Dreading my upcoming wedding/marriage - 02/16/22 02:22 AM
Hello,
I am 25 (female) and my fiancé is 24 (male). Our wedding is in one month. We have been together for 3.5 years total and our entire relationship has been long distance.
I am not looking forward to this wedding/marriage for a few reasons. Mainly, I dread sex with him. I’ve never enjoyed sex with him and it has always felt forced. Second, I will have to move far away and change my job, etc which is worsening my depression. Third, we are not able to use any form of contraception for religious reasons and I really don’t want kids right now (with him). Lastly, I am still hung up over an affair I had for the past 2+ years of our relationship. I only saw this other guy on occasion but it left me heartbroken (inevitably). I’ve expressed all these concerns to him (except the affair) several times. We already called off the wedding once but nothing has changed.
I told our priest about my affair and he advised me not to tell my fiancé about it if I still wanted to go through with the marriage. I am choosing to go through with it but I feel like it would be a LOT easier to accept this marriage if there was absolutely no sex which is obviously not going to happen.
I am 25 (female) and my fiancé is 24 (male). Our wedding is in one month. We have been together for 3.5 years total and our entire relationship has been long distance.
I am not looking forward to this wedding/marriage for a few reasons. Mainly, I dread sex with him. I’ve never enjoyed sex with him and it has always felt forced. Second, I will have to move far away and change my job, etc which is worsening my depression. Third, we are not able to use any form of contraception for religious reasons and I really don’t want kids right now (with him). Lastly, I am still hung up over an affair I had for the past 2+ years of our relationship. I only saw this other guy on occasion but it left me heartbroken (inevitably). I’ve expressed all these concerns to him (except the affair) several times. We already called off the wedding once but nothing has changed.
I told our priest about my affair and he advised me not to tell my fiancé about it if I still wanted to go through with the marriage. I am choosing to go through with it but I feel like it would be a LOT easier to accept this marriage if there was absolutely no sex which is obviously not going to happen.