together but not sure why anymore - 02/10/09 05:35 PM
We've been together for 9 years this month. Seems like 40. I'm having a hard time putting thought into words, I'm tired and frustrated. Before the affairs started, he made me feel like I was thee luckiest woman on the planet, he spoiled me with love, attention, affection, help with the house, help with the kids. He didn't shy from expressing his love and admiration for me both verbally and written, how could I not want to love him back?
Since the affairs became public, all that he gave before has stopped and while he totally ignores any needs I may have, expects me to give what I gave in the beginning and sees no reason that I shouldn't be giving him everything.
I tell him what I want and need, no response from him. I don't know how much longer I can do this and often dream of leaving, he cheats on me, he ignores my needs but expects me to fully satisfy his needs, which are by the way mostly just sexual as his need for companionship, communication are met by the other women he reaches out to. I don't take our relationship lightly especially since there are kids involved, someone please help me.
Since the affairs became public, all that he gave before has stopped and while he totally ignores any needs I may have, expects me to give what I gave in the beginning and sees no reason that I shouldn't be giving him everything.
I tell him what I want and need, no response from him. I don't know how much longer I can do this and often dream of leaving, he cheats on me, he ignores my needs but expects me to fully satisfy his needs, which are by the way mostly just sexual as his need for companionship, communication are met by the other women he reaches out to. I don't take our relationship lightly especially since there are kids involved, someone please help me.