Obsessed with My old life - 06/06/10 03:07 PM
It has been a while since I have been 'round these parts.
I am 4 years out from Dday and 3 odd years from divorce. I am in a 'new' (a year long) relationship with a decent man.
Problem -
I can't let my old life go.
The one where mom and dad live with 2 DD's in a quaint shore town with the happily ever after. Needless to say x married OW and she is living the life I laid out. Stay at home mom with no kids of her own while I struggle to make ends meet in a city I am less than thrilled with dealing with reality.
To say I covet my neighbors goods would be the understatement of the year! I miss my old friends, his family, the comfort of financial security and my 'planned' life.
I know I don't want to be w. ex. He cheated 3 different times in a 5 year marriage and completely destroyed me. Unfortunately, I watch his life improved exponentially while I tread water.
Do I need to seek IC for my outrageous jealousy issues? In all actions and deeds I have moved on but my head can't quit on how he and OW have all that I want.
Help.
I am 4 years out from Dday and 3 odd years from divorce. I am in a 'new' (a year long) relationship with a decent man.
Problem -
I can't let my old life go.
The one where mom and dad live with 2 DD's in a quaint shore town with the happily ever after. Needless to say x married OW and she is living the life I laid out. Stay at home mom with no kids of her own while I struggle to make ends meet in a city I am less than thrilled with dealing with reality.
To say I covet my neighbors goods would be the understatement of the year! I miss my old friends, his family, the comfort of financial security and my 'planned' life.
I know I don't want to be w. ex. He cheated 3 different times in a 5 year marriage and completely destroyed me. Unfortunately, I watch his life improved exponentially while I tread water.
Do I need to seek IC for my outrageous jealousy issues? In all actions and deeds I have moved on but my head can't quit on how he and OW have all that I want.
Help.