TIME.
The interactions you have with each other need to be more respectful. Something as simple as questioning why he�s doing something is nothing but a trigger for him to become defensive.
Try this � instead of asking him my he�s leaving the room instead tell him what you would like. �I would love it if you stayed near me when you look over my phone. I am willing to discuss anything you see on there. Anything. I would just like us to do it together. �
Saying it this way takes on a less accusatory tone, lets him know what you�re thinking and wanting and opens up an opportunity to POJA.
What I�m saying may sound like splitting hairs to you but I think you�ll find it can make a world of a difference. And before you go get all defensive just know your H is being questioned about his behavior as well. You both need to clean up your acts.
Next � IT IS MY THOUGHT THAT WHEN THINGS ARE GOING WELL, BS HAS TO THROW SOME KIND OF "WRENCH" IN,
This is a DJ. This thought process has to stop. I get that what he�s saying or doing hurts and comes as a shock and that�s what needs to be communicated openly and honest to him. In no way should you come here with your assumption that he�s trying to sabotage your efforts. Huge DJ that is hard for many of us to recognize in ourselves.
What was your response to his behavior? �Ouch. What you just said there hurt. I thought things were going well, that we were moving forward and making progress. So I�m a little stunned."
The below is copied from my BS RNR's thread, as I'm not allowed to post on his thread, however I did want to clarify a few things. Please not ~ I'm not "yelling" in my replys - just wanted to make my replys clear
As an aside, try a different color. All caps cause old guys like me to have flashbacks to the days of DEC PDP8's.
I think most readers are perceptive enough to know there is another side. Our real concern is over all the LBs you guys are experiencing. As I said to your H, I will also say to you; stay calm and controlled. If one of you starts to loose it, the other one should not just jump right in. Do you see the logic in this? It is time to direct your reasoning to override your emotions. Hopefully, each time at least one of the two of you can be successful enough to avoid the LBs.
I do see the logic, I will try and remain conttolled with no AO's. I will plug my phone in on his side of the bed from now on, perhaps that will help as well.
This phone issue just seems to keep coming up again and again.
Because this was how you started and conducted your A, I suspect that this triggers your BH.
I know it will be hard but I suggest you just get rid of it and get a dumb phone that is for calls and texting only. Hasn't this already been suggested? I thought you two already said you were going to do this.
ETA:
In the meantime, if your BH wants to look or take it out of the room, for heaven's sakes, don't say anything. Don't question him about looking at it. It is going to take many many times of him looking and NOT seeing anything before he starts to feel comfortable again. When you question him (even if you feel it is completely benign) you are triggering him to be suspicious. That would trigger ANY betrayed spouse.
NG, is just calling it as he sees it. The MB program isn't a marriage at all cost program. It is a program designed to make a marriage interdependant and intimate. If you refuse to get rid of your phone and act suspicious without any regard to your dear BH's feelings then he should just move on. I think that's point he's trying to push home. You (mrs. cen) have zero accountability because your BH allows you to do destructive things in your recovery which in turns makes him angry and he lovebusts you. It's a vicious circle, who will be the one to stop it? You or him?
Also, why haven't you followed the advice Dr. Harley gave you on the radio show? Why do you still have a smart phone? Why are you using Facebook? I think your plan is for your husband to give up and you can go about your affair with a clean conscious by saying "I tried and its not my fault" when in reality you didn't try.
When RNR says things like we can't afford the poly you should find money and get it done anyway. When RNR says sure keep the iPhone you should get rid of it anyway. You need to understand this man is afraid of doing the wrong thing and continues to capitulate in order to make you happy. When he can't take anymore he has an AO, which reinforces your paltry attempt at recovery.
I think one needs to be cautious in picking sides in this case. Why? Because what is needed most of all is to stop LB's, and using the forum as a source of referees isn't a good way to accomplish this.
You both know what you should be doing. Start working at love bank deposits rather than winning arguments. This is something that is totally doable. Go for it.
Unfortunately for you Mrs. Cen (and your H)...you are making many, many CHOICES right now that you will reflect back on in the future and severely regret...
And...I know you know it...
haven't you done enough damage? Isn't it time to consider his feelings? Isn't it time to put your own selfishness in the away forever?
Once again the story being told by my BS is one sided. NO ONE, knows what goes on behind closed doors. I won't do the he said/she said thing anymore - it makes no difference here and it serves no purpose. I will only say AGAIN, that not everything one reads, is exactly how it is.
If you are not going to offer positive advice, don't offer any at all.
Golly gee, Ma'am! I would have thought my suggestions to poor RNR were positive.
***EDIT*** - I also alluded to the positive benefits he might accrue by physically separating you from your favored "infidelity engine", your smart-phone. (Wasn't that a Dr. H suggestion, as well?) - And I was forthrightly positive in my assessment that his best path right now would likely be Plan B. (MB precedent, you understand!)
I am very glad for this opportunity to set the record straight.
Once again the story being told by my BS is one sided. NO ONE, knows what goes on behind closed doors. I won't do the he said/she said thing anymore - it makes no difference here and it serves no purpose. I will only say AGAIN, that not everything one reads, is exactly how it is.
mrs cen,
We still appear to be in the same circle where we were just a few weeks ago.
Your behavior, once again, is coming across as one entitled teenage girl. No one deserves the abuse of an AO........neither the wayward or the betrayed. Your role, based on YOUR postings leads myself to believe that your role is greater than just a "helpless female victim".
How about you FINALLY get off that crazy circle, take some humility, humble yourself and get to work on your marriage?
Both yourself and your betrayed deserve so much better......but someone has to step out of this crazy cycle and STAY out of the crazy cycle.
How about a marriage builders marriage?
The patience of many vets are wearing very thin. You better hurry up because your last chance a healthy and romantic marriage has just about left the train station.
Ditto, HHH. Mrs. Cen, you are taking a huge gift and whining it aside, my friend.
Get serious and woman-up already. Get a grip, and take some control over your future. The excuses are irritating to strangers here trying to help you, so I can't imagine on a daily basis.
I actually stopped reading your and your husbands threads weeks ago because they honestly wore me out. I just happened to see them again and decided to take a peak to see if there were any changes. It seems like everyone has grown tired of the endless cycle that you and your H have continued.
Instead of reading each others threads you need to read up on FWWs who have humbly worked the program to make their marriages better and affair proof.
You need to read (or reread) all of Dr. H's books and start taking action. To me it seems like you both are using this site to shovel dirt on each other, not clean up your sides of the street.
Can someone please explain to me what "Just Compensation" is and what some examples of such are? I have read the definition but I'm not sure what my BS is looking for when he says he wants JC
Just Compensation is: 1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life 2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). 3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts.
Just Compensation is: 1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life 2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). 3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts.
And, Mrs Cen, this means that the marriage is Romantic and loving for you, too! Not just your husband!
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
Mrs. Cen, let me make an assumption (as a BH) that your BH wants you to show some empathy and help him heal.
He wants to know that you will never hurt him again.
Your 'R' is off to a rocky start. We have seen little signs that you recognize what HE is going through and making massive effort to meet his needs AND create a sense of SAFETY for him.
Right now he feels extraordinarily vulnerable to your attacks on him. His entire perception system of how he sees the world has been rocked.
How about asking him daily (and MEANING it) 'What can I do for you today?" How about showing some humility?
How about being proactive in your R to show him you are serious? How about pulling out LB's or SAA books on your own and asking him if you can read a chapter together?
The most important attribute I think you can show him is Patience...
How about making your best effort to FALL IN LOVE with him again??
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
Remember, Mrs. Cen, even if you have completed 1 and 2 (have you really?) those realities to him are super fresh. It takes YEARS to recover from an A.
If 1 and 2 were just done in the last few days, it is going to take time for him to believe that you are going to follow through on these and not slide.
It takes months if not years to master POJA, PORH, and becoming an expert at meeting EN's.
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
If you have completed the first 2, and are working on the 3rd, then you are giving him Just Compensation now.
What are you doing to work on the 3rd? How much UA are you getting? How many dates do the 2 of you go on? Doing what? What EN are you meeting? How is POJA and PORH going? Have you eliminated your lovebusters? If no, what are you doing to eliminate them?
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
Working with your BS to brainstorm ideas for mutually enjoyable UA time - and it needs to be 20+ hours a week.
And then, you need to follow through on that UA time.
You should also be respectfully communicating your Emotional Needs, and letting him know about his Love Busters.
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
If you have completed the first 2, and are working on the 3rd, then you are giving him Just Compensation now.
What are you doing to work on the 3rd? - How much UA are you getting? - How many dates do the 2 of you go on? Doing what? What EN are you meeting? How is POJA and PORH going? Have you eliminated your lovebusters? If no, what are you doing to eliminate them?
What are you doing to work on the 3rd? - We are now reading LB together, and working most on how to handle our emotions, especially when we are upset. Making sure with each and every decision there is to be made - we are doing it as a couple and with POJA.
How much UA are you getting? - ?
How many dates do the 2 of you go on? Doing what? We try for a few a week, sometimes it's early morning - to walk the dog and get coffee, sometimes to the mall, antique markets
What EN are you meeting? Both our EN's are quite similar, our top five are the same ~ just in a slightly different order; Conversation, Recteational Companionship, Financial support, sexual fufillment and honesty and openness.
How is POJA and PORH going? We are doing well with it,
Have you eliminated your lovebusters? If no, what are you doing to eliminate them? See you first question
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders conceptts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
Remember, Mrs. Cen, even if you have completed 1 and 2 (have you really?) those realities to him are super fresh. It takes YEARS to recover from an A.
If 1 and 2 were just done in the last few days, it is going to take time for him to believe that you are going to follow through on these and not slide.
It takes months if not years to master POJA, PORH, and becoming an expert at meeting EN's.
I see what your saying, I don't have any "timeline" on how long it will take him to "recover".
I have also emailed Dr. Harley again ~ just waiting on response, another thing that was suggested in BS's thread was doing one of the online courses.
What are you doing to work on the 3rd? - We are now reading LB together, and working most on how to handle our emotions, especially when we are upset. Making sure with each and every decision there is to be made - we are doing it as a couple and with POJA.
What do you do when one of you is not enthusiastic about something?
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How much UA are you getting? - ?
This is a big problem. Marriage Builders will not work without UA, and it is vital that you get enough hours of UA. As HHH said above, you two need a minimum of 20 hours a week together. You need to start scheduling your time together and tracking your time together to insure you are getting the time in.
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How many dates do the 2 of you go on? Doing what? We try for a few a week, sometimes it's early morning - to walk the dog and get coffee, sometimes to the mall, antique markets
Do you both enjoy these activities? Your dates need to concentrate on the 4 intimate Emotional Needs: Intimate Conversation, Recreational Companionship, Affection and Sexual Fulfillment. Are the two of you concentrating on these, and are they enjoyable?
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How is POJA and PORH going? We are doing well with it
I have seen some problems between you two with PORH. Both of you tend to react very negatively when the other is honest. Is that improving?
You both also tend to have Independant Behavior, especially when you are upset, instead of following POJA. Is that improving?
another thing that was suggested in BS's thread was doing one of the online courses.
I STRONGLY suggest this for you. Markos and I did the online course. We were given a coach to help guide us, and we had direct access to Dr. Harley on the private forum. It was the best investment we have ever made for our marriage.
What are you doing to work on the 3rd? - We are now reading LB together, and working most on how to handle our emotions, especially when we are upset. Making sure with each and every decision there is to be made - we are doing it as a couple and with POJA.
What do you do when one of you is not enthusiastic about something?
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How much UA are you getting? - ?
This is a big problem. Marriage Builders will not work without UA, and it is vital that you get enough hours of UA. As HHH said above, you two need a minimum of 20 hours a week together. You need to start scheduling your time together and tracking your time together to insure you are getting the time in.
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How many dates do the 2 of you go on? Doing what? We try for a few a week, sometimes it's early morning - to walk the dog and get coffee, sometimes to the mall, antique markets
Do you both enjoy these activities? Your dates need to concentrate on the 4 intimate Emotional Needs: Intimate Conversation, Recreational Companionship, Affection and Sexual Fulfillment. Are the two of you concentrating on these, and are they enjoyable?
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How is POJA and PORH going? We are doing well with it
I have seen some problems between you two with PORH. Both of you tend to react very negatively when the other is honest. Is that improving?
You both also tend to have Independant Behavior, especially when you are upset, instead of following POJA. Is that improving?
What do you do when one of you is not enthusiastic about something? We don't do it, or we find a way that is agreeable to joth of us.
Do you both enjoy these activities? Yes! things I NEVER thought BS would like to do with me OR be interested in he does - farmers markets and antique markets for example.
How is POJA and PORH going? POJA is going well, we are finding it coming easier and easier - things we never would have thought to ask the other, we do now, "would you like to go to my sisters on the weekend?" Instead of "we were invited and we're going"
You both also tend to have Independant Behavior, especially when you are upset, instead of following POJA. Is that improving? That part IS going well, I believe the LB's influence us to display the independant behaviour, it is something that we both recognize and are working on.
You need to start scheduling your time together and tracking your time together to insure you are getting the time in. We are not keeping track of our time, I will suggest we get a little book to start this though.
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
We can explain what JC is, but that doesn't tell you exactly what he means. This is where POJA and the PORH come in. You and he need to have a *safe* discussion about this. No fighting, no disrespect, just what do we need to do, and how well are we doing at getting there.
1. Ending all contact with the affair partner for life Examples: NC letter, phone number changed, email changed ...
2. Removing the conditions that led to the affair (Extraordinary Precautions). Examples: Facebook shutdown, Radical Honesty (no secret second life), job change, no more nights apart ...
3. Creating a romantic relationship using Marriage Builders concepts. Examples: Eliminate Lovebusters, POJA, PORH, meet EN, UA time each week ...
If the first two have been completed, and we are supposed to be working on the third but BS has said "Just Compensation NOW or we are finished" what else should I be doing?
We can explain what JC is, but that doesn't tell you exactly what he means. This is where POJA and the PORH come in. You and he need to have a *safe* discussion about this. No fighting, no disrespect, just what do we need to do, and how well are we doing at getting there.
BS said today that its "my job to figure it out, he's done with it now" I did ask what else I could do, what else does he need and he won't answer.
Have you asked your BH what he needs from you? What you can do for him?
I haven't read them, but will do so. I have asked BS but he says we aren't supposed to talk about it, so there is Nothing I can do, he says he just has to "deal with it".
I have asked BS but he says we aren't supposed to talk about it, so there is Nothing I can do
Don't press him. What you CAN do is concentrate on following the program: UA, elimination of Lovebusters, POJA and PORH.
Exactly.
What Love Busters are you guilty of? What are you doing to eliminate them?
I've been guilty of all 6 of them at some point. Right now, I think the one I'm most guilty of is Angry Outbursts - how I'm trying to eleminate them, is to follow Dr. Harley's advice and create a short-circuit habit (right now it's just stopping whatever I'm doing and walking away)
Whenever a couple is not feeling "in love", or if R is bumping along harder than it needs to, it's almost always a shortage of UA time. Even now, if AJ and I begin to feel less connected to each other, it's a fast indicator that we're not getting our UA time in. And as soon as the UA time increases, (an action), the good feelings follow.
You don't need to leave home for 20+ hours a week, or go on that many dates. The point is that you're paying attention to each other, and some of the best UA time occurs in private, anyway.
While continuing all the good things you're already doing, spend your UA making positive memories and associations with each other. That should make an improvement in your R. It's hard enough without making it even harder.
Whenever a couple is not feeling "in love", or if R is bumping along harder than it needs to, it's almost always a shortage of UA time. Even now, if AJ and I begin to feel less connected to each other, it's a fast indicator that we're not getting our UA time in. And as soon as the UA time increases, (an action), the good feelings follow.
You don't need to leave home for 20+ hours a week, or go on that many dates. The point is that you're paying attention to each other, and some of the best UA time occurs in private, anyway.
While continuing all the good things you're already doing, spend your UA making positive memories and associations with each other. That should make an improvement in your R. It's hard enough without making it even harder.
Prisca suggested UA time as well and to keep track of it, if we don't have to leave the house, we are getting a bit more time then, after supper we get our coffee and sit out on the balcony together talking and just being together (for example)
Also make sure you're focusing on his top 3 needs. You should be meeting his top 3 all the time, and the top 5 most of the time. Do you know what his top 3 are? Chances are good that Admiration, SF, and RC are some of the important ones. Whatever they are, make a habit of checking off his top 3 every single day. Something like Admiration you can meet several times a day.
The biggest thing I've learned so far from those clips is - "I" have a choice to become angry. I always figured it was whomever made you angry was the one responsible for your anger. Also, Dr.H talks about what to do if you CAN'T get out of a situation that you feel is making you angry - (which is also what I read in the LB book) creating a way to reduce the adrenalin to reduce the anger - another "short-circuit" habit if you will. Which is what I'm working on.
Haven't spoken to BS about the online program ~ will wait until he is home from work.
The biggest thing I've learned so far from those clips is - "I" have a choice to become angry. I always figured it was whomever made you angry was the one responsible for your anger. Also, Dr.H talks about what to do if you CAN'T get out of a situation that you feel is making you angry - (which is also what I read in the LB book) creating a way to reduce the adrenalin to reduce the anger - another "short-circuit" habit if you will. Which is what I'm working on.
Haven't spoken to BS about the online program ~ will wait until he is home from work.
Good job.
That's the biggest lesson I learned also. I'm responsible for my own actions. We can't control others only ourselves.
Whenever a couple is not feeling "in love", or if R is bumping along harder than it needs to, it's almost always a shortage of UA time. Even now, if AJ and I begin to feel less connected to each other, it's a fast indicator that we're not getting our UA time in. And as soon as the UA time increases, (an action), the good feelings follow.
You don't need to leave home for 20+ hours a week, or go on that many dates. The point is that you're paying attention to each other, and some of the best UA time occurs in private, anyway.
While continuing all the good things you're already doing, spend your UA making positive memories and associations with each other. That should make an improvement in your R. It's hard enough without making it even harder.
Prisca suggested UA time as well and to keep track of it, if we don't have to leave the house, we are getting a bit more time then, after supper we get our coffee and sit out on the balcony together talking and just being together (for example)
Dr Harley has said that most of the UA time needs to be out of the house, for most couples. I think that's more true for couples with kids, than without.
DH and I have two dates out of the house and two dates in the house, but we don't have kids
Finances can be a factor, and we also live many miles away from typical "date" spots. We could drive around and look at wheat, lol. It's not that I think going out is bad, just don't limit UA time to dates. Make sure there's plenty of time behind closed doors, as well. Free and fun! (It doesn't even ALL have to be SF.)
"I'm going to disagree with those who say that UA time "must not be at home". If there's an activity you both enjoy at home where you are interacting with one another (read: probably not TV), it's UA. Here are some things we do."
We will have to disagree with you on the basis that it is usually very ineffective UA time when spent at home. It is virtually useless when a couple is not in love because there are so very many things at home that they enjoy doing so much MORE than being with their spouse.
When such a couple spends their UA time at home pretty soon they are spending no time together at all and they conclude MB does not work.
Most couples who come here attempt to pencil whip this exercise so they won't have to make any changes in their lives. They have already been spending all of their time together at home with no effect. So the goal is to get them OUT of their routines and get them out of the house.
UA time at home might work for a very FEW couples who are already in love, but even that is rare. UA time at home doesn't work for me and my H and Dr Harley has said the same about him and Joyce. It is a very bad idea, IMO, to recommend UA at home.
And Prisca
Originally Posted by Prisca
It's Dr. Harley who strongly advises couples to have UA outside the home. Markos and I have talked with Dr. Harley at length about this. The reason is because UA at home does not make the massive lovebank deposits that UA outside the house does for most couples. There are some that it will work with, but they are the very small exception.
Markos and I happen to be part of that exception. Dr. Harley seemed intrigued that it actually works for us, because in his experience it doesn't work -- that's how rare it is.
For most couples, they will find it very difficult to fill their lovebanks over the romantic threshold.
They said it better than I did.
And, we go out probably 10 - 12 hours a week now between Astronomy, walks in the evenings, dinner, shopping, driving around, etc... We spend 10 - 12 hours a week at home in UA time as well. But, we don't have kids and have more time than most parents would.
The biggest thing I've learned so far from those clips is - "I" have a choice to become angry. I always figured it was whomever made you angry was the one responsible for your anger. Also, Dr.H talks about what to do if you CAN'T get out of a situation that you feel is making you angry - (which is also what I read in the LB book) creating a way to reduce the adrenalin to reduce the anger - another "short-circuit" habit if you will. Which is what I'm working on.
Haven't spoken to BS about the online program ~ will wait until he is home from work.
We also did the Online Seminar and found it enormously helpful in recovering our marriage after my H's affair. After his affair, I was the one with a tremendous amount of anger. I blasted him quite frequently; it took working with our coach and using the tools in the MB program to help overcome that huge obstacle.
You can post your questions directly to Dr. Harley in the private forum and get his advice. Plus reading the private forum is valuable.
The cost is well worth it. Our marriage has never been like it is now, even when we were first married.
Wild horses could not pull someone away from restoring her marriage.
Perhaps if he sees effective efforts, his mind may be changed.
I'm not going to speculate about did you or did you not try. It doesn't matter what I think.
What does your BH think? What does Dr H think? If they think you've not done all you can do, then your task is to execute the plan that has the best shot and restoring your marriage.
Empirically speaking, if your husband wants to end the marriage, he's not currently convinced you are doing all you can do, or will do it.
He may be right. He may be wrong.
How you respond to this latest development determines the accuracy of his assessment.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
Thank you all for your advice and help. BS has choosen to end our marraige. He said I am "incapable and unwilling to give him what he needs".
He said I am "incapable and unwilling to give him what he needs".
Did you ask him specifics of where you are incapable and where you are unwilling?
If you haven't tread carefully on how you say it. It must come from an inquisitive attitude. One where humility and great concern are at the forefront. I am assuming, of course, that you are greatly concerned.
�RNR, I do not want this M to end. I truly want us to recover from this and build a happy, romantic M. I am sorry I haven�t done what you need to feel we�re on a path to recovery. If we sit down and build out a specific plan, maybe getting Dr Harley�s help I promise you, with your help, I will follow it to the letter. I want to show you just how capable and willing I am.�
First, I just wanted to clarify that I DO know the definition of JC, my confusion was what sort of things (other than the JC Dr.Harley suggests) should I be looking for. Thank you to those that did so - I appreciate it.
My BS has always been an extremely introverted person, he finds "talking and sharing feelings" difficult at times, through out this process he has made leaps and bounds with it but at times still closes up (fear and lack of trust with me)
We spoke during the day yesterday off and on and I now have a STRAIGHT answer on what BS's JC's are, which if I'm willing (BS words) will help him in his recovery. Also, been in contacted Dr. Harley.
My BS has always been an extremely introverted person, he finds "talking and sharing feelings" difficult at times, through out this process he has made leaps and bounds with it but at times still closes up (fear and lack of trust with me)
Mrs Cen,
Since your husband is an emotional person (as evidenced by his history of emotional outbursts - mostly ending in angry outbursts) don't worry so much about the "talking and sharing feelings" thing. He can learn to do that, but you also have to learn something else; when he shares a feeling, take it "as is," unless he relates it to a particular action;
"I don't feel safe when you leave the room with your phone."
Your job, then, is not to question his feeling or justify your action, but to cease the action which evokes a negative emotion in your husband. (Yes, Mrs Cen, he should do the same - but we will deal with what he should do on his thread).
Your actions when he does share his feelings will erode his fear and build trust, but only if those actions are safe and caring rather than defensive or disrespectful.
BS and I have been quietly reading here and reading through LB at home. We have been working diligently on NOT having AO's or LB's as well as trying to not make DJ's - we have been trying to ensure that our "discussions" remain calm and safe for both of us, it has been going well. One thing that has been particularly hard on BS is living here (in the city) he triggers easily and often has bad thoughts/memories and has told me he is in a lot of pain, I suggested a move might be be beneficial to both him and I and our marriage. Currently we live in Alberta (My ENTIRE family is here) his ENTIRE family is in Newfoundland ~ about 6350 KM away. Our thought is to go - I get on well with his parents (even after exposure) and finding work would not be difficult. I'm terrified to just "pick up and go", however I need to help BS heal and it's to hard to do that here, he has said he thinks a move will help him a lot, as the triggers (some of them) such as places, etc will be removed. Thoughts on this???
A move away from the site of the affair and D-Day can be a great new beginning for both spouses. If you are both agreeable, I would go.
Moving isn't easy, but when you get to the new place and build a whole new life in fresh surroundings, and you can both live in a place without those triggers, it can be well worth the effort it will take.
Moving Will definitely help your BH. What does he say about this?
Brain ~ he said it will help tremendous amounts, he hasn't been near his family for so long, I think it would be helpful. Newfoundland is beautiful and he will be able to hunt and fish ~ the thins he loves but can't really do here.
Moving Will definitely help your BH. What does he say about this?
Brain ~ he said it will help tremendous amounts, he hasn't been near his family for so long, I think it would be helpful. Newfoundland is beautiful and he will be able to hunt and fish ~ the thins he loves but can't really do here.
Well it sounds like you have your answer then. Since you're both enthusiastic about it then it sounds like a go.
Dr. Harley often recommends to move after an affair, especially if it is hindering recovery and the BS is still struggling.
Looks like it's a "GO", we have about three weeks to get everything tied up here - or as much as we can anyway. We would like to have our kids in school as soon as possible, they will end up late by a few days, but better late than never.
I'm hopeful that this move will aid in recovery for both of us - BS most importantly. My biggest fear is of course that "his bad feelings" won't go away - I know that recovery takes up to two years, so I don't expect it to happen over night, and complacency is NOT an option, what should I be doing (or continue to do) to ensure we continue on the right path?
Looks like it's a "GO", we have about three weeks to get everything tied up here - or as much as we can anyway. We would like to have our kids in school as soon as possible, they will end up late by a few days, but better late than never.
I'm hopeful that this move will aid in recovery for both of us - BS most importantly. My biggest fear is of course that "his bad feelings" won't go away - I know that recovery takes up to two years, so I don't expect it to happen over night, and complacency is NOT an option, what should I be doing (or continue to do) to ensure we continue on the right path?
It can take 2-5 years.
You continue to avoid Love Busters and meeting his ENs. Make sure you're getting your 15+ hrs of UA. You stay the course and keep your EPs in place and your boundaries firm.
Moving is something that Dr. Harley often recommends, and it will probably do wonders for you two!
This is the best news you have given us for quite a while, mrs_cen! Moving is an excellent idea. My wife and I moved 500 miles, and it worked wonders for us.
Yeah, it looks like we are doing it! We are just up and leaving with just our personal belongings and a prayer. We are going to live with my folks until we can get work and start a new life. This is actually my wife's idea and I am very surprised she seems to be serious about this. A couple more weeks an we will be posting from a new location.
Yeah, it looks like we are doing it! We are just up and leaving with just our personal belongings and a prayer. We are going to live with my folks until we can get work and start a new life. This is actually my wife's idea and I am very surprised she seems to be serious about this. A couple more weeks an we will be posting from a new location.
Excellent! Work hard to make this a fresh new start. You will find moving to be a great opportunity for exercising POJA skills.
Yeah, it looks like we are doing it! We are just up and leaving with just our personal belongings and a prayer. We are going to live with my folks until we can get work and start a new life. This is actually my wife's idea and I am very surprised she seems to be serious about this. A couple more weeks an we will be posting from a new location.
Excellent! Work hard to make this a fresh new start. You will find moving to be a great opportunity for exercising POJA skills.
This will be so good for your Marriage RNR. Like mrEureka mentions, use this time to work on your POJA.
Brain; There was never any mention on my part as to me not moving, I did NOT return my ticket, nor did I return our daughter's ticket.
Since the decision to move was made, I've been struggling with leaving my oldest son (BS's step-son) behind. He has special needs, and at this time moving him 6500km is not an option, his doctors are here, his school is here, the few friends he's made are here, his biological father and paternal grandparents are here as well as my parents (yes, I do realize that there are physician's and schools in NL, and that he can make new friends, however, he doesn't want to go and it is in my opinion as well as that of his doctor that it would be more detrimental to him and how far we've got him at this time to uproot) BS, felt that those feelings were me saying no, and took it upon himself to suggest I was not going ~ this informing his entire family of my "failure to complete JC" etc.
Mr. Eureka asked on BS's thread "was this a result of another fight?" The answer is YES, the closer we get to moving the more AO BS has been having, he acknowledges them and is apologetic - after the fact, but I find it hard, as I never know when they are coming, things can be fine one minute, then the next I get a text message that would make a sailor blush.
I did email Dr. Harley, and Joyce actually called me last week ~ I called back and am waiting to hear back from her.
Brain; There was never any mention on my part as to me not moving, I did NOT return my ticket, nor did I return our daughter's ticket.
Since the decision to move was made, I've been struggling with leaving my oldest son (BS's step-son) behind. He has special needs, and at this time moving him 6500km is not an option, his doctors are here, his school is here, the few friends he's made are here, his biological father and paternal grandparents are here as well as my parents (yes, I do realize that there are physician's and schools in NL, and that he can make new friends, however, he doesn't want to go and it is in my opinion as well as that of his doctor that it would be more detrimental to him and how far we've got him at this time to uproot) BS, felt that those feelings were me saying no, and took it upon himself to suggest I was not going ~ this informing his entire family of my "failure to complete JC" etc.
Mr. Eureka asked on BS's thread "was this a result of another fight?" The answer is YES, the closer we get to moving the more AO BS has been having, he acknowledges them and is apologetic - after the fact, but I find it hard, as I never know when they are coming, things can be fine one minute, then the next I get a text message that would make a sailor blush.
I did email Dr. Harley, and Joyce actually called me last week ~ I called back and am waiting to hear back from her.
Have you any idea what made him think you had returned the tickets? That's such an odd thing to say so positively if it wasn't true.
Was the plan that, when you did move, you would you leave your son behind? Had that been agreed upon? Was that a reluctant agreement by you, if so? If your son is happy to stay where you are and has his father and grandparents to look after him, do those things reassure you? Would you be happy if your son came to stay with you in his school holidays? How old is he?
Alternatively, would you be willing to give moving (leaving your son behind) a try, retaining the option to move back after, say, one year? (Is it that house that RNR feels triggered by, or the local area, or the whole province? Is it that he wants to get away from the area, or that he wants to be near his family?) Are you trying to brainstorm and negotiate the options, as you should be doing?
What's going on at home today? I do hope you are not fighting and that you are able to discuss this.
Brain; There was never any mention on my part as to me not moving, I did NOT return my ticket, nor did I return our daughter's ticket.
Since the decision to move was made, I've been struggling with leaving my oldest son (BS's step-son) behind. He has special needs, and at this time moving him 6500km is not an option, his doctors are here, his school is here, the few friends he's made are here, his biological father and paternal grandparents are here as well as my parents (yes, I do realize that there are physician's and schools in NL, and that he can make new friends, however, he doesn't want to go and it is in my opinion as well as that of his doctor that it would be more detrimental to him and how far we've got him at this time to uproot) BS, felt that those feelings were me saying no, and took it upon himself to suggest I was not going ~ this informing his entire family of my "failure to complete JC" etc.
Mr. Eureka asked on BS's thread "was this a result of another fight?" The answer is YES, the closer we get to moving the more AO BS has been having, he acknowledges them and is apologetic - after the fact, but I find it hard, as I never know when they are coming, things can be fine one minute, then the next I get a text message that would make a sailor blush.
I did email Dr. Harley, and Joyce actually called me last week ~ I called back and am waiting to hear back from her.
Have you any idea what made him think you had returned the tickets? That's such an odd thing to say so positively if it wasn't true.
Was the plan that, when you did move, you would you leave your son behind? Had that been agreed upon? Was that a reluctant agreement by you,
There really was no "plan" of sorts, I just assumed he would come
if so? If your son is happy to stay where you are and has his father and grandparents to look after him, do those things reassure you?
I am most definitely reassured he would be cares for and supported by those who love him
Would you be happy if your son came to stay with you in his school holidays? How old is he?
As it stands, he's to come out at Christmas and spend his summer vacations with us
Alternatively, would you be willing to give moving (leaving your son behind) a try, retaining the option to move back after, say, one year? (Is it that house that RNR feels triggered by, or the local area, or the whole province? Is it that he wants to get away from the area, or that he wants to be near his family?) Are you trying to brainstorm and negotiate the options, as you should be doing?
it's the whole city that bothers him, the triggers are not just the home, but all around the city
What's going on at home today? I do hope you are not fighting and that you are able to discuss this. There is no fighting, but there is no communication either.
As it stands, he's to come out at Christmas and spend his summer vacations with us
DoI understand you correctly, mrs_cen - it is your son who is planned to come out at Christmas and spend his summer vacations with you, not your H? There was no talk about you and RNR living in separate cities?
As it stands, he's to come out at Christmas and spend his summer vacations with us
DoI understand you correctly, mrs_cen - it is your son who is planned to come out at Christmas and spend his summer vacations with you, not your H? There was no talk about you and RNR living in separate cities?
There is no fighting, but there is no communication either.
If you want to undo this stalemate then you need to talk to him and try and explain the misunderstanding, if that's what it was.
How did he go from hearing "I'm worried about leaving my son behind" to believing that you cashed in the plane tickets? Have you discussed your (very understandable) anxiety about your son before? Haven't you explored the pros and cons of taking him and leaving him already? Didn't your anxieties come up in those discussions?
Have you been fighting since the agreement to move? Please explain how you came to this impasse. It surely didn't come out of nowhere.
There is no fighting, but there is no communication either.
If you want to undo this stalemate then you need to talk to him and try and explain the misunderstanding, if that's what it was.
How did he go from hearing "I'm worried about leaving my son behind" to believing that you cashed in the plane tickets? Have you discussed your (very understandable) anxiety about your son before? Haven't you explored the pros and cons of taking him and leaving him already? Didn't your anxieties come up in those discussions?
Have you been fighting since the agreement to move? Please explain how you came to this impasse. It surely didn't come out of nowhere.
We have discussed my anxiety with leaving him, BS just repeats over and over that we can't force him to move and that he will be fine here, we have also discussed taking him, BS feels it would be good, but I feel it would do more harm then good, thus the decision to leave him. We've been fighting since we bought the tickets ~ now that we actually have them, my anxiety has increased and I've expressed more my worry about it to him, wondering if I'm doing the right thing, is DS going to resent me for leaving etc. BS see's that as me wanting to back out of the move.
We have discussed my anxiety with leaving him, BS just repeats over and over that we can't force him to move and that he will be fine here, we have also discussed taking him, BS feels it would be good, but I feel it would do more harm then good, thus the decision to leave him. We've been fighting since we bought the tickets ~ now that we actually have them, my anxiety has increased and I've expressed more my worry about it to him, wondering if I'm doing the right thing, is DS going to resent me for leaving etc. BS see's that as me wanting to back out of the move.
Have you come to a conclusion in your own mind on the question of leaving your son? BTW, I suggest that if he says that he is happy to stay, you should not dwell on the issue of future resentment.
How old is he? For how long will he get the support services he gets now? How long will it be until he leaves school, so that he can perhaps move to your area, if he wants to, then?
Is there anything you can offer in negotiation to RNR, such as I suggested earlier?
We have discussed my anxiety with leaving him, BS just repeats over and over that we can't force him to move and that he will be fine here, we have also discussed taking him, BS feels it would be good, but I feel it would do more harm then good, thus the decision to leave him. We've been fighting since we bought the tickets ~ now that we actually have them, my anxiety has increased and I've expressed more my worry about it to him, wondering if I'm doing the right thing, is DS going to resent me for leaving etc. BS see's that as me wanting to back out of the move.
Have you come to a conclusion in your own mind on the question of leaving your son? BTW, I suggest that if he says that he is happy tto stay, you should not dwell on the issue of future resentment.
How old is he? For how long will he get the support services he gets now? How long will it be until he leaves school, so that he can perhaps move to your area, if he wants to, then?
Is there anything you can offer in negotiation to RNR, such as I suggested earlier?
He just turned 14, he will need/have some kind of support for the rest of his life. He (DS) is very close to my parents, this is where he'll stay ~ I don't imagine him ever wanting to move, BUT there's always a chance. I've asked BS, he's said I can always come back, BUT I will be coming alone, he's not ever going to come back.
There is no fighting, but there is no communication either.
If you want to undo this stalemate then you need to talk to him and try and explain the misunderstanding, if that's what it was.
How did he go from hearing "I'm worried about leaving my son behind" to believing that you cashed in the plane tickets? Have you discussed your (very understandable) anxiety about your son before? Haven't you explored the pros and cons of taking him and leaving him already? Didn't your anxieties come up in those discussions?
Have you been fighting since the agreement to move? Please explain how you came to this impasse. It surely didn't come out of nowhere.
We have discussed my anxiety with leaving him, BS just repeats over and over that we can't force him to move and that he will be fine here, we have also discussed taking him, BS feels it would be good, but I feel it would do more harm then good, thus the decision to leave him.
Going later might be an option that would make it easier on your son and might be something you and your husband would both like.
I will tell you what I told your husband: when you guys fight you say all kinds of things that are over the top and blow what the other said out of proportion. But when you are calm, you are rational, you are able to save your problems together.
The biggest problem you guys have is you need to learn to STOP FIGHTING. It doesn't help any problem to drop a nuclear bomb on top of it and turn it into a nuclear wasteland.
I will tell you what I told your husband: when you guys fight you say all kinds of things that are over the top and blow what the other said out of proportion. But when you are calm, you are rational, you are able to save your problems together.
The biggest problem you guys have is you need to learn to STOP FIGHTING. It doesn't help any problem to drop a nuclear bomb on top of it and turn it into a nuclear wasteland.
Whole heartledley agree Markos, as I told Mrs. Harley - it's something we both struggle with.
I listened to your radio programme and found it most interesting.
Would you mind summing up the advice that Dr Harley gave you? Has your H heard the programme? Does he agree with your analysis of the advice you were given? Have the two of you decided to take the advice and work through each of the solutions systematically?
Are you and your H talking now, and creating a pleasant atmosphere between you?
I would be grateful if you could answer my questions about your son and his father.
He has heard most of the program, he is not happy with the advice regarding the car ~ he feels its to much of a "coincidence", that possibly I planned to give the car to the OM and follow that up with an affair 8 years later. I am willing to work through the solutions, but with BS stuck on the JC in regards to the car, it seems unsurpassable. I had a chance to speak to Dr. Harley before the program and he was able to help me put things into perspective a bit better.
My son is from a previous marraige that ended when I was 23, it was less then a year, we got married because I was pregnant, we divorced because we never should have been married. There was no "underlying" cause to the dissolution o the marriage other than we decided we were not compatible.
He has heard most of the program, he is not happy with the advice regarding the car ~ he feels its to much of a "coincidence", that possibly I planned to give the car to the OM and follow that up with an affair 8 years later. I am willing to work through the solutions, but with BS stuck on the JC in regards to the car, it seems unsurpassable. I had a chance to speak to Dr. Harley before the program and he was able to help me put things into perspective a bit better.
My son is from a previous marraige that ended when I was 23, it was less then a year, we got married because I was pregnant, we divorced because we never should have been married. There was no "underlying" cause to the dissolution o the marriage other than we decided we were not compatible.
Thank you for responding. It's a pity that your H did not speak to Dr H when he had the chance, because a direct conversation with him would have been of great benefit. Your H is not very clear on the difference between what is good for the marriage and you two jointly. i.e. Just Compensation, and his need to make you pay for having your affair. I worry that his refusal to at least try to take on Dr H's advice means that he will not work through the problems in the marriage and he will continue to put pressure on you, including the use of anger, to make you do what he wants you to do, even if that is unpleasant to you. The marriage can't survive that treatment.
When you say that he is stuck on the issue of the car, is he insisting that you do what he wants, even after the radio show? The best thing would be for you to simply put that issue aside and proceed with the rest of Dr H's advice.
Are you (jointly) still planning to move?
What are his plans for an anger management course?
Did you meet RNR before you were divorced from your last H?
He has not said much since listening, other than to reiterate the "coincidence" and that it will plague him for a long time, whether it not he will follow Dr.Harley's advice, I'm not sure.
The move is still a go ~ we are set to leave one week from tomorrow. He plans to look into anger management once we are setteled in NL. I did not meet BS until 5 years after the divorce.
He has not said much since listening, other than to reiterate the "coincidence" and that it will plague him for a long time, whether it not he will follow Dr.Harley's advice, I'm not sure.
The move is still a go ~ we are set to leave one week from tomorrow. He plans to look into anger management once we are setteled in NL. I did not meet BS until 5 years after the divorce.
So are you enthusiastic about the move? And your DS14 staying with your parents?
He has not said much since listening, other than to reiterate the "coincidence" and that it will plague him for a long time
I'm not sure you can do anything about those feelings for now. They are understandable and mixed up with his understandable feelings of resentment about the affair. If I were to find out today that my H did something favourable for OW and then had his affair with her years later, I would have difficulty digesting this for a while.
I suggest that you just leave the topic alone, whatever he says about "coincidence". There is nothing you can or should do about it now. The plan is to move and then work on your current and future behaviours in your marriage, especially your joint problem of angry outbursts. The move will change the atmosphere a lot, as Dr H said, and will probably do more than anything else to diminish your H's feelings of resentment.
When the Harleys moved to Minnesota, Dr. Harley told Joyce they could move back anytime she wasn't enthusiastic anymore.
I don't know if you heard the programme or would agree with my summary, Brainy, but it was my understanding that Dr H advised mrs_cen to move back to her parents and her son, alone in all probability, if her H did not work on the marriage and continue to see JC as equalling punishment for her affair.
When the Harleys moved to Minnesota, Dr. Harley told Joyce they could move back anytime she wasn't enthusiastic anymore.
I don't know if you heard the programme or would agree with my summary, Brainy, but it was my understanding that Dr H advised mrs_cen to move back to her parents and her son, alone in all probability, if her H did not work on the marriage and continue to see JC as equalling punishment for her affair.
Yes I totally agree with your summary. If after the move he is still having problems then I agree with Dr. H that she should move back.
I am enthusiastic BUT terrified about the move. Leaving DS14 is something that is going to weigh on me, but I have every confidence that he will be just fine with my parents, we've talked about havin him come out and visit, he is in agreement with that, so I do feel better.
BS has always said, I can come back at anytime, that he will bring me back if I feel it's not working. I will leave the topic of the car alone and focus on the move right now.
Just to clarify - BS didn't "refuse" to come on the show, his work schedule did not permit him that time.
mrs_cen, my understanding of Dr H's advice was that he was not at all impressed with your H's attitude to working on the marriage, and he was concerned for how he might be treating you. (He said something along the lines that if your H thought that he - Dr H - was speaking wrongly about him, then your H should contact him.)
He wasn't painting you as the angel. You had the affair, and you admitted to also having angry outbursts still today. The difference seems to be that you contacted Dr H for advice (twice now), and you went through with being on the show, whereas your H seems to have sacked off with no excuse or apology. You seem to be serious about wanting to help your H and your marriage to recover. You want to move to accomplish this, even though it means moving a huge distance away from your son and parents.
Your H hasn't followed through with anger management training, he resents Dr H's advice and is still letting his anger and resentment drive him.
That difference is why (I think) Dr H advised you to move back if this isn't working after about a year. Not perfect in a year, but it must be improving.
I am enthusiastic BUT terrified about the move. Leaving DS14 is something that is going to weigh on me, but I have every confidence that he will be just fine with my parents, we've talked about havin him come out and visit, he is in agreement with that, so I do feel better.
BS has always said, I can come back at anytime, that he will bring me back if I feel it's not working. I will leave the topic of the car alone and focus on the move right now.
Just to clarify - BS didn't "refuse" to come on the show, his work schedule did not permit him that time.
Thank you for the clarification about being on the show.
I have heard Dr H say that for a boy especially, when parents are separated, his going to live with his father is actually a very good thing. (I know he will in fact be with your parents, but I gather his father will be taking an active role.) Dr H talked to me on the phone about my own teenaged son at the time of my last D Day (2011), and when I was talking about separation, he sidetracked into this issue. He wasn't recommending that my son (15 then) went to live with my H; he was more musing on the different effects of separation on boys and girls - I have one of each. He said that a boy living with his mother would most likely become more and more difficult, and it would actually be in both their interests for him to live with his father when he was in his teens.
In your case, your marriage is in such trouble, and your son possibly is an additional complication for you to juggle, given that he is RNR's stepson and has his own father in contact. Even if he gets on very well with RNR, he might not get on so well with you for a while, simply because he is a teenaged boy. Living with his father (or with his father having the major say over his care, once you are far away) will put him under an authority that you and RNR may lack. He will benefit from this. Your marriage will also benefit from having the difficult "blended family" issue removed.
Your relationship with your son will probably improve if his father is given authority over him. Please don't see this as hurting or neglecting your son.
Congratulations on pointing out your anger problem on the show. It seems you both want to attack each other instead of looking in the mirror. Hopefully your admission and solving of your AOs will break that cycle of abuse. Your show was really informative.
After 24 hours and counting of no sleep, we (BS & DD8) have made it to Newfounland. I'm a bit overwhelmed with all of it, but BS seems to have an "invisible" weight lifted. This has been a HUGE step, and I'm so very hopeful and excited about where this "adventure" will take us.
After 24 hours and counting of no sleep, we (BS & DD8) have made it to Newfounland. I'm a bit overwhelmed with all of it, but BS seems to have an "invisible" weight lifted. This has been a HUGE step, and I'm so very hopeful and excited about where this "adventure" will take us.
This is really good news, mrs_cen. Thank you for reporting back.
After 24 hours and counting of no sleep, we (BS & DD8) have made it to Newfounland. I'm a bit overwhelmed with all of it, but BS seems to have an "invisible" weight lifted. This has been a HUGE step, and I'm so very hopeful and excited about where this "adventure" will take us.
This is really good news, mrs_cen. Thank you for reporting back.
Do you have somewhere to live?
How is your son?
We are staying with BS's parents right now, in the the beginning stages of lolling for our own place. DS14 is good! We gave him an engraved bracelet with all our initials, and he wrote in a journal that he gave to me - "I will be fine and I'm sure you will to", which made me feel better, and we've got plans to either go back to AB for Christmas or get DS14 out here to us.
MrsCen, that is wonderful news! And I think your boy will be just fine with his grandparents and his dad. He needs that stability now and it will be good for him to spend his teen years with his dad.
Thanks everyone! We will also get much more "opportunity" to ensure we're getting all our UA time in ~ since "nanny & poppy" are more than thrilled to spend much awaited catch up time with DD8. I do realize that even though moving was a huge step and one of BS JC's, there I still much more work to do on my part, towards both his recovery and mine. I don't want to fall placid to recovery or do the "limp along" thing either.
We know that when someone receives news of a terminal illness for example, the person goes through different "stages" ~ grief,anger,denial,bartering etc ~ then finally acceptance. Is there such a thing for WS's? Once the "fog" has lifted (which could be considered a stage?) I'm finding that though I am excited about our new start here, I'm struggling with what I can only describe as sadness mixed with disgust. We had to leave our home, uproot our kids, leave our jobs and I was the cause of it, I did this. Getting past it seems impossible right now.
On a plus note as RNR posted, he's doing well, happy to be home and finally putting weight back on. We have joined our local gym and are exceeding our UA time, I don't think either of us knew how similar we actually are until we really began to put the effort in. BS, continues to be supportive and we have found me a new doctor here (first appointment today) he has had ZERO AO's since being home and away from his triggers etc ~ the plan is still to do the classes.
"On a plus note as RNR posted, he's doing well, happy to be home and finally putting weight back on. We have joined our local gym and are exceeding our UA time, I don't think either of us knew how similar we actually are until we really began to put the effort in."
You are similar and share similar interests. You always have your just realizing it now cause the fog is lifting. You married RNR for a lot of reasons. Glad to hear you both are doing well. God bless
People all experience grief because of affairs. Yet, unlike the kind of grief associated with death and illnesses, overcoming the grief associated with an affair does not involve understanding the grief. Rather, it involves removing the cause of grief by replacing it with a fantastic marriage full of romantic love. Dwelling on the mistakes in your past won't help you. There is nothing there that you need to accept to move on with your recovery. Instead, work on overcoming those mistakes by making the present as good as it can be. The really good news is that you and RNR are well on your way to doing just that. Keep up the good work!
My H and I don't talk about it much anymore (D-Day was almost 3 years ago,) but he has told me he still feels a deep regret over what he did to our marriage, and to me. However, as our marriage continues to deepen, and he shows me over and over again that he deeply cares for and loves me, he is feeling better. And so am I.
You may retain a sense of regret over your actions for years to come but the disgust you feel now will soften and eventually dissipate as your marriage becomes fulfilling and you live out a great marriage with your H.
As a WS who also moved, I know what you're feeling. I had a tremendous amount of guilt to work through. We had been planning to move eventually, but my affair put everything on speed dial. I HAD to start anew somewhere else. Even though the person I had the affair with never contacted me after the affair ended, I kept worrying that he would. Or that I would run into him. It was bad enough that people who didn't know about the affair and thought the two of us were "just friends" kept talking about him (we did not do complete exposure). Not long after moving to our new location, I was walking down the street and suddenly realized how completely safe I felt. What a wonderful feeling!
As a WS who also moved, I know what you're feeling. I had a tremendous amount of guilt to work through. We had been planning to move eventually, but my affair put everything on speed dial. I HAD to start anew somewhere else. Even though the person I had the affair with never contacted me after the affair ended, I kept worrying that he would. Or that I would run into him. It was bad enough that people who didn't know about the affair and thought the two of us were "just friends" kept talking about him (we did not do complete exposure). Not long after moving to our new location, I was walking down the street and suddenly realized how completely safe I felt. What a wonderful feeling!
And mrs.cen, mrandmrs.Eureka and LongWayFromHome are such fantastic MB recovery stories.
As a WS who also moved, I know what you're feeling. I had a tremendous amount of guilt to work through. We had been planning to move eventually, but my affair put everything on speed dial. I HAD to start anew somewhere else. Even though the person I had the affair with never contacted me after the affair ended, I kept worrying that he would. Or that I would run into him. It was bad enough that people who didn't know about the affair and thought the two of us were "just friends" kept talking about him (we did not do complete exposure). Not long after moving to our new location, I was walking down the street and suddenly realized how completely safe I felt. What a wonderful feeling!
And mrs.cen, mrandmrs.Eureka and LongWayFromHome are such fantastic MB recovery stories.
As a WS who also moved, I know what you're feeling. I had a tremendous amount of guilt to work through. We had been planning to move eventually, but my affair put everything on speed dial. I HAD to start anew somewhere else. Even though the person I had the affair with never contacted me after the affair ended, I kept worrying that he would. Or that I would run into him. It was bad enough that people who didn't know about the affair and thought the two of us were "just friends" kept talking about him (we did not do complete exposure). Not long after moving to our new location, I was walking down the street and suddenly realized how completely safe I felt. What a wonderful feeling!
May I ask if you moved anywhere near your BS's family? Or did you just move somewhere completely away from everyone familiar? ~ My BS was born and raised in NL, and that's where his ENTIRE family is, I was born an raised in AB, and that's where my entire family is. BS came to AB to work and that's where we met, it's also where my A happened. We always planned on eventually moving to NL, I wanted to be near the ocean etc, we just hadn't planned on going so quickly or so soon. He exposed to both our families - so both sides were/are well aware of what's happened, and since we've been here, they have been nothing but kind to me (his father especially) I struggle now with what I "think" they are all saying behind my back, I have no proff of anything, it's just what's in my own head, but I shy away from being aroun them all in one big group ~ for eg. His nephew turned one last week and his sister had a party - I didn't want to go, but BS wanted me to, so we agreed we would go, but only for an hour (which to me was "doable") not everyone was even there, but I was so uncomfortable, his brother and brother-in-law didn't speak to me at all, his cousin barely acknowledged me ~ perhaps I'm expecting to much? Perhaps I'm over analyzing to much?
We did not move anywhere near anyone, actually. I have to admit that neither one of us is that close to our extended family since both sets of parents have died. We have not told everyone in our extended familes about my affair; just my sister, who was a tremendous help to both of us, and eventually a couple other siblings. My husband's sister and husband visited us recently and the sister knew about the affair and I was a bit uneasy about seeing her but all went well. I guess it helps that my husband and I are so obviously very much in love with each other. People tease us all the time about being "lovebirds". I like it! I think that our two situations differ in a lot of ways but I definitely can relate to your feelings of guilt and even paranoia. In my case, after my Discover Day, I stayed at the worksite were the bulk of the affair took place. To my knowledge, only one coworker knew of the affair because I told her about it, but I always wondered who else knew and what they were thinking. Yes, it bothered me a lot. That�s yet another reason why the move was so beneficial to me�it was far enough away that no one here knows anyone there and I can just be myself, not a WS forever, which is how I pretty much always felt where we lived before. You are doing all the right things and should just accept that some of your family members may behave a little awkwardly for awhile. I am sure this will pass quickly. After all, what happened impacted you and your husband the most, not them. Since the two of you are still together, they need to be happy for you, not judgmental.
Yes. The awkwardness will fade with time. Focus on "the now" and "building a new future." Focus on the kindness they show you, and don't assume they are talking about you behind your back. Remember, it is GOOD that they know.
Yes. The awkwardness will fade with time. Focus on "the now" and "building a new future." Focus on the kindness they show you, and don't assume they are talking about you behind your back. Remember, it is GOOD that they know.
The awkwardness will fade with time.
I will focus on the "kindness" ~ his cousin actually called to invite our DD8 to her DD's b-day party, and this past weekend DD8 spent Sat evening with her cousins (BS's sister).
On another note - some of the vets may remember BS wanting me to take a poly - which I agreed to, went so far as to book it myself, but due to shortage of funds at he time BS wanted to wait, so here we are now and he's not brought it up again, I looked into finding an examiner here in our new home, found out some info and casually brought it up this morning, BS is of course still in agreement and I believe still would like it done, but the cost is just not in our budget - especially at this time. I don't know if I should just "leave it alone", save for it, or wait for him to initiate it?? I do NOT want BS to think or feel I am being complacent in our recovery, it was an important JC to him so I want him to know that it's still important to me as well, and that I haven't and I'm not just "forgetting" about it. Thoughts??
On another note - some of the vets may remember BS wanting me to take a poly - which I agreed to, went so far as to book it myself, but due to shortage of funds at he time BS wanted to wait, so here we are now and he's not brought it up again, I looked into finding an examiner here in our new home, found out some info and casually brought it up this morning, BS is of course still in agreement and I believe still would like it done, but the cost is just not in our budget - especially at this time. I don't know if I should just "leave it alone", save for it, or wait for him to initiate it?? I do NOT want BS to think or feel I am being complacent in our recovery, it was an important JC to him so I want him to know that it's still important to me as well, and that I haven't and I'm not just "forgetting" about it. Thoughts??
If it is an important JC to him, I would go out of my way to lead the charge on the poly. Suggest ideas of how you can afford it... Can you sell somethiing? Can you take on an odd job? The poly could be a real watershed moment for you both....
BH and I have been in NL now for three weeks and have had NO luck in finding work, we've gone so far as to apply for things we're over qualified for an still NOTHING. We are down to our last bit of savings. We have been talking about BS going back to Alberta (but in a camp situation) to work the rigs for the winter, - enough to get us really setteled and enough to put him through school here, so that he wouldn't have to do rig work anymore. His hitch would be 4 weeks away, two weeks home. We have tentatively got a "plan" on how to keep "connected" to each other while he's away. BH said he heard a radio program of Dr. Harley's saying it was "ok" until you get out of debt etc and then you get OUT.???
Brain can you find/recall that show at all?
Not sure if it's a good idea for us, bein so fresh in recovery.
BH and I have been in NL now for three weeks and have had NO luck in finding work, we've gone so far as to apply for things we're over qualified for an still NOTHING. We are down to our last bit of savings. We have been talking about BS going back to Alberta (but in a camp situation) to work the rigs for the winter, - enough to get us really setteled and enough to put him through school here, so that he wouldn't have to do rig work anymore. His hitch would be 4 weeks away, two weeks home. We have tentatively got a "plan" on how to keep "connected" to each other while he's away. BH said he heard a radio program of Dr. Harley's saying it was "ok" until you get out of debt etc and then you get OUT.???
Brain can you find/recall that show at all?
Not sure if it's a good idea for us, bein so fresh in recovery.
Why not email the Harleys and ask your question on the radio?
BH and I have been in NL now for three weeks and have had NO luck in finding work, we've gone so far as to apply for things we're over qualified for an still NOTHING. We are down to our last bit of savings. We have been talking about BS going back to Alberta (but in a camp situation) to work the rigs for the winter, - enough to get us really setteled and enough to put him through school here, so that he wouldn't have to do rig work anymore. His hitch would be 4 weeks away, two weeks home. We have tentatively got a "plan" on how to keep "connected" to each other while he's away. BH said he heard a radio program of Dr. Harley's saying it was "ok" until you get out of debt etc and then you get OUT.???
Brain can you find/recall that show at all?
Not sure if it's a good idea for us, bein so fresh in recovery.
Why not email the Harleys and ask your question on the radio?
My first radio show was about being apart, DH was on the road at the time, and what I took from that was we may maintain our current level but wouldn't be able to improve our relationship while he was on the road.
I agree 100% with what Dr Harley advised and while we did manage to make some improvements we also changed our situation - I spent at least 1 night a week with him on the road, I took vacation and went with him sometimes and flew home mid week, we weren't apart as much after that phone call until he came off the road in January.
With BH type of work - I would not be able to be with him, while he's away ( he would be in a "closed" camp). We are both still applying for jobs - ANY kind at this point, we will wait to hear back from Dr. Harley before making any decisions, and we will do nothing without both of us following POJA. My fear is of course that being apart will "backslide" us, and since he's been home and we've been able to begin to rebuild our relationship and our marriage, I'm not sure if it's wise for him to go.
With BH type of work - I would not be able to be with him, while he's away ( he would be in a "closed" camp). We are both still applying for jobs - ANY kind at this point, we will wait to hear back from Dr. Harley before making any decisions, and we will do nothing without both of us following POJA. My fear is of course that being apart will "backslide" us, and since he's been home and we've been able to begin to rebuild our relationship and our marriage, I'm not sure if it's wise for him to go.
I can tell you what Dr. H told me and my wife; don't separate overnight. Your recovery is too fragile at this point. Redouble your efforts to find work, and find something that will enable you two to be together every night. I know it isn't easy, but that is what you need to do.
My fear is of course that being apart will "backslide" us, and since he's been home and we've been able to begin to rebuild our relationship and our marriage, I'm not sure if it's wise for him to go.
No, it's not wise at all. Being separated overnight is one of the conditions that lead to your affair. Don't do it.
I did email the Harley's, twice now, and with them being so incredibly busy I haven't heard anything (it's been about a month) That being said DH has not had luck finding work of any kind here, and will be heading back to AB to work, the beginning of November, for what sounds like a two week on one week off rotation.
I did email the Harley's, twice now, and with them being so incredibly busy I haven't heard anything (it's been about a month) That being said DH has not had luck finding work of any kind here, and will be heading back to AB to work, the beginning of November, for what sounds like a two week on one week off rotation.
I did email the Harley's, twice now, and with them being so incredibly busy I haven't heard anything (it's been about a month) That being said DH has not had luck finding work of any kind here, and will be heading back to AB to work, the beginning of November, for what sounds like a two week on one week off rotation.
I don't want to sound disrespectful in suggesting that the two of you are not trying hard enough to avoid nights apart. It is an unfortunate consequence of your situation that it comes down to such a poor set of options. My advice is to not give up. Keep trying to work out a situation where nights apart never happen. Even if this separation ends up happening, don't take it as a surrender of no nights apart from then on. Keep on working the problem until you succeed. It really is that important to your marriage.
I did email the Harley's, twice now, and with them being so incredibly busy I haven't heard anything (it's been about a month) That being said DH has not had luck finding work of any kind here, and will be heading back to AB to work, the beginning of November, for what sounds like a two week on one week off rotation.
I don't want to sound disrespectful in suggesting that the two of you are not trying hard enough to avoid nights apart. It is an unfortunate consequence of your situation that it comes down to such a poor set of options. My advice is to not give up. Keep trying to work out a situation where nights apart never happen. Even if this separation ends up happening, don't take it as a surrender of no nights apart from then on. Keep on working the problem until you succeed. It really is that important to your marriage.
No decision has been finalized, we certainly have not and will not just "give up", we have both worked to hard and come to far for that to happen. Another option, that we've "come up with" is RNR, taking EI, and going back to school - which would keep him home.
For those that are new to the forum or those that haven't followed "our story", here's an update. We are now into our 16th month of recovery and just shy of our one year relocation due to my 9 week affair. If you would have asked me 16 months ago if I thought we would be where we are today, I would have said probably not. We continue to work EVERYDAY on us and our marriage, we are mindful of each other and our needs, we communicate, we laugh, we are finally FRIENDS!!!. This whole experience has humbled me, made me (us) appreciate more, put VALUE in honesty and shown me what a true "Marriage Builders" marriage is. We are still FAR from completely back to normal but I don't really think there will ever be a "back to normal" for us - that part of our marriage is gone, and we look forward to continuing to build a new "normal". Thank you MB vets for your support, guidance, 2x4's and advice ~ without you all, we would not be "here".
Thanks for the update. Your situation is an example of the benefits of moving away from the affair location. Your marriage has recovered because you took the bold steps needed to recover. Congratulations to both of you on your progress.
For those that are new to the forum or those that haven't followed "our story", here's an update. We are now into our 16th month of recovery and just shy of our one year relocation due to my 9 week affair. If you would have asked me 16 months ago if I thought we would be where we are today, I would have said probably not. We continue to work EVERYDAY on us and our marriage, we are mindful of each other and our needs, we communicate, we laugh, we are finally FRIENDS!!!. This whole experience has humbled me, made me (us) appreciate more, put VALUE in honesty and shown me what a true "Marriage Builders" marriage is. We are still FAR from completely back to normal but I don't really think there will ever be a "back to normal" for us - that part of our marriage is gone, and we look forward to continuing to build a new "normal". Thank you MB vets for your support, guidance, 2x4's and advice ~ without you all, we would not be "here".
So good to hear from you and glad to hear your fantastic update.
I just want to say about this, without thread jacking:
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
I am a former wayward spouse, I agree with the others, your BH deserves to know. My question for you is, had your POSOM felt the same way for you and had your affair not ended by him, would you have chosen your marriage?
In the book, Sue did not return to Jon out of choice, She returned because when Greg (OM) ended the affair she had nowhere else to go and was as low as she could be. However, following Dr H's advice she and Jon created a great new marriage. It isn't necessary for a WW to be repentant at first in order for the marriage to recover. What she needs to do is follow Dr H's steps to recover, and get her H on board.
I don't know where you are going with your question to that poster, but I just want to point this out.
I just want to say about this, without thread jacking:
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
I am a former wayward spouse, I agree with the others, your BH deserves to know. My question for you is, had your POSOM felt the same way for you and had your affair not ended by him, would you have chosen your marriage?
In the book, Sue did not return to Jon out of choice, She returned because when Greg (OM) ended the affair she had nowhere else to go and was as low as she could be. However, following Dr H's advice she and Jon created a great new marriage. It isn't necessary for a WW to be repentant at first in order for the marriage to recover. What she needs to do is follow Dr H's steps to recover, and get her H on board.
I don't know where you are going with your question to that poster, but I just want to point this out.
Hi Sugar!
Your absolutely right! I guess I was just wondering, because my BS had the same question for me, he felt for a long time that I was "dumped", it has of course no real real relivince, and the fact that the poster found the MB site and is looking for advice on how to save her marriage is the important part.
Today is one year "move-aversarry". DH, DD and I just got back from a two week visit "home" with my family! I haven't been back in a year. It was SOOO good to be home and see everyone ~ especially my DS (who is thriving and doing fantastic)
There seemed to be some tense moments ~ I think being back with me triggered my DH some, it's almost like I've forgotten in a way how to deal with them, I've done ok, but I found my self getting frustrated at times. I need to remind myself at times, that this whole journey has been because of ME, I need to remember that.
Hi all! Thought I'd do a "quick" update!! I'm STILL here, reading, learning and continuing the program. This February marks two years since my affair and April will be two years into our recovery. I can't believe it's been TWO years. RNR and I are doing well - we are still living in NL, he has a job that keeps him home at night and I feel like we are finally in a good place. We've talked about moving back (well I've talked) he's said he will never go back, it's been a painful reminder of what "was", but what "was" is not what "is" and that part of our lives is over, there are times still that I find myself angry but it's short lived and a gentle reminder of why we are where we are.
Hi all! Thought I'd do a "quick" update!! I'm STILL here, reading, learning and continuing the program. This February marks two years since my affair and April will be two years into our recovery. I can't believe it's been TWO years. RNR and I are doing well - we are still living in NL, he has a job that keeps him home at night and I feel like we are finally in a good place. We've talked about moving back (well I've talked) he's said he will never go back, it's been a painful reminder of what "was", but what "was" is not what "is" and that part of our lives is over, there are times still that I find myself angry but it's short lived and a gentle reminder of why we are where we are.
Thanks so much for the update and glad it's working out. That's wonderful he has a job, that doesn't take him away. How much UA time are you getting?
So, I posted back in February that we were doing well ~ we are not. We've been here in our "new home" about a year and a half, when we initially planned the move, we decided together (with Dr. Harley's advice) that if I wasn't happy we would come back, BS will not even entertain the idea, I'm terribly lonely, I miss my family, BS doesn't care, he tells me if I'm so miserable here than to go. He kept his promise to find a job that will not get cause him to be away, but it's like he's gone anyway. I don't feel connected to him at all, I feel like how things were and had been been pre-affair. It's like he's given up on making our marriage better, it's like now that we are here and we are away from where the affair happened and the bad memories are nothing else matters, we just go on day to day. I don't know what to do, I only know the feelings are bad.
What's your deadline for him to get on board with recovery? You need one.
Don't feel obligated to put up with a so-so marriage just because you were the wayward. Most BSs want a better marriage post-affair. You are only obligated to offer recovery, you are not obligated to put up with limbo.
So, I posted back in February that we were doing well ~ we are not. We've been here in our "new home" about a year and a half, when we initially planned the move, we decided together (with Dr. Harley's advice) that if I wasn't happy we would come back, BS will not even entertain the idea, I'm terribly lonely, I miss my family, BS doesn't care, he tells me if I'm so miserable here than to go. He kept his promise to find a job that will not get cause him to be away, but it's like he's gone anyway. I don't feel connected to him at all, I feel like how things were and had been been pre-affair. It's like he's given up on making our marriage better, it's like now that we are here and we are away from where the affair happened and the bad memories are nothing else matters, we just go on day to day. I don't know what to do, I only know the feelings are bad.
mrs_cen, I'm so sorry to hear this. But didn't Dr Harley advise you what to do when you were facing this situation before - when you first moved?
There's only one thing you can do if he refuses to have a marriage with you. Separate. If he wants you to stay married to him, then he needs to give you UA. UA is not optional.
Your marriage is only going to get worse if he continues to neglect you.
So, I posted back in February that we were doing well ~ we are not. We've been here in our "new home" about a year and a half, when we initially planned the move, we decided together (with Dr. Harley's advice) that if I wasn't happy we would come back, BS will not even entertain the idea, I'm terribly lonely, I miss my family, BS doesn't care, he tells me if I'm so miserable here than to go. He kept his promise to find a job that will not get cause him to be away, but it's like he's gone anyway. I don't feel connected to him at all, I feel like how things were and had been been pre-affair. It's like he's given up on making our marriage better, it's like now that we are here and we are away from where the affair happened and the bad memories are nothing else matters, we just go on day to day. I don't know what to do, I only know the feelings are bad.
mrs_cen, I'm so sorry to hear this. But didn't Dr Harley advise you what to do when you were facing this situation before - when you first moved?
No Jedi ~ not even remotely close. BS, prefers his computer and YouTube news to UA time.
This is the heart of the matter. Not where you live. 20 hours of UA time weekly is at the core of Dr. Harley's programs. In fact, he tells callers to his Radio Show to craft their career, school and parenting lives around UA time. UA time needs to be the center of a married couples life and top priority.
Have you complained about this to him?\
Can you afford coaching with Steve Harley to hopefully get your husband on board?
Here is your show segment where Dr. Harley tells you to go back home if things don't change. He also told you to keep in touch with him and let him know how things are going:
I feel like I'm going to be portrayed as "giving up", "walking away", everything always leads back to the affair. I've tried to talk to him but he says he's no different.
If I had standards, I never would have had the affair in the first place. I don't want to lose my marriage, I've worked so very hard the last 2 years to make things better, to make things right. I don't know "how" to make him see or understand that his behaviour is how it was pre affair, If I say that to him, he will say "so it's my fault you had the affair".
If I had standards, I never would have had the affair in the first place..
I didn't say HAD standards, I said HAVE standards. I don't have a time machine and neither do you, so quit hashing over an unchangeable past.
Do you HAVE standards for your marriage TODAY and are you willing to enforce them?
No more blaming inacivity on an unchangeable past.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
I don't want to lose my marriage, I've worked so very hard the last 2 years to make things better, to make things right.
You don't have a marriage. Your efforts to get one can't be undone by anyone. No one can take that away from you. Your job as a wife to hold your husband to account. To insist on marriage. What you have is not marriage.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
I don't know "how" to make him see or understand that his behaviour is how it was pre affair, If I say that to him, he will say "so it's my fault you had the affair".
You don't have to mention the A at all. It's only people who cling desperately to a relationship who try to pull the blame game.
I'm not suggesting you blame him based on old stuff, I'm suggesting you inform him of the marriage changes that need taking place today. No need to hit him over the head with lovebusters.
I don't know that a full on Plan B is needed. Just move home, I don't see why you can't stay in contact unless he would lovebust you. You don't spend UA time together anyway so you wouldn't even be losing any time with your husband by doing this.
If I had standards, I never would have had the affair in the first place. I don't want to lose my marriage, I've worked so very hard the last 2 years to make things better, to make things right. I don't know "how" to make him see or understand that his behaviour is how it was pre affair, If I say that to him, he will say "so it's my fault you had the affair".
Mrs_cen, you surprise me! You have been here long enough to know that having standards is no insurance against affairs. You know how affairs happen. Guarding your love bank against outside threats is far more effective. If you allow somebody to make enough love bank deposits, your moral principles will not save you.
At this stage, the affair should be ancient history. The only reason RNR brings it up is to use it to control and abuse you. You need to plan for a separation. You have given this your best shot. If RNR will not join you in this partnership, then that is his choice. It is not your fault; rather you should be commended for doing all you could to make the marriage work.
The only reason RNR brings it up is to use it to control and abuse you.
Which truly is disgusting, but Mrs Cen implied she does this too. She wants change, but telling him it's 'pre affair' behaviour turns a request into a demand.
No BS could hear that without hearing the implication of punishment.
There's a difference in calling it behaviour which may lead to a divorce. Subtle but very different.
Indie - I've NEVER said to him, "it's pre-affair behaviour", it's what I feel, how I'm discribing the behaviour to the group, his behaviour now is how it was before the affair, Actually saying those words (IMO) implies that my affair was his fault, obviously it was not.
That's very good news. I see now that the way you phrased it was actually a musing of how you couldn't say it and a prediction that he would (correctly) see it as a DJ/demand.
But it's important to note that you were considering it. I think you were saying 'I can't say THAT but what can I say to stress how serious it is?' (correct me if I'm misreading you).
That's why a willingness to leave when faced with neglect or abuse is so important. When abused, you have two options for survival: Abuse them back or leave.
So, I did talk to him, he said he's not going back and if I want to go then I am free to do so, I asked him if he would bring me home (I'm terrified to fly alone) he said I can do it alone. I guess that's that then. What happened? What did I do wrong? (In the recovery)
So, I did talk to him, he said he's not going back and if I want to go then I am free to do so, I asked him if he would bring me home (I'm terrified to fly alone) he said I can do it alone. I guess that's that then. What happened? What did I do wrong? (In the recovery)
Oh nooooo...that is a terrible response from him.
Has he flat-out refused to work on treating you better?
So, I did talk to him, he said he's not going back and if I want to go then I am free to do so, I asked him if he would bring me home (I'm terrified to fly alone) he said I can do it alone. I guess that's that then. What happened? What did I do wrong? (In the recovery)
Oh nooooo...that is a terrible response from him.
Has he flat-out refused to work on treating you better?
What does that have to do with the price of tea in China, Gamma? Her affair is a problem of the past. The current problem is her husband's unwillingness to treat her with care.
You need to go home to your family, mrs_cen. Do not stay with a man who refuses to follow the program.
What happened? What did I do wrong? (In the recovery)
mrs_cen, there are a lot of men that are neglectful of their wives. The wives don't cause the neglect. The men just mistakenly think that a marriage shouldn't take that much effort from them.
It's not because you did anything wrong in recovery, and it's not because you had an affair (he was like this before the affair, wasn't he?) And it has nothing to do with polygraphs or whatever.
When a wife is abused, it is not her fault. When a wife is neglected, it is not her fault.
Marriage Builders exists to help educate men that wives can't and shouldn't live in a marriage where they are neglected. It is primarily a program for men to learn what their wives needs are and how to meet them.
Here is the thing, mrs_cen. You must go for broke. You must let him know that if you can't have a marriage where he gives you the care you need, then you can't be with him at all. And then you must go. You absolutely must follow through with this. It's the last chance for your marriage. It's the last thing you can do. You want to give this every shot you can, right? If so, this is what you need to do.
I try to encourage everybody to listen to the Marriage Builders Radio show daily, and one reason I do that is because I want you to hear Dr. Harley give this advice, over and over again, and I want you to hear what happens when people follow it, and I want you to hear what happens when people do not follow it. I hope you are listening.
Alright, so then first thing I need to do is to insist on the 20hours of UA time, and if he doesn't want to then I go to plan B?
As indie touched on, Plan B is not applicable to your situation. Plan B is a very specific plan designed to win back a wayward spouse during an affair and preserve the love bank balance of the betrayed spouse. As soon as the affair ends, recovery begins and plan B ends.
Dr. Harley advocates separation in some circumstances but it should not be confused with plan B
Alright, so then first thing I need to do is to insist on the 20hours of UA time, and if he doesn't want to then I go to plan B?
As indie touched on, Plan B is not applicable to your situation. Plan B is a very specific plan designed to win back a wayward spouse during an affair and preserve the love bank balance of the betrayed spouse. As soon as the affair ends, recovery begins and plan B ends.
Dr. Harley advocates separation in some circumstances but it should not be confused with plan B
No Jedi that isn't correct.
Matter of fact, here is a clip talking about this very thing.
Here is your show segment where Dr. Harley tells you to go back home if things don't change. He also told you to keep in touch with him and let him know how things are going:
Zach, still multiple paragraphs about this "friend", yet you won't actually act on healing your marriage (wife mentioned only in brief passing...). Yep, self delusion is common, isn't it?
Thanks for clearing something up for me. So Marriage Builders exists only to educate men that they must not neglect their wives? One way street? Seems to me it is a two way street.
Let's define terms: Neglect = not meeting your spouses needs. I find it hard to believe that, if partner1 is meeting the needs of partner2, then partner 2 would want to keep that going and so make at least a reasonable effort to meet partner1's needs as well. If that is the case, the neglectful partner2 is not behaving rationally and may need professional help.
More likely, partner1 may be trying, but missing the mark, and could even be making things worse. The neglect is a sure sign that something is wrong. Sometimes things just change.
Why is it solely up to the man to meet the woman's needs, and no vice versa?
I have told him I'm going home, I've drafted a letter to our landlord stating that our last day will be June 30/15 (H doesn't want to stay in the house) He doesn't seem at all concerned that I'm going, perhaps he doesn't think I'm going. I have not followed up with Dr. Harley, I believe he will suggest (as he did in our radio show) that I DO go home.
I will email Dr. Harley. I'm staying until June 28, our daughters last day of school is the 26th of June so after school's out, her and I will head home.
I will email Dr. Harley. I'm staying until June 28, our daughters last day of school is the 26th of June so after school's out, her and I will head home.
I think you're doing the best thing. Let us know what Dr. Harley says.
Hello All! Just an update ~ I'm still "here" and reading all the posts etc. Our daughter and I left NL in June to come home, my H was no longer willing to follow any of the steps to continue with our recovery. He has attempted no contact with me and none with our daughter. I filed for divorce and have to wait until June 2016 for it to be final. I have my own place with both kids, a good job and my family. I miss him.
Hello All! Just an update ~ I'm still "here" and reading all the posts etc. Our daughter and I left NL in June to come home, my H was no longer willing to follow any of the steps to continue with our recovery. He has attempted no contact with me and none with our daughter. I filed for divorce and have to wait until June 2016 for it to be final. I have my own place with both kids, a good job and my family. I miss him.
Hello!! So nice to hear from you.
How many times has he tried to contact you? Are you in Plan B? Do you have an IM?
I am very glad to hear this, mrs_cen. You gave all that you could, and your husband just would not get on board. This is the best thing for you and your kids!
Hello All! Just an update ~ I'm still "here" and reading all the posts etc. Our daughter and I left NL in June to come home, my H was no longer willing to follow any of the steps to continue with our recovery. He has attempted no contact with me and none with our daughter. I filed for divorce and have to wait until June 2016 for it to be final. I have my own place with both kids, a good job and my family. I miss him.
Good for you, Mrs cen. It's a shame, but you looked hard facts in the face and refused to compromise on what marriage is. At the very least it's 15 hours of the dozens in the week!
He wanted you to drag him uphill by the heels and you would have got nothing out of being played like that.
Being on your own is easier and more fun than playing that game.
I am very glad to hear this, mrs_cen. You gave all that you could, and your husband just would not get on board. This is the best thing for you and your kids!
You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink.
Are you really THAT desperate for a man that you have to choose between an abusive husband who didn't value you over his money, and a scumbag OM who would use a married woman? Seriously? You can't find any better options?
I'm Feb of this year, I got a msg from an old friend (one I'd known for 15 years) asking me to go have a coffee - I did, I thought nothing of going BUT that was the start. Without going into the griddy details to much - my H found out, I was honest with him, I never denied or tried to hide it. He began divorce proceedings and permanent custody orders immediatley. The OM threatened to end it with me,if I refused to move in with him. I realized I didn't love the OM, that I wanted my family back.
This guy?
The one who threatened you, in his attempt to break up your marriage and deprive your daughter of her father?
The one who thought he could build a loving life together with someone he had to threaten into staying with him?
Hello All, That is NOT me. BH and I moved to NL IN September 2013, I stayed in NL until June 2015 and then my daughter and I moved home. I filed for divorce in August 2015 but our divorce will not be final until June 2017 - as you are required to have residence I. The province in which you file for one year. BH has not been in contact with me for about 6 months, but is regularly in contact with our daughter (he calls my mom's after school but before I come to get her) I have NOT been in contact with the OM since things ended, nor do I have any desire to be. I must say I'm offended and hurt that you all would think that?!?!?! I still come and read all the posts here, and I've continued to try and follow Dr. Harley's principles in my own life - the last thing I would do is return to a relationship that destroyed my marriage as well as introduce my children to it! Thanks for doubting me though!
Also...same writing style. Juliet gingerbee and mrscen both start "paragraph" by hitting return but not separating with a space (example provided below). Not many people write that way.
Also I can't think of a couple who both posted here in the last few years, were on the radio show, and then separated due to the BH's AOs and not being on board with recovery.
There's not one doubt in my mind you are both the same person.
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6 years ago I had an affair. It was short lived, and my husband came to this site and followed all the rules for exposure etc! I ended the affair and we made a commitment to save our marriage. For the first 4 months following the affair he and I did EVERYTHING by the book, we were even on Dr. Harley's show. That faded very quickly, and he became abusive, in December of 2013 I left, filed for divorce and had no contact with him not he with our children for almost a year. Once our divorce was final, I reconnected with my affair partner and we began dating, we've been dating for almost a year now.
Originally Posted by mrs_cen
Hello All, That is NOT me. BH and I moved to NL IN September 2013, I stayed in NL until June 2015 and then my daughter and I moved home. I filed for divorce in August 2015 but our divorce will not be final until June 2017 - as you are required to have residence I. The province in which you file for one year. BH has not been in contact with me for about 6 months, but is regularly in contact with our daughter (he calls my mom's after school but before I come to get her) I have NOT been in contact with the OM since things ended, nor do I have any desire to be. I must say I'm offended and hurt that you all would think that?!?!?! I still come and read all the posts here, and I've continued to try and follow Dr. Harley's principles in my own life - the last thing I would do is return to a relationship that destroyed my marriage as well as introduce my children to it! Thanks for doubting me though!
every one is entitled to their opinion. I simply said my piece and that's that, what the forum and its members chose to do with it, isn't up to me. I'm not embarrassed by how life has turned out for me. I had an affair, I worked hard to fix it, my husband didn't want to, I moved home and am moving on.
I must say I'm offended and hurt that you all would think that?!?!?! ... Thanks for doubting me though!
It is so wayward to respond with extreme offense when suspected. It's not going to work here.
A few years ago, someone on this board suspected I was having another affair and suggested it to markos. I wasn't offended -- my response was to try to prove my innocence. Only the guilty try to gaslight by being so offended.
You sound the way you did when you arrived on the board -- defensive and combative. I'm so disappointed
I think it is likely the Juliet_gingerbee is a fantasy identity that was created to play out a scenario on the forum just to see how we would react. I think it is questionable as to what is reality. It is entirely plausible that mrs_cen was only pretending. So, what then would be the offense? Quite simply, it is a waste of the valuable time of volunteers. It is like calling 911 just to see if the first responders will come.
mrs_cen - please let us address your real issues and don't play games. It doesn't help us help you when you are verifiably untruthful. Tell us what is really up so we can help you.
Julliet_Gingerbee sounds an awful lot like the alias �Romeo Gingerbeef� that the OM went by on FaceBook back when the affair happened. Its good to know that the child is being subjected to a known drug dealer.
Yeah, I am RNR. Its been so long since I've been to this forum that I could not remember my password. I also have a new email and could not retrieve my old password.
Yeah, I am RNR. Its been so long since I've been to this forum that I could not remember my password. I also have a new email and could not retrieve my old password.
Yeah, I am RNR. Its been so long since I've been to this forum that I could not remember my password. I also have a new email and could not retrieve my old password.
So have you filed for divorce? What's going on?
I'll answer that question for you all. NO, he has not filed, I filed and he has and continues to hide from my lawyers, and he has made zero efforts to help support our child. He promises our child a great deal - he will send money to her, he's going to be here to take her to her first day of school etc. For the record, I am not dating, living with, etc, etc the other man.
Yeah, I am RNR. Its been so long since I've been to this forum that I could not remember my password. I also have a new email and could not retrieve my old password.
So have you filed for divorce? What's going on?
I'll answer that question for you all. NO, he has not filed, I filed and he has and continues to hide from my lawyers, and he has made zero efforts to help support our child. He promises our child a great deal - he will send money to her, he's going to be here to take her to her first day of school etc.
Let me just mention the obvious, that neither one of you can make the other do anything. If these are things you want him to do then you would probably need to consider providing him some incentive to do them.
People who are getting a divorce rarely cooperate with each other. If they were cooperative they most likely wouldn't be getting the divorce.
Markos, what other "incentive" could I possibly give the man? He has had unwavering contact with our daughter at every opportunity. I'm not asking for a single thing from him, other than the divorce papers signed and support for OUR child.
For the record, I am not dating, living with, etc, etc the other man.
Okay, but you are still seeing him, right? He can still contact you, right? I assume you haven't made it impossible for him to contact you and you haven't completely closed the door on him for life.
I would encourage you to do so because this guy is not good for you at all.
Markos, what other "incentive" could I possibly give the man?
You would be more likely to be able to figure that out than me, because you know him better.
It would probably be best for you to not count on him doing anything you are wanting and to simply not see or talk to him any more. Otherwise you will probably just be miserable for the rest of your life, which is what happens when divorced single mothers try to get their ex husbands to do what they think they should do as fathers.
You can make yourself miserable about what you believe he should do.
Or you can stop letting yourself be triggered to remember your soon to be ex husband and build a happy life for yourself without him. You just can't do that if you are going to talk about what he should do.
Or you can offer him some sort of incentive to try to motivate him - you get something you want from him, he gets something he wants from you.
I would never condone the first and I think anybody who helps you do that route, talking with you and dwelling on it and commiserating with you, isn't a friend to you at all.
And my guess is you'd rather die than do the third because after all in your opinion this is just what he should do.
That leaves you pretty much with the middle option.
My guess is you are going to take the first, but if you try to use this board as a place to complain about him I will be here to remind you why this is a bad idea, and I don't think you'll like the experience very much.
I have not seen or been in contact with either my husband - who resides in a different province OR the other man. The only thing I think he "should" do is sign the divorce papers - why in the world wouldn't anyone? Of course I can't "make" him, I haven't been able to make him do anything - certainly not in the time we were married and more so now. I never posted on another name.
The moderators are looking at evidence that this poster is actually mrs_cen.
Since the moderators went to a lot of trouble to help mrs_cen in the past, and took a lot of flack for it, we certainly have no intention of permitting mrs_cen to deceive all of our regular posters by creating a new account and changing her story slightly to disguise her identity.
Juliet/mrs_cen, you may not need approval emotionally, but if you want to post on the Marriage Builders forum, you do need approval to do so from the Marriage Builders forum moderators. To get that, you will need to abide by our rules, which prohibit posting from multiple accounts in order to deceive our posters by hiding your identity.
If you have any questions, email me or any of the other moderators. We would certainly like to talk to you about this.
I have not seen or been in contact with either my husband - who resides in a different province OR the other man.
I notice you didn't answer the question I asked. You just repeated yourself. You haven't changed your contact info so that the OM can't find you, right?
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The only thing I think he "should" do is sign the divorce papers - why in the world wouldn't anyone? Of course I can't "make" him, I haven't been able to make him do anything - certainly not in the time we were married and more so now.
You should probably talk to your lawyer about that rather than us. This is an extremely common legal situation that lawyers can handle.
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I never posted on another name.
Let us know when you are ready to be honest about this.
Yeah, I am RNR. Its been so long since I've been to this forum that I could not remember my password. I also have a new email and could not retrieve my old password.
So have you filed for divorce? What's going on?
I'll answer that question for you all. NO, he has not filed, I filed and he has and continues to hide from my lawyers, and he has made zero efforts to help support our child. He promises our child a great deal - he will send money to her, he's going to be here to take her to her first day of school etc. For the record, I am not dating, living with, etc, etc the other man.
You know, it's interesting that you did not address your husband's statement about the OM's alias "Romeo Gingerbeef" on Facebook, but instead quite aggressively jumped in and made a lot of noise to change the subject. Gaslighting.